Unbeknownst Feelings

Y/n P.o.v

Mother: "...If it's about my son's health, of course I will worry!" Mother argued.

Esdeath: "But if I were to tell you that he was in a coma, you would've lost your composure, and would've been worried!" Esdeath repeated her statement.

Mother: "And I still deserved to know about it! Doesn't matter what happens to me, he is still my son!"

Y/n: "Mother, I-"

Mother: "Be quiet!" She pointed at me, and I flinched.

Esdeath: "And he worries as well! You being worried, would've question your 'loyalty' towards Zeth. And Y/n would've been worried if something bad happened to you!"

Y/n: "I appreciate your concern Esdeath, bu-"

Esdeath: "Stay out of it!" I flinched again, sighed, and put my chin on my hand in irritation.

I looked between the two and they kept arguing. It was a little embarrassing yet weird that my mother and Esdeath were arguing for me being in coma. Like, it was three or four days ago that I woke up, and I'm right here, on my feet, with eyes opened, no injuries.

I looked at the balcony, and saw N/n moving his shoulders up and down a lot of time. 'Is-Is he chuckling?' I asked a little irritated.

Mother: "If it weren't for you attacking our village, we wouldn't even be here!" I looked at mother with wide eyes.

Esdeath: "Please, I was just following orders!"

Mother: "Orders that were wrong in the first place! And you knew that!"

Esdeath: "I didn't cared if it was wrong or not! Your village was in my list of destroying villages a long time ago, so it didn't matter! I was just glad that I had some blood to spill and another village off the list!"

Y/n: "In other words, you're the one who killed my father, not Zeth?" I said a little low, and looked at Esdeath with curiousity and anger. She turned to me with wide eyes.

Esdeath: "N-No, t-that's not what happened..."

Y/n: "Then tell me what happened!" I said through gritted teeth, and stood up with clenched fists.

Esdeath: "I-I won't. He's dead, what does that matter?"

Y/n: "He was my father! I deserve to know what happened during his final hours!" My fists clenched even more. "Tell me. Right now. Esdeath."

Esdeath: "He... I-I've taken him."

Y/n: "To where have you taken him!?" She looked around, avoiding me. "Answer me!"

Esdeath: "To the Torture Hall." I was breathing heavilly, and I backed away from her.

I was taking everything in. I felt anger rising within me, images of father being tortured in different ways came to my head, and it was hurting my head. I glared at Esdeath, and saw her walking towards me slowly with extended hands.

Run: "General, are you alright?" Run asked from the other side of the door. "What are you doing in Y/n's room?"

I looked at mother, and she was surprised and quiet. I looked at Esdeath, waiting for her to answer.

Esdeath: "I-I just wanted some alone time."

Run: "Then why on Y/n's room? I know that Y/n means a lot to you, but this isn't th-" I got confused.

Esdeath: "I-It's not what you think!" She had a tint of pink on her cheeks while looking at me. "I-I was heading to my room, but entered into his room without noticing. Until now that you told me."

Run: "My apologies for assuming. But if I may, you should talk to him. You know that he's a good listener." Esdeath's eyes softened.

Esdeath: "I know." I looked away without a care in the world.

Run: "Alright. I'll take my leave. Good evening, General." He started walking away, and his steps were getting farther away. Until I couldn't hear them anymore.

Mother: "What did he meant about Y/n meaning a lot to you?"

Esdeath: "It's not what you think. He's just worried as I am, since he know that Y/n is alive."

Mother: "Oh please, how can I even believe you?"

Esdeath: "I'm telling the truth. Y/n is just an underling that I care about. The only man I love is Tatsumi." The last sentence sounded a little forced. But I didn't cared and shrugged it off.

Mother: "Good, because Y/n wouldn't even be with someo-" I extended my hand towards her to stop, and a finger over my lips for them to keep quiet because I was hearing steps.

Y/n: "Someone's coming." I whispered. And somehow, I knew it was Zeth. "It's Zeth." I looked at mother. "You have to get out of this room. You have a chance and time to 'encounter' with him." She nodded, and kissed my forehead.

Mother: "I'll see you soon." I nodded, she left while closing the door, and walked away. I looked at Esdeath, signalled her to keep quiet, and she nodded. "Evening dear, want me to prepare the shower?" I heard her in a distance.

Zeth: "Of course, sweetheart. But first, there's something that I need to investigate first." I heard his footsteps getting closer.

I signalled Esdeath to go under the bed. She had wide and irritated eyes like I was crazy of sorts. I pleaded and signalled her with more determination. She was more irritated and had a tint of pink on her cheeks.

Mother: "May I know what it is?"

Zeth: "There's a slight chance that the dead has risen." My eyes widened.

I hurridly pulled Esdeath and made her go under the bed. I looked at the door, and saw a small shadow stopping at the bottom of the door. I went under the bed, pushed Esdeath a little so she could be at the wall, and I got closer to her.

Esdeath: *What do you think you're doing!?* She whispered in irritation and flustered.

Y/n: *Just stay quiet and trust me.* She hit the wall, and I got closer to her.

Our arms touched, but I scooched a little more towards her. I felt something squishy on my arm.

Then, the door opened. I looked at the openning of the bed, and saw legs walking around the room.

Mother: "May I know what is the meaning of that?" Mother was at the doorway.

Zeth: "Remembered that kid that had h/c hair with e/c eyes and an arrogant expression? The one I attacked when I was meeting the Jaegers?" I was irritated that he called me arrogant, but I felt a hand on my arm that made me calm down a little. 'Mother must be having a hard time trying not to kill him.' I thought. "Well, he is alive. And I'm suspecting that he is using this place as a way to infiltrate the Capital to kill the Minister."

Mother: "And how do you know that the brat is alive?" I was shocked that mother said that, but rolled with it. Zeth started to head to the balcony.

Zeth: "He has an Imperial Arm that ONLY HE can use it. He used it when Night Raid was infiltrating Borick's mansion, that's how I knew he was alive." I saw him going towards the center of the room, but his legs turned towards the bed.

Mother: "A rookie's mistake. He doesn't know with whom he's dealing with."

Zeth: "Soon, he'll know what's going to happen when you mess with the Warchief of the Capital." He kneeled in front of the bed, and was bending to look under the bed. I saw his stomach, his chest, his neck. My eyes widened, and was ready to kick him.

Run: "Warchief Zeth." Zeth stopped raised his body, and was looking at the direction of the door. "The Minister is requesting your presence at the throne room. It's urgent." I heard Zeth sigh and he stood up.

Zeth: "Very well. Come on dear." He started walking out of the room, and mother followed. A minute has passed and they were out of hearing range.

Run: "The coast is cleared. I'll give you both some privacy." Run closed the door and left.

I was surprised and amazed. Surprised because he knew that I was here. Amazed because he could tell that I was here. How? I didn't know. 'I'll ask him when I get the chance.' I thought.

AHEM.

I turned towards Esdeath and she had a tint of pink on her cheeks.

Esdeath: "How long do you intend to stay there?" I remembered that we were still under the bed. I started to get out, but something was still holding me. I looked at my arm, and saw that Esdeath was still holding unto me, and she realized what I was looking. She pulled away and was blushing more. "My apologies." I got out, and stood up. I looked down, saw Esdeath trying to get out, and I offered her a hand. She looked at my hand, then at me. She was hesitant, but took it, and I helped her to stand up.

Once she stood up, she stood tall, maybe a few inches taller than me, looking down at me, but we were closer to each other. Her chest was touching my chest, my hand was still holding hers, and our eyes were locked. Those icy blue eyes were shinning, something I saw when she found Tatsumi, but he isn't here.

I let go of her, and scratch the back of my neck.

Y/n: "Sorry."

Esdeath: "Don't be. Listen about your fa-"

Y/n: "Don't. There's nothing to talk about. You've said enough." I offered her a bag full of medical herbs that I made. "You only have to lubricate them over the wounds, and they'll heal quicker than usual." She took it. "See you later." I was going to walk towards the balcony, but she grabbed my shoulder and stopped me.

Esdeath: "Listen, I'm sorry about your father, alright? Yes, I took him and tortured him, but I didn't killed him." I looked at her.

Y/n: "Listen, I don't care if you killed him or not, and I didn't come here to hear your pity about my father. Bringing the herbs to you and see my mother were my objectives. So please, don't." I took her hand off of my shoulder, and started heading to the balcony, again.

Esdeath: "Can you stop with the tough and cool act? It doesn't suit you." I stopped and sighed.

Y/n: "I got stuff to do, Esdeath."

Esdeath: "Then go ahead! Flee like you always have!" She said sarcastically and angered. I turned around, and looked at her with irritation.

Y/n: "What's that supposed to mean!?"

Esdeath: "You know exactly what it means! You've always been running away from problems with excuses that are meaningless!"

Y/n: "Meaningless!? How can fighting for the people is meanin- You know what? Let's get this straight, those THINGS that I'm doing, that you call meaningless, is something that you would enjoy destroying! It's worth fighting for a better-"

Esdeath: "Future of the Capital. How many time do I have to hear that!?" She finished my sentence. "When will you understand that you can't save everyone!? The future that you and your precious revolution are looking for, will never happen!"

Y/n: "It WILL happen! Have you not seen the progress that we have acomplished!? The future that the people deserve is getting clearer by the hour, and no one, will get in our way!"

Esdeath: "Then that's the reason why Seryu is dead!?" I got shocked. "She died because you were so focused on helping the Capital that you couldn't even look her way!"

Y/n: "Don't you dare bring Seryu into this! She has nothing to do with this!"

Esdeath: "But she had everything to do with you! If you lose focus on those around you while doing your little crusade, eventually everybody will die!"

Y/n: "I won't let that happen!"

Esdeath: "You kept telling yourself that, and look what happened to Seryu! The same fate will happen to all those who cares for you if you don't focus on their safety!"

Y/n: "You know what Esdeath!? Why don't you back off from all of this and be done with it!?" She looked surprised.

Esdeath: "What are you saying?"

Y/n: "Stay out of my business. I don't need someone that usually use people's errors of the past againts them." She didn't looked angry or frustarted. She looked sad and disappointed. "So back off, and don't meddle with things that you aren't part of it!" Her eyes widened and backed away with a step.

Esdeath: "Th-Then, that means... that I'm not part... of your life? That I'm not... important?" She sounded like she was about to break down in any moment. I was confused of to why she asked not being important. Suddenly, I felt intense killing intent aura coming from her. Her hands were becoming ice, and she gave me the deadliest glare I have ever seen. "You have a ten seconds head start before I turn you into a popsicle, and crush you into tiny pieces! 10... 9... 8... 7..." I back up, but fell over the table. "6... 5... 4..." I turned around, turned into crows, and flew out of my room.

Esdeath P.o.v

'I'm not important. I'm not important in his life.' I repeated to myself.

My chest ached, felt empty, felt nothing. It was getting worse and worse everytime I thought about what Y/n tried to tell me. And it was as clear as the sky that he didn't cared for me. Actually, he always showed it ever since the day we've met.

Looking at the past, he always showed his hatred towards me. Never showing any kindness, nor care, but when he did, it was all an act. Thinking about it makes my chest hurt more. It wasn't bearable anymore. I wanted the pain to go away, to get rid of this kind of feeling that I was having, for my heart to stop beating so hard on my chest that made it painful.

I put both of my hand on my chest, trying to ease up the pain, but it didn't worked. Then, I felt something hitting my hands. I looked at them, and saw water drops. The feeling of liquid coming out of my eyes and running down my cheeks, made it obvious that I was crying.

In all my life, not even once, I've had tears running down my cheek. 'No! It can't be!' I thought while wiping the tears away, but they kept coming.

I had a strong front, but the tears kept coming, my body was trembling, my chest ached even more, and my breathing was beginning to get uneven. I inhaled and exhaled a few times to calm myself from crying out loud, because it was for the weak. 'I must stay strong. I must stay strong.' I repeated the words inside my head again and again and again.

Esdeath: "Why does it hurt so much!?" I saif while clenching my chest a little more. The door suddenly opened.

Run: "General, are you ok?" I turned around and it was him coming towards me with a worried expression. He casually looked around as if searching for someone. "Where's Y/n? Did he already left?"

I lowered my hand from my chest and looked at him with a serious expression.

Esdeath: "You don't need to worry about him. He's long gone, but not for long." He looked at me confused. "The enemy has a head start on us, so we better get to work."

Run: "Forgive me, General, but I don't understand." His expression was full of confusion, curiosity, and worry. Like he knew what I was going to say.

Esdeath: "I want you to go to the official, and give them the description of Y/n L/n. I want Wanted posters of him around the Capital and the guards searching for him, in and out of the Capital." I walked past him, and to know what was his expression, he had wide eyes. Fear and shock was shown on his face.

Run: "G-General!" I stopped in my tracks, and waited for him to speak. "If I may, I-"

Esdeath: "You have nothing to say! This a direct order from a general! You better follow it!" I looked over my shoulder, and gave him a cold glare. He hesitantly nodded. "Any questions related with the work?" He raised his head with a concern look.

Run: "W-What will be the prize for Y/n's bounty?"

Esdeath: "As high as it can be. Probably higher then Najenda's prize if you can." He looked shock, but nodded. "I want him taken alive. His death should be carried out in a Public Execution, and I'll be the one to end it. Am I clear?"

Run: "Yes, ma'am." He bowed his head one more time. I started to leave, but I took one last look of him.

Esdeath: "If I don't see any posters by the morning, you'll take his place along with the officials who doesn't obey my orders. You've been warned." I left the hideous room without looking back.

I heard Run whisper: *What have you done, Y/n?* Just by hearing his name made the memories of him come back, and the ache in my chest... No, in my heart returned. It's so unbearable, I wish that someone took it out and I would be on my way with my life. This feelings are so different that I can't describe it. If somebody know what this feelings are, I must know. But for now, the hunt has finally begun.

Y/n P.o.v

I turned back to normal behind a building, in an alleyway, in the Capital's Slums, and was panting from flying so far away. I looked to the side, and saw the Capital's main building in the distance. 'What the heck happened to her?' I asked myself, remembering her reaction at some point.

N/n: "It's because of what you said." I looked forwards, and saw him standing on the fence.

Y/n: "What do you mean 'of what I said'? I didn't said anything wrong to her." I stood straight.

N/n: "You're wrong Y/n. Don't you remebered when you said: '...don't meddle with things that you aren't part of...'?" He imitated my voice on the last sentence.

Y/n: "Uh huh, but I still don't get it of to why she reacted like that." I shook his head in disappointment.

N/n: "Are you dense or what!? Oh wait, you're only dense when it is convenient to you!"

Y/n: "Now hold o-"

N/n: "SHUT UP!!!" I flinched. "Let me teach something about women, that includes all to those who are reading! Women, takes things literally. And I mean, anything. When you're talking to them, you better choose your words wisely, and of how you express them. And most importantly, consider her and your feelings at the same time, even if they don't show it or express them that much." I got confused of to why he was teaching me how to talk to women.

Y/n: "It still doesn't asnwer why Esdeath reacted the way she did." He sighed again.

N/n: "When you told her that she 'wasn't part of' thing, she actually took it as if she wasn't part of your life, and it hit her very hard! She really felt cast aside, and didn't liked it." I started to put the pieces together, and realized what he meant.

Y/n: "Esdeath feels lonely?" He nodded. "But, she has Tatsumi, and every time I insulted her in the past, she didn't even flinched because she insulted me back."

N/n: "You already said it. 'In the past'." He emphasized the last part. "Now, she has grown very fond of you. And when I say very, I mean that she has started to forget about Tatsumi."

Y/n: "Impossible. She's one of those persons that sticks with the first love. How can she even be forgetting about Tatsumi because I haven't done anything?"

N/n: "Not that you know of, no. Because you were being so natural around her, that she has started to become someone that no one thought she would become. Someone who would care for what their love ones think and not their personal pleasures." I was surprised that Esdeath was actully becoming like that, but... I don't know what to think anymore. "Now, she kicked you out of the Capital, and there's no way that you can enter back in, and sending letters to you mother will be difficult for me as well."

Y/n: "You know that something is going to happen, don't you?"

N/n: "I only know when someone's going to die, how to read expressions with their body movements and eyes, and how to make ice creams not melt. So no. I don't." I was more confused of what he was talking about. That bird is so out of this world. "Now, head to Leone, she's waiting for you at 'Neko Paradise'." He flew off after saying that. 'Isn't Neko Paradise where Kyoko works?' I asked myself. I started to head towards the bar, but with the sensation that something was about to go down.

I arrived at the bar, and once I opened it, I saw Leone sitting at the end of the bar, where Esdeath and I were last time. 'Esdeath... what will I do with her?' I asked myself, thinking of a way of apologizing to her. Then, it hit me, something that I thought that was out of the question, IMPOSSIBLE, even. 'Does Esdeath... has feelings... for me?' I thougth, putting her reactions in different moments of our encounter, Run's comment, and when she spared me when she had the chance to kill me many chances together. It wasn't making any sense, but at the same time, it did.

I casted those thoughts to the side, for later, and headed towards Leone, who was talking to someone. Once I got there, the person that she was talking to, left.

Leone: "You finally made it." She said cheerful and irritated.

Y/n: "Yeah, got caught up with some situations. So, was that the person that was going to give us the mission?" I sat beside her, and waited patiently.

Leone: "Yep. The mission is a little difficult, but we'll manage. With the person's help, even if I don't like it."

Y.n: "Is the person coming back? I mean, I want to meet the one that is actually behind all of this."

Leone: "Yep. A little word of advice, keep you head in the game and be serious, because this person isn't someone you should play mind tricks." I was surprised when she said that.

Y/n: "For you to say something like that about a person, means that the person must be important." She nodded.

Leone: "Uh huh. From what I know, is that she is the daughter of one of the leaders in the Revolution." I flinched a little.

Y/n: "She? And daughter of one of the leaders of the Revolution?"

???: "That's correct." I turned to the person who spoke, and she had her back towards me, but her long red hair, and white with blue and gold coat was recognizable that made my eyes widened. She started to turn around with a tray on her hands with three cups of water. "And I don't take me for a kind on-" Once our met and locked, she dropped the tray, and her eyes and mouth were wide opened full of shock.

Y/n: "K-Kyoko?"

Kyoko: "Y-Y-Y/n? Y-You're with N-Night R-Raid?"

Y/n: "A-And you're with t-the Revolution?"

Leone: "Aren't both bands on the same side?"

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A/n: There you go, another chapter just for you. Hope you like it, vote, comment, and stay tuned for next chapter, as usual.

Stay cool readers, and I'll try to update more as soon as possible.

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