It's hard to find yourself in a world where everyone around you shines so bright.

If you don't have the light too, you find yourself wondering what the point is. Why you're at camp when you stand on the sidelines at the parties. Why you're in a legion when you can't figure out real sword fighting technique for the life of you. Where that innate desire to thrive everyone else seems to have went.

The summer of 2008, I saw the easy way of living I'd had before fall apart. And once one aspect is called into question, it's easy to question everything else, too. Until you're questioning your very existence. It's one thing to know about this phenomenon; it's another entirely to finally experience it yourself. Finally, all the songs make sense.

Part One: Goddess of Nothing