Is it really that hard?
Should I just...let go?

Maybe I'll break,
delicately shattered shards,
because it's too hard.

There's no shame
In being in pain

Into the night, I'll let myself scream
As down tears soundlessly stream

The sky is dark, just as it always is
Speckled with stars, like silk adorned with worthless gems
Jewels that mean the world to me

And I'll leave behind my little pieces
Keep it in one place so that
When someone comes along
They can gather me up

Piece me together like the puzzles
I once spent long nights working upon

And when they finally ask me one simple question,
When they finally use my broken tools to fix me,
I'll barely say a word, falling once again.

"How did you fall?" they'll ask softly
As we breath the stinging cold air
Under the same stars I broke beneath

I'll gaze up at those worthless jewels
The ones that mean everything to me
My breath expelling puff of warmth as I whisper, "I walked off the cliff, silly."

~ Aria Ashtri
September 18th, 2020