"Can I ask you something?" I asked Jessica as I dug my spoon deeper into the bowl. After Aiden dropped me off, I spent the night going over everything in my head. I came back to an empty house, and figured Jessica spent the night at Shawn's place. Mason didn't come home until around 3 in the morning, I heard his footsteps from the hallway as he walked over to his room and slammed the door shut.

Last night didn't go as planned, same as everything else in my life. I kept thinking about the words Aiden said to me as I sat on his lap. He almost seemed... uncomfortable. It didn't make sense that night, and it still doesn't this morning.

When Aiden and I were together we would have sex pretty often, at least as often as I think couples have sex. Aiden is the only guy I've been in a relationship with, so I don't have anyone else to compare it to. But still, even then he never refused me.

I woke up this morning feeling tired since I only slept a few hours. I immediately went over to my Cinnamon Toast Crunch, and poured myself a bowl. It was my favorite cereal, and I wasn't in the mood to actually cook something.

Jessica seemed to be in a good mood, and it didn't take long to guess why. I'm happy for her and Shawn, but while she was filling me in on all the gory details I found myself almost starting to envy it all.

Something I've learned so far this summer is that everyone has a story to tell, everyone has done so many different exciting things while I haven't. Memories of Aiden's party at the beginning of this summer come flooding back into my mind. Everyone taking shots for all the dirty things they've done, while me sitting in the corner sober as a judge.

"Sure," Jessica replied, breaking me away from my thoughts. I let go of my spoon and turn to face her. We were both sitting on the stools in front of the island in the kitchen, and unlike me Jessica actually made breakfast. It was just eggs and toast, but still when I turned around and got a whiff of it, it couldn't help but make my stomach growl.

"How do you know when it's the right time to sleep with someone?" Jessica takes a moment to process my words.

"Wait... Are you talking about Aiden?" I start to feel slightly embarrassed about her question, "I remember you two used to practically rip each other's clothes off every chance you guys got." Well, not really.

During the time Aiden and I dated, Jessica would always try to ask about the details, she wanted to know everything. And I admit, sometimes I would make them sound more risque than they really were. I would always hear stories about her and Shawn at parties, or behind the bleachers at school, and a part of me didn't want our sex life to sound so boring. Truth is, Aiden and I haven't had sex in any other place besides a bed, he made sure of it.

"What happened?" She asked. I sucked in a deep breath and slowly exhaled.

"Well last night I tried, and he didn't seem very into it. I know it isn't that big of a deal, but to be honest I felt rejected. I don't know, maybe we aren't there yet, but if we're not, I'm not sure how to get us to that point."

Her eyes softened at my words, I could see the pity in her eyes and I looked away. Jessica has never had this problem, whenever she wants to have sex, it happens. I don't want to force things with Aiden and I, but I am interested in hearing what Jessica has to say about this, maybe she can give me some helpful advice.

She opens her mouth to speak when we are both interrupted by the sound of Mason coming down the stairs. I turn my head to face him, and shift in my seat. He was wearing grey sweatpants, and a white sleeveless muscle tee. The sweatpants clung onto his waist so tightly I can almost see a print form as he walks down the stairs.

I force myself to look away. I haven't seen him since last night after I cleaned off his hands, and truth be told I could have gone longer without. It's quite difficult to stay away from someone while their room is down the hall from yours.

I'm still angry with him, I am sick and tired of trying to act like the better person. I always try not to give in but just once I want to.

"Let's just drop it." I say as the same time Jessica says,

"Why don't we ask Mason." His head shoots up at us as he walks into the kitchen, straight towards my box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. His hand grips the box, as he pulls a white bowl out of the cabinet. I almost say something, but that would require me to actually speak to him so I keep quiet.

"Jess-" She interrupts me before I can tell her not to.

"Mason, how do you know when it's the right time to have sex with someone? I mean, if you're taking things slow."

"How the fuck would I know?" He huffed and Jessica rolled her eyes at his answer. "Jessica, talking about your sex life bores me."

I watch as he leans against the counter in front of us, taking a bite of the cereal. A drop of milk lingers on the bottom of his lip, and he quickly licks it while his eyes pass mine.

"Not mine, Elle's." She motioned toward me, and Mason froze.

This cannot be happening.

"Oh," is all he says. I can't tell if he still isn't interested in the conversation or not, and I'm hoping he'll drop it. He takes a couple steps towards us and places his bowl on the island counter.

"You guys still haven't fucked, I see." I see a flash of emotion in his eyes, but I can't make out what it is.

The last thing I wanted was for Mason to know about any of this. I know he has his suspicions, but now he just got confirmation that he's been right all along.

"Elle, there's no need for you to be embarrassed. I mean, it's only Mason and I here, you can talk to us." She comforted, I can still feel Mason's eyes on me and I force myself to not look in his direction.

"I can't believe that he turned you down last night, it's no wonder you feel rejected." Jessica continued. Oh my God this cannot be happening...

"He turned you down?" Mason questioned. I know he's enjoying this. I can tell he's trying to hide the joy in his face but he's no good at it.

"It just wasn't the right moment." I say back. Mason nods his head slowly, it's very obvious he doesn't believe a word that just came out of my mouth.

"Or maybe there's someone else." He said, and I shook my head at his words. He has no idea what he's talking about.

"Someone else?" Jessica spoke up. I mentally curse her for keeping this conversation going.

"Either that or he doesn't find you sexually attractive." Mason shrugged casually at his words, taking another bite of his cereal. I grit my teeth in annoyance and refrain myself from snapping back at him.

"Of course Aiden finds Elle attractive." Jessica defends. I'm left feeling speechless, unsure of what to say at this moment as the conversation continues to carry on.

"He could, maybe just not sexually. Who knows, maybe you just don't do it for him like you used to." My eyes went wide as I looked up into his eyes.

"Or maybe unlike you, sex actually means something to him and he wants to make it special." I retorted

"Well then that would make him an even bigger square than before." I scoffed dramatically at his cruel words. "Would it be such a shock if he slept with someone else while he was away? I mean, you did."

A small smile crept onto his face while my blood continued to boil. My mouth gaped open and I felt my body start to shift in the seat as I was suddenly feeling a bit more self conscious. Jessica playfully slapped Mason's arm as a laugh escaped her lips.

"Mason, you are no help." She turned to me, "Just ignore him. If you want to have sex with Aiden, I say you try again." I nod my head, my eyes wondering all around the room as I slowly thought of all the ways it could go wrong.

My eyes connect with Mason's and I see his lips start to form a thin line.

"You're right." I answered, and Mason immediately raised his brow at my response.

"So what it didn't work the first time, that shouldn't stop me from trying again. Who knows, maybe I can try and wear something a little more revealing? I remember he always liked to see me in black." I keep my eyes on Mason as the words come out of my mouth.

Mason's eyes stay fixated on mine as his eyebrows move closer together forming wrinkles in his forehead. He clenched his jaw so hard I'm surprised his teeth didn't break from the pressure. But it only made me feel better.

"So, when is this happening?" Jessica asked me, oblivious to Mason's sudden mood change. I can hear him fuming with anger from beside me, his chest rising up and down as he manages to take deep breaths.

"Tonight," I said, my voice sounding a lot more cheerful. His gaze is still on me, as he stepped back from the counter, and walked away. Before he could get too far, I repeated my words once more to Jessica, loud enough for him to hear.

"I'm going to have sex with Aiden tonight."