Warning: Selfharm, suicide and abuse

15:32
"Loser, fag, loner..." that are just a few things they say at school. But the thing is the words don't hurt me anymore. I don't cry about the insults...

15:47
My arms hurt. My legs hurt. Everything hurts....
I just want to lay down and die.
The guys at school did that... They hit me in the head, and they trew me on the ground.
Why did they do that?

15:50
They do that because i am a worthless piece of shit... they say that, my family says that...
Who am i to deny it?
You are worthless, you are a stupid fag...
Everyone says so, it must be true.

19:46
There is blood on this book.
Its my blood.
My arm hurts, but it feels good.
I locked myself in the bathroom. If my parents find me, they will laugh and make it worse.

19:50
The voices in my head are finally silent.
I feel dizzy... i might faint...

20:12
I hear loud banging on the door. "Get out of there fag!" Someone is jelling.
My head hurts, i am sitting in a puddle of blood.
My own blood.
I hear a bang, someone kicked the door.
I get up, slowly. I grab a towel and wrap it around my arm, i grab some bandages and hide them in my pocket. I get out of the bathroom. I look at my dad. He was drunk again.
He hit me. My cheek glows. I try not to cry and speed walk to my room.

20:48
I bandag my arm. It doesnt hurt.
The voices in my head are beginning to wisper again.
You idiot, you deserve everything that happens to you

21:58
I need to sleep.
I cant the voices are screaming!
You stupid fag. You need to die! Why dont you kill yourself!

22:07
My dad comes in, he has a beer bottle in his hand. It looks almost empty...
He starts jelling: "what do you have there?" He points at the diary. '
"Nothing" I wisper, I try to hide the little book. "Give that to me, you fag!" I shove it underneath me. "No" I said a little more confident. My dad lifts up  his hand with the beer bottle. He smashes it against the wall, the glass shardes fall down on my head. "Give me that fucking book!" He screamed. I flinched and curled in a defensive ball. He hit me with the broken bottle andd walked.
My side stings, blood started to flow. I try not to cry.  Atleast he didnt see my diary.

That was the second chapter! What do you guys think about it?
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