If people did not love one another, I really don't see what use there would be in having any spring - Victor Hugo, Les Misérables

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'Do you guys have everything?' Cecilia asked us again. I looked over to see Harry standing next to me with a sunglass balancing on his nose instead of his usual glasses. He was holding a picnicbasket into his left hand and in his right hand he was holding rackets to play some sort of muggle game named badminton.

I was holding a few picnic blankets, and a box which kept the our drinks cold.

'I believe we do,' dr. Dolan said, nodding her head. She was not wearing her usual outfit that consisted out of a neat suit. No, today she wore a dress with sunflowers on it. Cecilia had switched her usual blue outfit that looked the same with as our outfits for a comfortable jumpsuit. 'Shall we go then?' Honey asked happily. Next to her were standing three other male nurses that would be coming with us, even though we would go to a closed park that was placed next to this building. We all agreed happily and followed the two women to the door.

'I cannot believe that I can finally leave,' the black-haired girl that I had grown found of said happily. 'Even though it is just for now.'

I grabbed her hand and squeezed it softly in agreement. Her hand was soft, but not as soft as the hands of a certain boy who was walking behind us. Without reconsidering it my head turned around as my eyes found two beautiful green ones. Harry immediately smiled at me, filling my body with warm tingles while doing so. I knew that not talking to anyone about the way Harry made me feel would eventually drive me crazy, however I did not feel like talking about those feelings with dr. Dolan nor Harry, Lucia could be a safe option but to be honest I really did not know her that well.

The only thing that I did know was that my head felt like a ticking time bomb that could explode any moment from confusion. There were so many things I wanted to ask to Harry, to myself and to no-one in particular. I longed for stability, for knowing at what point our "relationship" exactly was. I just wanted to know if this was something my mind had made up to cheer me up in some way, even though I did not feel cheered up at all at that moment. But what if it was actually real? What if Harry felt some kind of way for me as well, some way that was not just a friendship kind of way?

I could not forget about Ginny Weasley; the girl who had sacrificed everything for Harry. The girl who had been there through tick and tin when I was not even in the picture as anything but a bully yet. There love for each other had so much more meaning then my stupid feelings.

I also never reconsidered myself falling in love with a boy, but that had not even seem to bother me until that moment. I knew my dad would absolutely hate it, he would probably despite me and wish I would have never been born. That sort of made me happy though; pissing him off was something that made me some sort of weird satisfied way. All those wasted years in which I had tried to make him proud had let to absolutely nothing, now it was time for him to be really disappointed in me.

'Draco?' I heard a male voice ask me. My eyes left the street beneath my feet as I looked into the prettiest eyes God had ever given to a human being. 'We are here,' he announced with a gentle smile lying on his lips. His hand grabbed mine as he stepped aside, allowing me to see the piece of nature lying in front of me. It was amazing. As far as the eye could reach. There were small children running around, laughing, elderly people who walked together and parents leaning against the trees looking at their children with a satisfied smile.

'It is beautiful, is it not?' Harry asked me softly. 'Not as beautiful as you are,' I spoke out loud before realising what I had actually said. I could feel my cheeks getting hot and turning into a dark-red colour, something that also seemed to happen to the boy standing next to me. The rest of the group was standing a few feet away from us, the only one that seemed to pay attention to us was Lucia, who once again raised her dark eyebrows. Before I could speak up and say something that might could cover up how much I had sounded like some creep Cecilia called us.

'Come on boys, we have a few things to say before you can run around like wild dogs,' she said, laughing in herself about the comparison she had just made. We did as she asked us and joined the group.

'Alright, because we cannot allow anything to happen to you there is going to be someone looking out for you. One of the nurses or I will keep a close eye on you to make sure that nothing happens, so do not even consider doing anything stupid. If you do decide to run we will make sure you do not get far and not only you but the rest of the group as well will not be allowed to go on a field trip like this again. Understood?'

We all nodded, agreeing with her terms. No one was going to try to run away, at least I hoped not. Maybe Lydia would try to do something stupid, although she seemed to be in a better mood today.

'Alright, go and have some fun guys!' dr. Dolan said happily with a smile lying on her lips. Harry connected our hands together immediately as Lucia walked towards us. 'Hey, is it okay if I join you guys?' she asked, something that was not even necessary since I wanted to spend time with the kind girl as well.

'Of course,' Harry and I said together at the same time, something that made the both of us giggle softly like some schoolgirls. I could help it though, the nice weather, the beauty of nature and the boy with the raven-hair made my mood light up.

'Shall we sit over there?' the short girl asked, pointing to a tree where it was quiet. We nodded and followed her until I threw out a blanket on the ground for us to sit on. Harry placed the basket filled with food in the middle.

'So guys,' Lucia spoke up, looking at us with a weird look in her eyes. 'You get along pretty well, huh?'

She knows was all I could think. She knows and now she will tell dr. Dolan about it and then I will lose Harry forever.

'I believe we do,' Harry spoke before I could move at all. A small blush on his cheeks gave away the fact that he felt like he had got caught as well. 'Good for you guys,' she just said before biting into a sandwich with cheese. That was it, she did not bring it up anymore until after I had thrown the frisbee Harry had brought a little too far, something that resulted into him having to get it.

I had done a pretty good job on throwing that thing as far away as I possible could, something that gave Lucia the time to question me.

'You like him, am I right?' she asked. My heart immediately stopped beating as I heard her question, and the it started to beat really fast. I could feel anxiety raise as panic seemed to take over my body completely. 'I-I do,' I said, instantly regretting it. 'J-Just like I l-like you.'

'O my god, do not worry,' she spoke as soon as she realised how close I was to losing it all again. The warm sun who had warmth my skin up now all of a sudden could not do this anymore. 'I will not tell anyone, do not worry. I did not mean to scare you at all,' she said quickly. 'Not at all.'

The anxiety I had felt was still there, but some sort of relief had found its way into my body. 'I just wanted to know for sure before I would jump into conclusions you know. I promise you that I will not tell dr. Dolan or Cecilia or even him!'

'P-Promise?' I asked insecure as my eyes found the beautiful boy who was still walking towards the frisbee. Lucia connected our hands as steel-blue met sparkly blue. 'I promise.'

'Alright,' I said, trying to calm my breath desperately. She knew, something that meant I finally could open up to someone and let all those doubt go free. 'I think that I am,' I said, not sure how to say it correctly, 'I think that I am falling in love with him.'

She clapped her hands happily as a soft scream left her lips. 'Sorry,' she spoke immediately when she saw dr. Dolan looking our way with confusion in her eyes. 'I am just so happy for you that you have found someone who loves you.'

'I never said that,' I spoke quickly. 'Even if he would, he has a girlfriend. I am hundredth percent sure that he just sees me as a friend. Or not even that, maybe he sees me as nothing more than just another patient.'

'No,' she said, poking my side playfully. 'Friends do not look the way to each other you do. And I heard him saying to dr. Dolan that he is not even sure anymore if he still loves her the way he used to love her. Besides that; you fell in love with him, your first manly crush I suppose so who says that you are not his first male crush either?'

Before I could say anything else Harry had come back with a red colour on his cheeks from all the walking he had done. He threw the frisbee at me and my hands caught it agile. For a moment his now confused looking green eyes looked at the both of us.

'Where were you talking about?'

My eyes found Lucia's light ones and after that we both started to giggle. 'It was nothing,' she assured Harry, I just took her denial happily. The raven-haired boy looked confused but decided not to question it when he sat down besides me again and connected our hands once again. When he did so I saw the short girl winking subtly at me before smiling widely.

That was the first moment I realised that maybe, just maybe she was right.