Is it very easy to mend once broken? Isn't human heart like a glass? Once shattered or broken , how much you ever try or deny the fact, the pain is forever. It will rip your heart into zillion pieces and then have the audacity to ask you, " How are you holding up"? The flow of water from your eyes never has a full stop button. It keeps on pouring for don't know still when.

Things once broken , when mended, leaves broken patches. Does human heart too? I had this thought since childhood. I've read somewhere once aheart is broken , time heals it . Does time really have this supernatural power? Is time a machine to fix everything?If we don't want it to be broken then why risking by handing it over to someone?

It's not in our hands whom we fall for. It happens naturally. But when the reality creeps in , everything falls like a sand palace. You actually be doing everything you would never have thought to do . You make someone your priority , forgets everything about you , and then you are the one at the receiving end.

Does breakup hurts? Isn't it good to let go of someone who has hurt you innumerable times? To live for ourselves and never fall again . Doesn't it gives us a lesson? A real time check to understand how vulnerable we are. There's two facts : one , we let go of someone , we thought to make it a lifetime promise. Second , we let go of someone , who has been a constant.

Where do I stand. Not in both of the above mentioned facts. A very different , difficult one . As I have mentioned already , we can't help whom we fall for. This thing is either complicated or we tend to complicate it. I did fall for someone,whom I wanted to make constant or make a lifetime promise, yet am the one at the receiving end. Why?Because I over loved or didn't make any efforts to make him stay. But how can I make him stay , when he don't want to? How am I supposed to stay in forever , when the only effort is mine? And the biggest question is how can I let go of someone my heart yearned for ?

Loving him was never in my plan, but what couldi do , when it wants only him . The man who made me laugh only to leave me intears. I and him were 'US' for years, little did i know it wasn't forever.Little did i know he would let me fall where I can't wake up again. He was myteeny tiny crush first , in order. It took a lot of courage and overnight sleepsto confess it to him.

"Hey , i need to tell you something." I say .

" You really asking for permission . I must say am shocked. Say whatever it is. Why a proluge and all?

"Yeah, so , umm , yes , no, I mean . Just wanted to say that ...."

"What happened ? Why are you nervous ?"

"Don't cut me ... Let me say ....(huh, why is it so hard?)

He's standing clueless . I so wanted to laugh at his cute face .

"I LOVE YOU, like i do really. Its not necessary that you feel the same , its okay to not have feelings though. I just want to confess . we are and will be friends . ....."

" Hold your horses ... I do too but was scared of your reaction ."

He left me dumbfounded . I never in a million galaxies thought he would just say that . He's my bestfriend . My first friend .

But i would say never fall your bestfriend .

Because your expectations will break you , rip you and leave you empty handed.

" Why can't you understand its very important for me to go ?'He say.

" AM I NOT UNDERSTANDING ? YOU HAVE BEEN IGNORING ME AND THEN PLAYING 'THE VICTIM CARD'"

" stop yelling. Its for both of us . "

" I'm not against your dreams , I just want to know when you will be back?"

"I can't say that now "

How does a heart shatters ?

Its like a million of glasses break and the echo resonates in the confines of the walls, vibrating through every nerve fibre painfully , and the broken, asymmetrical , uneven pieces laugh at you with the reflection of your bleeding heart.

There he was giving his full blown smile. That made my heart go into a mini sommersault . I wished that was for me. But no . Sometimes the reality is a big disaster.

" Its not that. "

" Then what it is ? care to explain ?" i say

"We just can't be ... Its over . We really not meant to forever ."

I can see his eyes brimming , he's doing it not for him, I can feel his heart shattering .... But he's letting me go..

Something within me broke but no sound . Little didIi know it was my poor heart .

The blaring of loudspeakers brought me to reality. I walked over to the stage with four things : a broken heart , a fake smile , red eyes and a gift hamper.

"Its my wedding , will you be able to make it '

"I would definitely. After all my bestfriend is getting hitched." I say.

"I will be expecting you "

A lone tear escaped from my eyes with millions after that . Its been exactly two years for us to be not together anymore. He has moved on , but i couldn't .

It never works when the girl is more loving than the boy .....

I learned it a bit late .

"You made it."

"Told ya , how can I miss it " I say.

'Thank you "

"Congratulations"

Break up hurts . Its not an easy thing. Letting go of someone you meant to walk forever holding hands ... simply slipping your hands off from them and you standing alone , stranded , defeated....

" why do you like my eyes so much?"i say.

"Because it conveys far better than your mouth "

"Hein"

"Haan"

But you left it pouring .

Listening to others story is okay but explaining life is hard..

AND ... LIFE RHYMED JUST RIGHT WHEN WE MET BUT ALAS, WE WERE DEAF..