And I went tumbling down tryna reach your high

But I scream too loud if I speak my mind

I don't wanna wake it up

The devil in me - Halsey; Devil In Me

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I wanted to scream; to make sure every body in the entire universe knew how delighted I felt. After our, absolutely amazing, kiss Harry had confessed with a red colour on his cheeks to me that he might or might not had feelings for me as well. It was relatively easy for me to confess my feelings for him as well after that, with the same red colour on my face. But since he and Ginny had only broken up very recently we had agreed to not go to fast.

That simply meant that we could hold hands, cuddle and maybe even sleep together in the same bed as much as we wanted, but nothing more. Since we had our first kiss I had not touched his soft, pretty and pink lips with mine anymore, it was something we both were not ready for yet. That did not bother me at all however, just being with him, being able to hold him and cherish him made me feel like the happiest men on earth.

'I want to tell my mother,' I told him, a few minutes before we were going to meet our family and friends. By the look on his beautiful face I understood that he had not understand me. 'I want to tell her about us, about what I feel for you and what you hopefully still feel for me after I have been snoring that badly last night.'

The raven-haired boy threw a pillow to me, one that I easily caught. A soft laugh escaped those beautiful lips that he owned, lips that I had felt not that long ago on mine.

'But only if you agree of course,' I said, not wanting to do anything that had to do with him without his permission. 'I agree,' he nodded to me. 'But only if you keep it quiet, I am not sure if Ginny will be there as well and to be honest I do not want her to hear about this. Not yet.'

I could tell that we was very nervous about todays family-day. From what he had told me I understood that Ginny had been here every single time to visit him. She had not left his side a single time. However, things had changed. They were no longer in a relationship and despite the fact that I did not consider the Weasley girl to be the angry, jealous type of ex-girlfriend I could not predict if she would turn up or not. And neither could Harry, something that had been keeping him awake that night.

'I will be extra careful,' I promised him, crawling on to his side of the room. 'But only if I can get a kiss from you on my cheek.'

A smile appeared on his lips as he looked at me with his sparkly green eyes. 'Are you black-mailing me, Mr Malfoy?'

'Is it working, Mr Potter?' I asked him as our faces got closer. It was pretty obvious that we were going to do the one thing we both had agreed to not do; kissing each other on the lips. I could feel his hot breath against my sensitive lips, craving for his touch. Craving for them to touch me and give me that absolutely wonderful feeling again.

But before we even got the change to touch each others lips there was a soft knock on the door, followed by Cecilia telling us that our family and friends had arrived. A impatient, deep sign left my lips as I quickly kissed him on his cheek. 'We should go,' I whispered, receiving an impatient but understanding groan from the other boy. 'Yeah,' he said in agreement, knowing that he had no other choice but to face his fears.

'Hey,' I said, forcing him to look me in my steel-blue eyes that were filled with love. 'I am right there, alright? If you ever feel like it is going to be too much just look at me and I will make sure that someone will get you out of there. Or I will get you out of there myself, do we have a deal?'

Harry smiled, agreeing with that as well. We both walked towards the family room and before I knew it I found myself, sitting by my own table, waiting for my beloved mother to visit me. She would be shocked when she would find out that I had been fighting, everybody seemed to know it. Dr. Dolan had told the both of us that she wanted to talk with us about the "accident", but since her cousin had been in a small accident she had not had time for that, not yet at least.

'Draco,' I heard a trusted voice shouting. My eyes flew to the door, seeing my mother in the dooropening with a wide smile, one that faded when she noticed the swollen skin around my eye. She rushed over to me, grabbing my face with her warm, small hands. 'O dear boy,' she spoke with a shaky voice. 'Are you okay? Did that Potter boy did this to you? I told you that is was not a good idea to be around him, maybe I should g-'

'No mother,' I said, cutting her words off. 'It was someone else, we had a little fight. But everything is okay, his condition is a little worse then mine.'

I honestly did not know why my lips had added those last words to it. It was probably a way to make my dad proud, since he only could feel any form of pride for me if I had done something better then another person. This time I had beaten him up better then the red-haired boy could have done to me.

'Is that boy punished?' she asked, confirming another thing that I loved so much about her; her trust in me. Without telling her what he had done to make me angry she knew that something must have happened before we started fighting.

'Not yet, but on Monday we will probably discuss it later. I guess we will both get punished,' I said, adding the fact that not only he, but me as well would receive a punishment. 'But please sit down, I want to know how you are doing.'

She did as I told her, resulting in the both of us to sit down. From the corner of my eye I could see a certain red-haired girl and another more blonde-haired girl entering the room. I could hear how Harry held his breath, fearing whatever was going to come. He had told me how much he hoped that Ginny would not be there, her being him made him scared. However, she did not yell at him. No, she pulled him into a hug, one that he gladly accepted.

'Great, actually,' she said, pulling the sleeve of her dress down. I smiled at her, widely. Never before had I felt that much proud for her, my mother was the strongest, most independent women I had ever met.

At least, that is what I thought until I noticed a small bruise in her neck. Just behind her left ear.

'Mother?' I said with a confused voice, not sure what it was. It could be absolutely anything, right? 'Why do you have a bruise behind your ear?'

Her face lost all the colour. Her all of a sudden afraid wide eyes looked at me with panic. That was when I realised that something was indeed wrong. She never got pale, she never looked at me with such a panic in her eyes when I simply asked something.

'Mother,' I said, with a more stern voice this time. I had to try my best not to freak out right there, I had to try my hardest not to yell at her, or to cry. 'Could you give me your hand, please?'

She did as I asked, stroking her sleeve up so that I could look at her wrist. There were bruises everywhere, some had a dark blue colour, others were more purple. But the worst ones where the red ones, the ones that gave away that she had been bleeding.

'You lied,' was all I could say. 'You lied to me,' I said again as I felt how my eyes filled with tears. 'You fucking lied to me!' I screamed this time as I stood up from my chair. Not only mine but her eyes as well were filled with tears, tears that could escape at any moment. 'You fucking lied to me mother! How could you? Can you not see how bad he is for you? What kind of men does something like that to the women he loves?'

I screamed so loud that everybody, including Harry had stopped with what they were doing and had focused their attention towards me.

'He does not love you mother! He really does not. That men is not capable of loving someone anymore, and if you do not leave him then I assure you that I will make him leave you.'

I felt the anger that had been building up inside of me ride to a new, much higher level. My mind had gone completely blank, the only thing I could think about was my horrible father. Something had snapped in me, at what point exactly was something I did not know.

Before I could not longer hold myself I ran out of the room, leaving my completely upset mother alone in the family room.

The first room I entered appeared to be a meeting room for the staf, there was no one in the room anymore, but the filthy coffee and teacups where still standing on the table. I had to get my anger out of me someway, the only rational way in my opinion at that moment was to throw something; to break something.

My hands found the first teacup, throwing that against the wall. As it broke into pieces I felt my anger rise, and before I knew it all the cups where lying brokenly on the ground. Yet, this did not take away my anger.

My fist hit a few to pieces chattered cups, causing my knuckle to bleed immediately. I felt pain flowing through my body, pain that was not mentally but physically. Before I knew it my hands hit the pile of sharp edges again, and again, and again. Until there was so much blood on the ground that it was almost too hard to see that there was something underneath the red mess.

I felt a strong pair of arms pulling me away from the broken pieces, pulling me in a tight hug. My first instinct was to try to escape, especially since I felt too much anger, too much pain not to. But as they pulled me closer and as I noticed that the person smelled familiair tears started running down my cheeks. All the anger I had felt was being replaced with an intens sadness, one that seemed to be swallowing me completely.

'Shhhh,' I heard a soft, beautiful voice mumbling. This only caused sobs to leave my lips, desperate and hurt sobs.

'S-She l-lied to m-me, Harry,' I whispered, crying so loud that my face had gotten wet completely from a combination of tears, snot and slime from my throat. Everything hurt at that moment, everything but his safe arms that were keeping me from hurting myself any further. 'H-He hurt h-her, Harry, h-he hurt h-her again.'

'Shhhh,' he tried to shush me, kissing my temple gently. 'Everything is okay. Everything is going to be okay.'

But that was a lie, it was not fine. And at that point I was not sure if it ever would be fine again.