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A/N: ACTUALLY NO I WANNA LIVE HERE! IS SOMEONE WANTS A SURE FIRE WAY TO LIKE MAKE ME LIVE WITH YOU, BUY THIS HOUSE. THERE. THAT IS HOW YOU ATTRACT A WILD AUTHOR-CHAN. In all honesty, I just really love that walk in closet. Like, I would just sit in that walk in closet all day xD

BUT... (more irl crap lol sorry)

If you keep up with my author's notes, you might know that I was a little confused about J-Senpai, because I though that he had got with Emily? Well, everything has finally become clear. I know why E and K didn't wanna tell me what was going on.

Emily (who, bearing in mind is my age, so 15) sucked of J-Senpai o.o They aren't together, or anything, but she gave him a blow job. Like,  why?! WHY HAS THIS HAPPENED? And what makes this worse, Emily has a boyfriend. Or, did have, should I say. He broke up with her today lmao (sorry, I'm so mean. Actually, she sucked off my Senpai, I think you can cut me some slack). So, she was cheating on her boyfriend with my Senpai ;-;

And she invited him over to hers, and the next day (yesterday) she wasn't in and he was walking around with the huge fucking hickies all up his neck.

Emily sat with us at lunch today. It took me everything I had not to stab her in the eye with a fork. I should have.

But, it just kinda upsets me. Like, why does all the drama have to happen around J-Senpai? It's not fair, can I not just swoon over him in peace, without my ship being ruined? (my friends shipped us. #Jia. #JiaIsDead)

But I've decided not to tell him. I'm going to try and move on. Because, in all honesty, I have no control over him, I have no right, and I have no say in what he does. I shouldn't be angry or upset, because I was too chicken to do anything about my feelings. And, I accept that. 

As of right now, I still like him. But with all this gone on, it's kinda hit me that maybe, if he were to ever ask me out (it's not as if that would happen, but lets pretend) then maybe I would say no. If he does those kind of things, I'm not sure I'd wanna be with him, because I'm not ready for those kind of things.

It's been a kind of kick up the butt, like a reminder 'oi oi, Rhi-Chan, it's been like three years now and nothing's happened, time to move on, don't you think?' I mean, it hurts a little because I could never be someone like Emily, who gets all the boys. It just shows I'm not right for him, and he'd have never chosen me anyway.

I mean, it stings me a little, but I'll get over him eventually (I hope). This is ridiculous, I'm talking like I've actually been with him. No, I have not, despite how much I wish I had.

However, my attempt to move on will not stop me from hating the Senpai-stealing bitch :) (I never liked her, anyway) (whoops, sounded slightly Yandere there. I swear I'm not Yandere. lmao why tf i'm lyin?)

Sorry if I messed you guys around with the whole Senpai situation. It's time I tried to move on. Sorry for this really long rant :/

I guess I'd be willing to actually describe my Senpai now? Because I'm done with him? I can describe him to you guys, if you want? So, uh? Let me know?

Have a great day/night/life!

Rhi-Chan out!