Riots POV

I wake up and I yawn and I check my phone and its about 3 in the morning "why the fuck am I up so early?" I ask myself then I feel a pricing pain shoot threw my stomach and I get up and I run to the toilet and I throw up

I feel someone hold my hair and I look in the mirror and I see Andy and I throw up more and more and once I'm done I flush the toilet "what's up?" He asks "I dont know" I say my voice scratchy

"Just, take a shower, get dressed, do whatever you need to do then come get some pain killers and maybe some other stuff" he says and I nod and he walks out and I strip and I get in the shower and I finish, good thing I keep my suitcase in here

I dry myself off and I get dressed, do my hair, put my shoes on and I brush my teeth (at the top) and I walk out and to Andy "your staying in bed
" he says "not happening" I say as my voice is still scratchy and he rolls his eyes

He gives me the medicine and I start to feel 100% better "thanks" I say and he nods and I see a text on my phone and I open it to see that jack texted me a pic of a bunny and I giggle "what a goof" I say out loud and I send him a selfie and he types back "gorgeous" and I smile

After about 3 hours of doing JACK SHIT! I walk out and everyone walks out and I see alex and jack and I run to them and I hug jack "hey Jackie" I say "hey marshmallow" he says

"Hey lex" I say and he smiles "hey" he says and he pulls me into a hug and I hug back then I see Lisa come out the buss "get away from him" she hisses and pushes me away and I almost fall till jack catches me

"Lex?" I ask as tears fill my eyes "sorry, she wanted me back and-" I cut him off "no, no I get it, I dont care, if you get hurt again, dont come crying to me, Im certain she will do something like that again" I say as tears roll down my face

"This is what I get for getting close to someone again" I mumble and he hears it and guilt fills his eyes and I turn and I walk away as tears roll down my face and I walk back to my buss

Once I get there the buss is empty, I go to the bathroom and I lock the door and I look at myself in the mirror and I look at my wrists 'c'mon, two years you got to fight the erge! Do it for jack!' my heart screams

I take the blade and I press it to my wrist "I'm so sorry jack" I sob and I start to slash up my wrist again and after about 5 minutes if cutting I stop and I clean it and I wait till it scabs

And I pull my sleeves down and I wipe my eyes and I walk back out but I hold my sleeve down and I walk to jack and he hugs me and accidentally hits my wrist

I yelp in pain and he pulls away "you didnt, please tell me you didnt" he says and teats roll down my face and I pull my sleeve up and show him and I pull it back down as I start to sob and he pulls me into his chest

"I'm so sorry, I tried to fight it, I just couldn't" I sob quietly "this is because if alex right?" He asks and I nod "he let me kiss him and he made me believe he liked me" I sob quietly

"I'm begging you, please dont tell Andy" I sob "I won't, just please don't do it again, I believe in you! You can do it" he says and I nod "want me to clean it up and wrap it?" He asks and I nod

He keeps me cuddled into his side and takes me to his buss and we walk past alex and Lisa and she grabs my wrist and I scream in pain and she instantly let's go and blood drips on the floor from my wrist

"Riot?" Alex asks and my eyes widen and tears fall down my face and jack pulls me away from them and to the bathroom and he sees how bad it was and cleans it and wraps it

"Imma have a fuckin word with Lisa" he growls and he stomps out and I peek my head around the corner "how dare you" jack growls "what?" She asks with attitude "how dare you put your filthy hands on my best friend?" He growls

"You mean alex?" She asks "no, I Mean riot, how fuckin dare you" he growls he was scaring everyone around him, I dont think anyone's seen him like this and Lisa starts to shake

"I-im sorry" she squeaks "no your not" he growls "you did it on purpose, you saw her guarding her wrist, so you took the chance and grabbed it and squeezed it as hard as you could" he growls

"Jack that's enough" I say quietly as I walk to him and he looks at me and his eyes soften and he hugs me "alex, she either gets the fuck off this buss, or we're kicking you and her out" zack says angrily

And Rian glares at lisa and he nods "I think you should leave" he says and her eyes widen "what! You can't do that!" She yells "yes I can" he says sadly "WHATEVER I WAS CHEATING ON YOU ANYWAY!" She screams and slaps him as hard as she could

I get out of jacks arms and I pin her to the wall by her neck and her eyes widen "dont you DARE touch alex, you dont, never did and never will deserve him" I growl "and you being abusive just proves my point" I growl

She starts to fake cry to try and get alex to help her but jack holds him back "if I ever see you anywhere near the tour venues, the busses or him, I won't hesitate to beat the living shit outta you, DO YOU UNDERSTAND!" I yell

"Y-yes" she whimpers and I push her out the buss and I slam the door in her face and I sit on the couch and everyone calms down and Alex sits next to me and I totally ignore him

Then he tries to hug me "dont touch me" I hiss and he instantly pulls away as tears roll down my face and jack pulls me onto his lap as I silently cry into his chest

"Shhhh its ok" he whispers as my body shakes with sobs and the guys are all glaring at alex and I hit my wrist and I yelp and I hold it

"You cut really deep" jack says "it'll heal in about a week, just be careful and come back to me and I'll rewrap it" he says and I nod and I sniff and I wipe my eyes

"I'm begging all of you please dont tell Andy" I sob "we won't, I'll make sure of that" jack says and I nod "j-jack?" I whimper "yeah?" He says "c-can I stay with you tonight?" I ask "of course you can" he says

"T-thank you" I whimper "just until my wrists heal" I tell him "of course your welcome anytime" he says "thanks, imma head to bed, its been a long day, can I borrow a shirt?" I ask

"Yeah, I dont mind what one" he says and I nod and I walk to his bunk and I grab his boner shirt and I strip and I put it on and I slide into his bunk carefully to not hurt my wrist and I hear talking

"I can't believe you dude" I hear jack say "how is this my fault?" I hear alex ask "you let her kiss you! You made her believe you were different to her ex, she really loved you, and yet you got back with Lisa right in front of her ad Lisa ended up hurting her" jack says annoyed

"S-she loved me?" alex asks "very much, she was heartbroken when I saw her when she had just finish cutting" jack says and tears well up in my eyes again

"I broke her didn't I?" Alex whimpers "very much" jack says and tears roll down my face as I pull the covers over my head "she really thought you were different alex, remember it wasn't just physical abuse, it was mental to" jack says

"I totally forgot she told me" alex says sadly as even more tears run down my face and I clench the comforter in my hand as my body shakes with sobs "what have I done?" alex says "i dont know, but it was enough that she started to cut again, alex she was clean for two years, two years" jack scolded

"I ruined her recovery" he whimpers and I get out the bunk and walk silently towards them "no you didnt, it was my fault for getting to attached" I sob and they all look at me and my knees buckle and I fall to the ground sobbing and jack and alex run to me

Jack pulls me into his chest as I sob and I cling to his top as he strokes my hair "shhhh, its ok" jack says softly as I open my eyes I see alex with guilt, regret and sadness in his eyes and I hug onto jack more

"C'mon, let's get you to bed" he says and he picks me up and takes me to his bunk and gently lays me in there "please dont be harsh to him, its my fault for getting to attached" I say

"No its not your fault, you can't control who you fall for, its his fault for leading you on" jack says "your like a little sister to me, and it hurts to see you like this, so tomorrow I want you to dress to impress, make him see what he lost" jack says with a grin and I grin back

"I love you" he says "I love you to" I say and he kisses my head and walks away and I smile and snuggle into the bunk finally finding sleep

I wake up and I yawn and I stretch and I get outta jacks bunk and I see him sitting down looking at his phone "morning" I say and he looks up at me "morning" he says back

He chucks clothes at me and I catch them "ash brought them over, she knows what happened, but you trust her" he says and I nod "I'm getting in the shower, imma need you to rewrap them when I'm ready" I say

"Of course I will, now go take a relaxing shower, you deserve it, I'll tell the guys" he says and I nod "love you" I say "love you to" he says

I walk to the bathroom past alex and I completely ignore him blinking tears back and I go to the bathroom and I lock the door and I run a shower and I stop and get in and I sit on the floor leaning against the wall

After a couple minutes I start to wash my hair abd once I'm done, I get out and dry myself off and I get changed

And I apply some winged eyeliner and about 3 coats of my favorite mascara and a little bit of strawberry lip gloss and I put my hat on and I cover my wrist and I walk out

Once I get to the main bit where all the guys are I walk in and all eyes are on me and jack gets up and hugs me and I hug back "you look gorgeous" he whispers "thank you" I whisper back

I sit down next to jack and Rian while zack stood behind me it was like having three body guards and I giggle at the thought "what you giggling about?" Jack asks

"Its like I have my very own body guards" I say as I giggle and they all chuckle even alex "so what you wanna do?" Jack asks me "uuuh, I dont really know" I say as I giggle

"Your so giggly today" jack says and I giggle more "I guess its cuz your all complimenting me, saying I'm beautiful, it makes me happy and giggly" I say with a smile

"Awww!" They all say and alex just smiles to himself and I ignore him "so what are you guys up for?" I ask "uuuh, you wanna go sight seeing?" Zack asks "yeah! What state are we in? I dont pay attention to Andy" I say

All the guys laugh "we're in Hollywood" jack says "ok yeah let's go sight seeing!" I giggle and they all smile "ok, let us all get ready and we'll go" jack says and kisses my head

I swear he's more protective then Andy is, speaking of that I dont look a thing like my parents nor Andy but I look almost identical to jack "jack? C'mere" I say and he walks up to me

"Yeah?" He asks "I just realized that I look nothing like my parents or Andy but I look almost identical to you" I say "I'm so glad Im not the only one" he says

"Can we go visit your mom?" I ask "after these couple venue's, we're heading to Baltimore so we'll go then" he says and I nod "go get ready you lankey asshole!" I say playfully and he chuckles "very lady like" he says "fuck off barakat!" I say and he laughs

"Ok ok I'll go! You fuckin muffin" he says and I almost die laughing "did you just call me a fuckin muffin?" I ask between laughs and he laughs "yes I did" he says and I laugh more

"You even sound like me" he says "I'm pretty sure we're siblings, thats crazy, but why did Andy and my 'parents' have me?" I ask "I honestly dont know, I remember growing up with a sister till I was about 9" he says

"I remember growing up with a brother who wasn't Andy until I was about 5" I say "wait, how old are you?" He asks me "I'm 25" I say and our eyes widen

"What the fuck! You might be my sibling!" We both say and I put my hands in my hair "what the fuck, why did our parents tell us?" I say "I dont know, but after you or the girl left, my mom and dad wouldn't stop crying for about a month" he says

"Hoooooly shit" I say "just go get ready, we'll figure this out" I say and he nods and goes to get ready as I try and dig threw my memories trying to fine something! Anything

Then a memory flashes threw my mind

Flashback:

"Jackie! Wait for me!" 5 year old me squeal and he stops and takes my hand "where we going?" I ask "we're going to see something rad!" 9 year old jack exclaims and I giggle "ok!" I exclaim and we get to a hill and the sunsets "wow! Its so pretty!" We both say and I hug onto him and he hugs back "c'mon we have to get home" he saya and I nod abd we start to walk and I get tired and start to walk slower until I lose jack "j-jack?" I whimper as tears fall down my face then I see a lady and she picks me up and tajes me to her car and she drives to an orphanage and drops me off

1 month later

I was called down and I see two people and a little boy and I start to cry and he comes over and hugs me and I cry into him and the couple adopt me

Flashback over

Tears fall down my eyes "JACK!" I yell and he walks in and he runs over "I remember what happened! We were watching the sunset and I got tired on the way back and walked slower till I lost you! I got taken to an orphanage and adopted by Andy's parents" I sob

"Oh my god" he says and I nod "I finally found you!" He exclaims and I hug him as tight as I could afraid he'd disappear again as I cry I to him

"I'm so glad I found you" I sob "me to" he whimpers then the guys run in "whoa what's happened?" Alex asks and I glare at him "jack and I are siblings" I say and their eyes widen

I wipe my eyes, again water proof makeup is amazing and I get up and I smile at jack "love you" I say "I love you to" he says and I smile "now that we know we're brother and sister, you have to stop with the self harm stuff, I won't be mad if you do it, its hard but you can get threw this, we'll do it together" he says and I nod

"Are you guys ready to go sight seeing?" Zack asks and I nod excitedly and they chuckle and we walk out the buss and I see Andy "one second" I say and they nod and I walk over

"How could you?" I ask "what?" He asks confused "I'm adopted and you didnt tell me!" I say "how did you find out?" He asks annoyed "I have a thing called memory, I know who my sibling is and I'm moving to Baltimore with him" I say

"Fine leave, I dont care" he says and roll my eyes "I also have a gift for you" I say and he turns to me and I have my handa in my pockets and I take them out and flip him off "fuck you" I say as I walk off

"You are badass as hell" jack says "I know where I get it from" I say and he smile and I smile back "let's goooooo!" Jack yells and grabs my Hand and starts to run

"WENDY RUN AWAY WITH ME!" I sing at the top of my lungs as we run and the guys laugh at us as jack swings me around and I laugh and we stop and wait for the guys jack pulls me into his side as I cuddle up to him

"You guys are like kids" zack says and I smile and nod and jack does the same "yep definitely siblings" Rian says and we all laugh and we start to go around Hollywood boulevard looking at all the stars

We take pictures and selfies the whole time even some Snapchat videos and post them to jack and Alex's Snapchat and me and jack walk to a beautiful fountain and alex takes a video

Me and him asit on the ledge and I lean on him "I love you" I say "I love you to" he says back and I see alex filming and I flip him off and I check Snapchat and it says "the two most adorable siblings ever" and I smile and show jack

He smiles at alex while I just smile at my phone, I'm still really hurt by what alex did, but I feel myself being pushed and I hit the water taking jack with me and its fuckin freezing and I get up and get out

"Your a fuckin dick" I say and he laughs "so worth it" he says and I see alex filming again and again I flip him off as I start to shake and I hug myself as jack gets out

Then alex comes over and takes his jacket off and puts it around me and I roll my eyes and he frowns "thanks" I mumble and he smiles at me and I roll my eyes again "jack you are by far the biggest asshole ever" I say

He laughs "whatever you fuckin muffin" he says and I burst out laughing again "you'll dry off soon, its like 70° out here" he says and I roll my eyes "your lucky I love you" I say

And he chuckles and wraps an arm around me and he was write, I dried off in like 20 minutes and I gave alex his jacket back and I just ran my fingers threw my hair to style it again

After sight seeing we all decided to get something to eat so we went to a random restaurant and got food there and guess who we saw!

Fuckin Lisa and I growl and I clench the table and jack ssees and hugs me and alex sees and rolls his eyes "hey alex~" she says flirtatiously and I growl again and she sees me and fear fills her eyes

Yet being the rude bitch she is (I got Nothin against Lisa, her and alex belong together, just not in this) she fuckin sat down "do you mind? We didnt invite you to sit with us" I growl

"Alex, she's being mean" she says and starts fake crying and Alex rolls his eyes again ignoring her and I smirk at her "he's not interested, scram" I say and she growls and walks off in a huff "what a bitch" I growl and I let go of the table and I see a crack

"Jesus, you really dont like her do you?" Jack asks after seeing the crack "nope" I say as I cool off and alex looks at me "what?" I ask still kinda fucked off that she was here

"N-nothin" he says and I roll my eyes and I eat my salad and once we finish we pay and leave and after about 20 minutes we get back to the buss abd I jump on the couch

All the guys go do random stuff and I'm left with alex and I pay no attention to him what so ever and I feel him poke my leg and I look at him "what?" I ask "I'm sorry" he says and I sit up

"look, I know you are, but to lead a girl on then get with another girl, its a shitty thing to do, and it hurt much more then you would know" I say sadly and he scoots closer to me and I dont bother to move

"I know what I did was a fucked up thing to do, and you stuck up for me when we saw her at the coffee shop, yet I still got back with her, I regret doing it" he says and I look at him "I just really want a second chance, and I promise not to fuck it up" he says

"Look, I'm not gonna date you straight away, but I'm willing to build up a relationship, friends first, thats my only offer, take it or leave it" I say and he sighs "Fine, but can I have one kiss and I won't ask anymore" he says and I roll my eyes

I grab his top and I smash my lips to his and I pull away and he's a blushing mess and I smile to myself as he hides his face in his hands "you got a kiss what more do you want gaskarth?" I ask

"That was a peck not a kiss barakat" he says and I smile when he uses jacks last name and I roll my eyes "fine, get your ass here gaskarth" I say and he skoots over and I grab him and I kiss him

First it was rough but now it was soft and passionate and sparks flew I couldn't deny that and I pull away panting slightly "there you got what you wanted" I say as he sits up straight

"Yes I did" he says with a sweet smile and I roll my eyes and I got up "I'm moving into the spare bunk, I have all my stuff hear already" I say as I walk away swaying my hips and he wolf whistles and I flip him off

I get changed and I'm in the middle of taking my top off when I feel arms wrap around my waist and I see a rose tattoo "fuck off alex" I say and he chuckles "do you not care that I can see you in your bra?" He asks

"I couldn't give a flying fuck, cuz I could whoop your ass if you tried anything" I say "good point" he says and I nod and put my pajama shirt on and I push past him swaying my hips again

"Ya know something? Your a both even when we are friends" he says and I laugh "thats the way I am gaskarth" I say as I twirl and start walking again "why do you sway your hips?" He asks.

"Stop asking so many questions you twat muffin" I say and he chuckles "ya know I think that girl describes you really well" he says and I flip him off again

"I swear those are you favorite limbs" he says win a laugh "oh they are! I love them!" I say and I flip him off again "what you wanna do?" He asks "well all the boys are in their bunks asleep, so follow me, I found this last night!" I say

I walk to the kitchen and I climb onto the counter and I reach up and open the skylight and I open it fully "give me a boost" I say and he pushes me up and I help him up "wait, I need to get somethin" I say

I jump down and I run to my bunk and grab some blankets and pillows and I throw them up "help me up dip fuck!" I say and he helps me up and I set everything up and I lay down and he lays next to me

"Look up" I whisper and when we look up we see a metior shower

"Wow" alex says "beautiful isn't it?" I ask "yeah" he says "make a wish before its over" I say and I make a wish 'I wish I won't get hurt by alex ever again and that he falls in love with me properly' and I open my eyes and the shower is still going

"Its so pretty" alex says "I know, and you wanna know something?" I ask "what?" He asks "I had a friend who commit suicide, and I believe when a loved one passes, a new start spears and there in the stars" I say

"My big brother commit suicide, do you think he's up there?" Alex asks and I snuggle into him "definitely, he's that one right there" I say as I point to a really bright one

"When they shine it means there telling you that love you" I say softly "I love you to tom" alex says and I see a tear slide down his cheek and I wipe it away

"You see the big blueish one?" I ask "yeah?" He asks "thats my friends older sister, who was like a sister to me, she passes away because of cancer" I say and it shines and I smile

"I love you to Tara, so much" I say as tears roll down my cheeks and Alex wipes them away "you know why my friend commit suicide?" I ask "how?" He asks

"Well, me and him had the biggest argument we ever had, and we both said things we shouldn't of, but I guess I took it to far, after the fight I found out that he had hung herself, I've never forgiven myself" I explain with my voice cracking

"Thats kinda like what happened between me and tom" he says "well tom, just know that your brother may be an asshole at times, he misses you and loves you" I say up to the sky and the star shines brighter and we both smile

"I think he likes you riot" he says and I smile "I hope, I want the brother of my boyfriend to like me" I say and he looks at me surprised "I'm willing to do this fuck it up, I'll never speak to you again" I say

"Trust me, I'm not losing you" he says and I smile "good" I say "the song lullabies was for tom, but I think it could be for your friend to, what's her name?" He asks "his name was Craig" I say cracking a smile

"Oh, well Craig I know she can be a bit if a bitch but she really loves and misses you dude" he says and I smile and snuggle into him more "I love and miss all of you, even you tom even tho I've never met you" I say with a giggle

"I'm sure he loves you" he says and I smile "and I'm sure my friends love you" I say and we keep watching till it ends and we get all the stuff and alex goes down and before I go down I look up

"Hey tom? I just wanted to say, thank you even tho I've never met you, the things I've heard about you, are wonderful, rest in peace hun" I whisper and I blow a kiss and I jump down

"Alex I'm sleeping with you tonight" I say abd he nods and we put everything back and he takes his shirt off and puts pajama pants on and gets into the bunk

I slip in after him "just be careful of my wrist" I say and he nods and cuddles me into his chest and I kiss his neck "night" I say "night" he says and I fall asleep