Sakura POV

I could hear the whispers on the stone cobbled streets and pale fingers pointed at me and eyes bore into my back like a burning flesh wound, one that couldn't heal.

I picked up up a shiny red apple from the market stand where I bumped into Sai

"Oww.." I rubbed my head slightly until I felt him pull me up

"Are you ok? Sakura.." He sounded awkward and worried as I put on a fake smile

"Oh yeah im ok how about you?" He frowned and bought sone fruits pulling me somewhere

"Don't put on a fake smile sakura.... I'm the master at those trust me..." He pulled me until I saw a petite figure with violet hair sitting on a blanket.

She looked up and waved to sai and I

"Hi guys!" She ran too me and pulled me into a tight hug.

I grasped onto her arms as the whispers began to roam through my empty head.

"Is that her?"

"Such a disgrace."

"Weak."

"Pathetic.."

"Annoying.."

The whispers haunted me as I slept and everywhere I go.... I clenched my fist on a kunai and threw it at a tree.

"Sakura...." Hinata looked at me then pulled me into another hug

"Sakura you aren't any of those things those Idiots say...to me and Sai your perfect!" She gave me a small smile and Sai also hugged me

"Yes do not listen to them (refers to rookie 9 excluding Hinata)" he rubbed my back as we sat down on the blanket.

I stared at my hands as they picked up a shiny red apple. Slowly taking a bite the once sweet apple tasted like nothing...
Every day all I felt or heard has now become numb and my sense if taste gas gone blind.

Your probably wondering why? Well its simple... My own Existence is a sin to the village as the villagers say...

Basically as soon as Karin swept in like a hurricane she took everybody's attention and love from right under my feet. Her red hair swaying with those crimson eyes that seemed to catch everybody and the fact that she was Naruto's cousin only made it the more harder to bear being around.

First she appeared
Second she took her friends
Third she spread the gossip

And i could never ever catch proof or lay any claim that I never was weak.

I felt myself sigh and looked and Hinata who was staring at the clear blue sky hot sun beating down on her pale face.

Suddenly a crack of a twig was heard and we readied our Kunai knives ready to kill.
Only to see that a certain blonde haired teen stumbled through the brush.

"Oi Hinata! Hay SAI!" He waved as he ignored me but the two looked at me and back to the running teen.

They did bot wave back but started to pack up the blanket. I watched them as I stood up helping them.

"Oh why are you leaving Hina-chan?" He caught up to us and she looked at him blankly then pointed to me

"Why did you not say Hello to sakura?" She questioned and Naruto narrowed his eyes at me

"But shes pathetic!" He snuffed his nose in disgust

Ouch....

I looked down as his words pierced my chest

Slap

The sound rang through the area as I looked at Hina in shock.

She had hit Naruto in the face.

"H-How dare you.....Naruto Uzumaki I hate you!" She had tears streaming down her cheeks as she trembled in anger

"H-hey hinata.." I wrapped my arm around her small figure and Naruto just glared at me. He raised his fist ready to strike until a pale figure caught it

Sai?

"Do not hit her..." He glared at the blonde boy but all Naruto did was click his tongue.

"Psh... Can't you see shes pathetic and weak?!" He shouted

I cannot believe this.....

He pointed a finger at me as he stormed away. But stopped at the edge

"Hinata I will forgive you But stay away from that pink haired bitch!" He shouted and I could see Hinata's fist clench

He left and I hugged Hinata close

"You can stay away... I won't be mad..." I whispered to her but her face was filled with shock.

Her eyes hardened and she shook her head

What?

"I wont leave my best friend for him even if I do love him..." She mumbled and cried a bit more. I patted her back and Sai held us both

"Well I guess we should go see if theres any missions?" Sai asked and we nodded as Hinata cleaned her face.

"Ok let's go!!!" We shouted a happy cheer and marched to the Hokage's tower until we reached the mahogany doors that led to my teacher's office.

Play song

Thump

Thump

I knocked and heard a come in from the other side.

"Lady Hokage...Are there any missions?" I asked hope filled in my eyes but the brown eyes that met mine was not filled if love or happiness. They were the same as the villagers....the same as my friends....

They were cold and loathing....

I sucked in a gasp as she stared at me with an intensity that Iv'e never seen in her.

"Sakura.... You will not go on a mission because...." The three words I dreaded the most passed through my Sensei's mouth

Thump

Thump

Thump

"Your too weak" she stated and I felt my heart shatter

I heard gasp come from Hinata and Sai but I had dulled them out.

Weak
Pathetic
No good
Scum
Annoying
Brat

These thoughts swirled my mind and I could feel the clear tears start to fall and as they fell onto the cold wooden floor I had ran...ran until I could fell the cold rain falling on my cheeks on lighting flash over head.

Why does this happen too me?
Did i deserve this? Am I really that weak?

Thoughts roamed my head and soon I couldn't even fell my body as I hobbled to my apartment tears mixed with cold rain.

I opened the door with stiff hands and let my self in the cold dark house...

It's so empty....my heart feels like it was torn....

I felt a fresh wave of tears as I screamed

"IM SORRY! IM SO SORRY IM WEAK!!!!!! UWAAAAAAAAA!" The tears flowed like a fresh spring and my wails were drowned by the rain pounding and baring its fang on the roof.

I looked at my trembling hands and touched the old photo of Team 7

Wiping off some dust I dragged some scrolls as I started to pack.

All I could think about was how cold her eyes were... So cold....

I touched everything in the room, too feel it but all I felt was a numbing pain that grew in my chest as the tears trickled their way down my chin.

As I finished packing the blankets I put everything I own in my bag and pulled in a green parka with extra fur.

"Im sorry....so sorry....im weak..." I mumbled over and over until I felt rasp of no water and I trembled on the stone cold floor of this empty bare room.
I held my legs to my chest and could fell no warmth as the sun began to set and the curtain if night fell deeply shining with bright stars.

I pulled myself up and walked to the door leaving the key and a small note

To whoever finds this...
Im sorry for being weak and pathetic...
Im sorry I ever existed
But I had put all my trust into this village...
And now all I feel is numbness
Cant even smile anymore....

My tears had dried up as I walked the empty road to the village gates that had no guards but a single pink blossom being blown away by the wind.

I walked out of the village I once lived and could feel my heart being stabbed and wrenched out as I crossed a river shining from the moonlight.

I could hear the distant sound of a soft flute but everything was too dull as the rain continued to pour soaking me but I could never feel it.

I walk with nowhere to go
Why should I live?
There is no purpose anymore..

I felt a hand grab my shoulder and I looked back at the figure.

He was tall with 2 sides and a venus fly trap sprouting from his shoulders.

"Who are you?" I mumbled and he suddenly pulled me into a warm hug.

"It's not of your concern right now sakura" he said with a disoriented voice until I felt myself being lifted off the ground as he jumped from branch to branch.

The warmth was soothing and I laid my head on his chest while I was whisked away from the place I had called my home....

Please vote and comment but I actually cried while writing this so I do hope you enjoyed
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-Chasoe