Everything is white, everything is bright in this room, except for the young boy asleep in the bed. He has dark hair and an angelic face. Suddenly, his eyes opened, and what eyes... darker and deeper than the whole universe, but also full of a huge unexplainable pain. Those two eyes were enough to fill this bright room with darkness. 

The boy looked around him, it's not his bedroom. Where is he ? He tried to sit but his head started hurting him strongly, and he felt like a huge weight in his chest.

Hey...

What was this voice ? The boy was alone however, but the boy felt like this "Hey" came from him... Not like a subconscious, but more like a memory...
A very unclear memory of whom he don't have any image and context...

After a few minutes, the boy retry to sit, very slowly. He stopped his move when he reached the sit cross-legged position. It was a simple move, but still, it gave him dizziness.

You probably don't know me...
But I do

Did this voice was talking to him ? and Who it belongs to ?
Once he was sat up, the boy could see more of what was around him. The room was almost empty, only a bed, a chair next to it and a window in the left wall. He realised quickly this was an hospital room. He closed his eyes to remember what happened. He remembered very well in fact.

I used to sleep in
that bed before you

From the end of his fingers, the little boy touched the blanket as a precious treasure.

Those white walls are
not mine anymore

He kindly putted off the blanket and laid his foot on the floor. This weird feeling in the chest didn't want to leave, even when he stood up.

I have to pack my stuff for
another part of this hospital 

Something dropped of the bed while he was standing up, and fell on de ground

I don't think I need this cuddly toy anymore...

The little boy took the thing on his hands, he was holding a little tiger

I'm two years older than you but it's
always good to have company in an
hospital

The boy looked at the little tiger, the cuddle toy wasn't new but It was seen the owner took care of it

You could keep it !
It's called Yeongtan

This boy was so kind and simply happy, how could he refused such beauty. As a reflex, the boy hugged Yeongtan and burrowed his head in it. It smelt good...

Hey again...

He rubbed his eyes and looked around him. His eyes stopped on the chair

Still sleepy, hein ??

This voice... Does it could be... A visitor when he was sleeping ? The boy sat on the chair next to the bed and started looking at the empty bed

However, you finally seem
in peace like that

The one who own this deep voice must had sat here, speaking to the sleeping boy he was. This thought confort him a lot.

It's the first time there's no
fake smile or sadness in your face...

The little boy kept fixing the bed, trying to imagine him-self. During one second, the painfull boy sitting on the chair could see his own peacefull reflection that the myserious voice owner had seen

It makes me happy...

At this moment, the boy didn't realised a shy little smile had taken place on his face. And as if the wold noticed it, a shy little ray warmed the boy's back

Hello ! That's very sunny today

The little boy put the tiger on the bed, turned and walked with difficulties to the window. The weather didn't seem bad, there were just lots of calm white clouds. The boy closed his eyes to feel the heal on his skin. This ray was just like the voice that talked to him, a spiritual and mysterious side but, most important a soft and soothing side.

As sunny as the day
I saw you for the fist time
It's been a while since

He opened his eyes and looked outside

It was three month ago
I was just here, near the window
enjoying the sunbeams 

In front of him, he could see a big building with trees at the entrance

and then you went out from the high school

He knew this building so well

Even that far, I just had to see your eyes to understand

The boy look was attracted by two dark round, his own eye on the window's reflection...

Like me, you gave up on happiness
And more I was seeing you, more I was curious...

The boy couldn't hold back a shiver. who the hell was this stranger boy who seemed understanding him so well after one look ? Is that why...

After long minutes, the boy decided to leave this room, he opened the door and started to walk in a long corridor. He was walking during two minutes when he heard...

Jungkook !!
They finally give me your name

Jungkook was his own name, but what was this mysterious boy's name ? What was the boy of his thoughts' name ?
A nurse was talking to him, but Jungkook wasn't listening

after a whole week...

Jungkook got surpried, he slept during a whole week !
The nurse walked away, Jungkook only heared something like "stay where you are"

I finally have the name of the guy I...
however... You know, yesterday I tried to spoke the cat of the hospital

There is a cat in the hospital, jungkook's curiosity grew, he wanted to meet them

I'll present you to him
when you'll wake up

The boy smiled, even if what he remembered already happened, this mysterious boy could read his mind. This boy was so sweet

But when my hand get closer, It scratch my arm

Jungkook imagined the scene very well. He didn't know what the boy looked like, but he unconsciously put his own face instead.

It made me sad at the beginning, but then I thought I'll have great scars

Even if Jungkook was so amaized by such soft positivity, the word scar kept stock in  his head. Like an echo, and with another shiver, he rolled up his sleeves

They gonna look like yours 

His arms were full of scars of all sizes and forms. For the first time, he felt guilty about them and heavy tears fell on  his forearms

Sorry, that was maybe
inappropriate to talk about it...

He could hear on the voice his regular visior was feeling bad about what he just said.
Jungkook was distracted and stopped trying remember what he heard during his coma. But less than three minutes after, his chest was heavy again, and the pain he had felt all his life, that was starting leaving, went back in his mind.

Jungkook sat on the ground as tears was dropping from his eyes. He tried hardly to think about that kind and happy boy he heard during his sleep, but no words or memories came to his mind. Maybe he never came back after. But Jungkook needed comfort, he needed the boy's voice...

When the doctor saw him crying in the corridor, he quickly understood it wouldn't be possible to talk to him. So he just led him back to his room. Instinctively, jungkook ran in his bed and took the cuddly toy to hold it strongly in his chest. The only smell of the tiger calm him enough to hear for the first time a beating, a calm reassuring beating... Heartbeat.

Hello, Jungkook...

Jungkook styed concentrate into those heartbeats and the tiger perfume, he could finally remember his words.

I know I didn't come to see you during the last week...

But weirdly, even if these word gave him comfort, there was something very sad.

I felt awkward...
Because of what I said the last time...
Sorry...

Jungkook wasn't even a little bit mad against him, Jungkook just wanted to remember the words he told to him

After seeing you the first time, I couldn't stop my mind to think about that huge pain in your eyes

The doctor, who was waiting next to the door, asked Jungkook if he was okay. The boy replied by nodding.

So, since then, every time you left school, my eyes were always on you

Did he really said that ?  To be honest Jungkook was kinda happy about it, it was helping him a lot now

Because of you, I took the habit to sit on the window

The doctor asked if he wanted anything, Jungkook could only anwser this by asking if the window could be opened.
The doctor asked why. Jungkook told him he wanted to understand the other boy.

And one day, despite me...I saw you with that knife in your hand, trying to hide behind the trees

The doctor was confused but did what he asked. Jungkook sat on the window sill and looked at the entrance of the high school.

From here, you weren't hide very well

Indeed, he wasn't. So this is why he said he knew Jungkook. In fact, this mysterious visitor was now the person who knew and understood him the most

I know after that, I should have left you with your life but...

Jungkook thought he really wanted to meet this boy, and not only when he was asleep. He needed it.

I think at this moment, I was already...

Jungkook felt so much better now, he was able to run and jump and everything. He needed to see this boy who took care of him and brought him happiness.

I know it was your private life, maybe I hoped I could see even for a second, a ray of joy in your black eyes

A Ray of Joy... No there was no ray of joy in Jungkook's eyes, the pain was still here, in the deep part of his heart. Why ? Why did jungkook has the feeling something is wrong ?

so I kept the custom of sitting here and waiting for you...

His chest was still heavy of something he couldn't understand, Jungkook couldn't show him-self in frond of the boy with this unsolved issue. He will have to wait a little longer. Jungkook raised his look to the rooftop of the school.

Hey, it's night but...
Well, time doesn't matter for you right now

Time... How many time did he sleep ? Jungkook asked the date to the doctor. He told him. Jungkook was here for more than a month

I hope you're having a calm sleep
I dreamt of that day last night

Jungkook knew which day the boy was making reference. It couldn't be something else than this one. And it would also explain lots of things.

That's why I'm too scared
to dream this night

Jungkook agreed, it might be scary to see indeed, he was sorry about that. He didn't want anyone to see it, that why he went on night.

so I came...

He "came"... Does it mean... He slept in jungkook's bed with him ? The boy couldn't get this think out of his mind

Hi Kookie ! It's night again

Jungkook almost fell of the window hearing this. He didn't expcted being called like that

You like you new nickname ?

Jungkook was smiling, he loved it. He could feel a wave of happyness in his whole body.

The last time I got caught when I came to you

Jungkook thought if his everything was happy, surly so were his eyes... Maybe he didn't need to solve any issue to have a ray of joy in it

They said it wasn't healthy to come

So his he didn't came after ? Is it the last memory jungkook will remember from him ? This simple thought gave him such a bad feeling, he definitly had to find this guy in the hospital

I have breathing problems and diabetes
I'm locked at the hospital for now five month

He is here during almost the half of the year, the doctors must know him. Jungkook asked where he could find the boy who was visiting him regulary. The doctor seemed embarrassed end told him he was going to ask to the reception

But, since the day I saw you, I feel like I'm getting better and better...

Jungkook made the boy getting better, and now  he was doing the same for him

I feel a bit guilty

Why did it makes him guilty to be better, after waiting during five month ? Jungkook closed the window and left his room for a second time

Because, at the same time, you were getting worse and worse...

Yes, Jungkook could remember how he felt in high school, no... How he felt during most of his life

Hello !

He used to hate life and wasn't able to see it's beauty. But the worst was he didn't have any trauma or else. There was no reason for this pain, just live

Sorry for haven't seen you so much lately

But since he woke up, around an hour ago, jungkook was more lost than anything, there was this boy who visited him so many time. And each new words he could remember from him was showing him a little bit of how the life can be simple and beautiful like a child's innocence. Jungkook started to walk on the corridor without knowing where he was going, lost in his own mind.

I'm having plenty of tests

Jungkook didn't knew why those word impacted so much, maybe because there was something in this voice... This boy understood him more than anyone... This voice was at the same time full of pain like him and full of pure love and happyness to complete its opposite. It was unexplainable but so charming.

They wanna know when I will go away from... this place

Jungkook stopped instantanly, did he really said he was going to leave the hospital ? But how Jungkook could meet him if he is out side.

For more than four months, I've been used to calmly wait that moment

Jungkook knew he should be happy for him, and he was. But something was holding the happiness back... Fear ? Of what ? Was jungkook afraid of not being able to talk to him ?

It's been three weeks tho when I started being annoyed of just waiting for it

Jungkook didn't want of this sad feeling, he doesn't even know if he already left, and still, he could try to find him

I don't wanna leave anymore

Jungkook, who had started to walk again after his positive idea, stopped for a second time, why would the boy who stayed here for more than five month, like to stay at the hospital ?

Because it would means I couldn't see you anymore either

Jungkook's heart skipped a beat, the boy wanted to stay... Because of him ?

That's probably a bit selfish, but sometimes...I think about you and...

But if jungkook was here, surely the boy was.

And I feel kind of happiness you're in the hospital

The fact it could be selfish never came trough jungkook's mind. He even thought that was quite cute. Jungkook decided to join the doctor who was quite long and moved forward to the reception.

because I can now talk to you, although you can't reply...

If he would have been able to reply, he would. Jungkook wasn't an idiot, he knew he was at this hospital because of his mysterious visior. But it's also because of him he was happy to fail.

Hey again...

For the third time, jungkook got petrified, the boy's ton was so sad and deep

I did all my tests

H

e was so sad of having done his test... It could only mean one thing... Jungkook began to run 

I have lots of things to say

There was something wrong, something wasn't normal, this sadness... was giving a very bad feeling to Jungkook

I-I don't know where to start...

Actually, the feeling was here since he woke up, in his chest, but he thought it was his own sadness... It wasn't, and now he just realised it. 

Maybe a month ago, the day it was supposed to be your end

His heart was beating so fast when he found the doctor at the reception, he screamed on the man to tel hem where the boy who saved him was

I remember that day so well

The doctor surprise by the boy anwser awkwardly he left the hospital. He added it was four days ago, just before Jungkook's operation.

I was in the window as usual 

Operation ? Jungkook never heard about any operation four days ago... The doctor explain him his heart was bad since he was here, and four days ago, his heart stopped and he almost died

But this one time, I saw you earlier ...

What if... What if he thought Jungkook died and left the hospital before being informed the surgery was going to save him... So the voice's owner in his memories did leave the hospital

On the rooftop of your school, for the first time, we were on the same height...

The tears were starting falling on his cheeks, and with a last crazy hope, Jungkook ran outside, maybe he was around. Jungkook cursed him-self to don't know it's name yet. The doctor was running after him.

And for the first time, you were peaceful...

He ran all a long the street ans arrvied to the high school entrance. He stopped here and started looking at the rooftops, a detail in his memory he hadn't noticed yet came to his mind

And then something happened

It was clear now, there was still something wrong. Immediatly, Jungkook climbed the fence and the school walls

It's probably nothing for you but 

Jungkook arrived to a place he knew well, the last place, a month ago, he expected to see. Jungkook turned his head to the hospital, he could see his window, and remembered perfectly

You raised your head and your eyes were on me

Last time jungkook was standing here, he remembered that boy looking at him on the window, they stared at each other during a few seconds. So it was him ! Jungkook could finally put a face, a body in that guy who blessed his life

The most powerful and deep eye contact I ever had

He finally had all the pieces, he wasm't the mysterious boy anymore, it fill Jungkook of a warming happiness

and you smiled to me...a real smile...

Yeah, he smiled to that boy, as a "don't worry" if only Jungkook had knew this boy actually knew him so well. It was good to finally know him, until he remember he didn't knew his name yet, Jungkook was happy but this bad feeling didn't want to go away

And the second right after that, we both felt at the same time ...

There were still a mis sing part in the puzzle, Jungkook closed his eyes and recalled his words...

For you, you weren't leaving, you were going somewhere else...

"like me, you gave up on happiness"
He didn't look like giving up on happiness

In a better place ...

"when I will live... This place"
His heart was beating farter as he was starting to understand the missing piece

But...

"I've been used to wait for that moment"
He already gave up

I didn't want you to feel better...

"It means I couldn't see you anymore either"
Tear again were coming out of Jungkook's eyes

Not on that way...

The doctor arrives behind Jungkook, out of breath asking him not to jump, he really couldn't understand anything

I wanted US to feel better...

Jungkook asks the doctor if he really left the hospital

together...

~No please, don't say it, not until I found you, I want to say it to you~

You felt from that rooftop

After a silent the doctor said no
Jungkook's legs couldn't hold him and he fell

And I realized I fell for you

~I love you too, i love you so much~

Only two month after, but now, the one I finally knew I loved was dying

The doctor explain he was here for five month but that he already knew he couldn't get cured was that he was going to die

so yes...

After they did the tests, they conclued he was supposed to die in three days

that's my fault if you're still alive...

Jungkook was crying so much
~Don't blame your-self please I'm so glad you saved me~

And this is my fault if you are in a coma 

~this stay in the hospital was the best thing that happened in my life, because I met you~

sorry...

The doctor was still explaining everything : he was suppose to diethree days after the tests, but then Jungkook had a heart attack and...

Sorry for having loved you...

~me too, thank you for being you~
Jungkook felt so desperate, the moment he was finally happy, in love because of someone, this one just died, and he didn't even know his name

I'm talking to you as we were close for a whole month now

T

his heart Attack was going to end him, his heart was totally broken

But you must hate me...

~You saved me from suicide and sadness, you kept enjoying the little thing of the life even if you knew it was the end soon, your innocence, your confort, and simple love for everything are priceless. There is not words to explain my love for you, even if I don't know your name~

Sorry...

H

e was here when Jungkook's heart stopped, and he was here when the doctor realised this heart wouldn't work anymore

Anyway, it's soon over, you won't hear about me anymore

So he asked if he coud give to Jungkook  his own heart, after some tests a lots of debate, we decided to do what he wanted

Jungkook finally inderstood this weight inside his chest, a big, amazing, complet, full, heart replaced his old one... Jungkook was destroyed by knowing he will never meet his love, but he gave his life to save him, again. And now...

It was an honor to meet you, I'm Taehyung

~I have Taehyung's heart in my chest, and I will never let anything happening to it~
Jungkook looked a the space in front of Him

Jungkook ?

- Taehyung...

JUNGKOOK !!!

- I love you

Jungkook knew Taehyung's scream was because of his dead heart, he was clinicly dead at that time. But it was like his new heart was giving hem the last piece, the last grain of sand in the hourglass, Tae's last words.

You will have my heart, if you don't want it, sorry, but please don't waiste it. Unlike me, there is still a chance. Please... Be happy with it, its all it needs to be healthy

~You're not dead, you heart is alive, I wouldn't dare waiste it, I don't wanna kill you, because I love you and I couldn't bear this after your last words... ~

- It Belongs to you