Silas Mateo
@/MateoNicholas
01-19 10:00 PM

Nichola:
Hi

Silas:
Hi baby

Nichola:
I'm messaging at 10 pm and
you're replying

Silas:
Yea

Are you happy?

Nichola:
Super

Silas:
How's Callie?

Nichola:
Tulog na

Si Tita?

Silas:
Sleeping also

Nichola:
That's good to hear

Silas:
How do you feel?

You're so quiet

Even yesterday

Sobrang tahimik mo

Nichola:
Wala naman

Masaya lang

Silas:
That's not how you are
when you're happy

Nichola:
Paano ba dapat

Silas:
You're jumpy and clumsy

And you're clingy

Nichola:
Wasn't I like that kahapon?

Silas:
No

Nichola:
Can I be honest with you

Silas:
Of course

Nichola:
I wasn't expecting anything

I was readying myself to the
worst possible scenario

I never planned anything na
gagawin kapag nag-survive ka

Now I'm blank

But I'm happy

I just don't know how to express it

Maya't-maya I feel like crying kasi ganito din yung ginawa ko kay Lorraine

I was 5 when I fully understood her situation kaya ever since, I was just imagining what will I do if she died

When she did, ang dali sakin gumalaw

Silas:
Why were you even pushing me to lie

You were readying to me dying, hindi mo kailangan ng assurance

Nichola:
It's for you

Para hindi ka sumuko

The assurance you gave me was for you

Mas mahina ka sakin emotionally, mas kailangan mo 'yon pero hindi ko naman maibigay that's why I asked

Silas:
You're so darn selfless

Nichola:
I never expected you to live

Can you imagine that

Silas:
I heard you waited for 20 mins bago ka kumain

That's after the surgery started

Nichola:
I did

Silas:
That means you're scared

Nichola:
I was

Silas:
Then you want me to live

Nichola:
Of course but I wasn't so positive about it

Silas:
It's all good, Nichola

Nichola:
But i can't feel anything

Silas:
You said you're happy

Nichola:
I don't know

Silas:
It will sink in soon

Don't worry about it

Nichola:
You're not mad?

Silas:
No

Nichola:
Can I have a favor?

Silas:
Yes baby

What's it?

Nichola:
Can we rest please?

Maybe I'm just overwhelmed

And burnout

Silas:
You can sleep now if you're already tired

Ako na gagawa ng mga gagawain mo bukas ng umaga

Have that time to rest also

Nichola:
No I mean us

Silas:
Nichola..

Nichola:
I love you so much

But I just need some space to be with myself and breathe and reflect by myself. There's just a lot turn of events that happened and I just don't feel like myself now

Silas:
It drained you..

Nichola:
Yes

But it's no one's fault, Silas. I just badly need that space, please.

Silas:
Can I ask how long

Nichola:
I don't know how to answer that

Silas:
Is this a break up, Nichola?

Nichola:
No, just a space

Silas:
Then can I message you, still?

Nichola:
A complete space, Silas

No messages, No calls, No anything from you

Silas:
That's hard

Nichola:
Please

Silas:
I can't say no if you're asking like that

Nichola:
Thank you

Silas:
I love you

Nichola:
I do too

Take care

Sundin mo lagi si Tita

Silas:
I will

You take care too

Watch your screentime and set a reminder for you drops. Also your glasses, watch out for it baka maipit mo kapag natutulog ka

Nichola:
Thank you

Silas:
Should I get Callie from you?

Nichola:
Can she stay with me?

Silas:
Yes of course

Nichola:
Thank you

Silas:
I'll have Callie's needs delivered nalang

Nichola:
Alright

Silas:
Nichola

Nichola:
Yes?

Silas:
It's just me right?

No other man?

Nichola:
Just you

This is just a space, Silas. I'll be back. And we're still in a relationship, don't overthink that scene.

Loyal at faithful ako

Ikaw lang talaga promise

Silas:
Thanks, I need that words so bad

It applies the same with me

It's something so obvious already but I'm madly in love with you, please don't think about me having someone else.

I love you Nichola