Firework
Katy Perry

Matthew Gray

Fireworks are exploding on the background when his soft lips were slowly moving against mine. The kiss felt so delicate and comfortable as if he was afraid to break me. It felt like his lips fitted perfectly on mine, like some sort of puzzle.

My eyes were wide open as he kisses me and I felt his doubt when I didn't kiss him back so that's when I decided to swing my arms around his neck while closing my eyes, kissing him back.

Sparks ignite through my whole body like firework and I couldn't get enough of it. My heart raced against my chest yet I pulled him closer to me and stood on my tiptoes since he was a bit taller than me.

Something inside of me told me to stop, but my heart didn't listen to my head. I kept kissing him back over and over again.

And over and over again.

Then realization hit me so I pushed him away as fast as possible, still panting like crazy from the overwhelming kiss. I stared at him with wide eyes and tried to speak up, but it felt like my throat was being clenched.

A lot of questions were rushing through my mind. Why did he do that? Did he like me? What was that? Why did it feel so good? What are we? Am I being pranked?

Even with Rain, I didn't feel like this. This felt different. With Rain I felt love and care, he was my first love. Justin gave me comfort and safety, but I didn't love him. What did that mean?

Just as I was about to say something, Ryan and Tyler came up to us.

"Hey! We lost you guys. Happy New Year!" Ryan giggled happily and attacked me with a hug.

When he wrapped his small arms around me, I started to fade back to reality and tried to act casually as if the kiss never happened.

"Are you okay? You look like you've seen a ghost?" He asked while looking up at me.

Tell me about it..

"Y-yeah I'm fine.." I lied straight to Ryan's face.

I hate lying to him, but how was I supposed to tell him that Justin just kissed me at 12 AM on New Year's Eve? How could I tell him that I kissed someone other than Rain.

Ryan looked at me for a couple of seconds, still suspecting something. Luckily he let it go and didn't say anything about it anymore, because I didn't want to tell him any of this.

This never happened, it was a mistake.

My eyes went up to the sky only to be met with a lots of beautiful firework in different shapes and colors. My ears were filled with the sounds of the fireworks. I didn't see and hear all those things until now, now that Justin wasn't kissing me. He made me forget everything.

I just can't believe Justin just kissed me. It made me angry towards him, how could he just kiss me without my consent? But then again.. I kissed him back and for some reason I.. liked it?

No, no, no, no I did not like it!

"Let's go back home" Tyler said and we walked back towards my house.

The walk was somewhat quiet and almost awkward. It was for Ryan that he's always hyper and talked a lot, or else it would've been painfully silent. I tried to keep my distance from Justin though, because I didn't want to talk to him for a while. I had to sort things out. I don't think I can continue being friends with him.

Because he was right, I was basically cheating on him and I was hurting him. I shouldn't hang out with Justin anyways.

Once we got back to my house, Tyler and Ryan decided to leave together. It was almost 1 AM by now, but luckily they didn't live far away from here so they would be fine.

"I hope you had a great birthday Matt" Tyler smiled and gave me a bro hug before walking back to his car.

"Thank you, I had a lot of fun with you guys" I smiled towards Ryan and him.

"Happy birthday Matty! I love you" Ryan smiled and hugged me also before going to sit next to Tyler, together they're leaving the neighborhood.

I didn't dare to look up at Justin and was hoping that he'd just leave, but of course like the fucker he is, doesn't take any of that.

"About that kiss.." He started and I could hear the uncertainty in his voice which made me look at the ground.

See? It was all a mistake. He is hesitant and doesn't like me.

I continued to ignore him and looked anywhere but at him.

"Please babe, look at me and say something" I heard his voice say in a soft tone, making me feel at ease with him whether I wanted to or not.

"Don't call me babe, I'm not like any of those girl toys of yours so just leave" I muttered and crossed my arms stubborn.

He puts his fingers beneath my chin, making me look at him. His eyes aren't looking at me in a teasing nor disgusting way. His green eyes held something more comfortable.

I was so thankful for that, yet I shouldn't be treated nicely.

"Look, I know that there's a lot on your mind with Rain and all. But you're not, I repeat, not, like one of my exes. I genuinely like you Matt. God, you're driving me insane, you have no idea. My point is, I'm willing to take things slow with you. I promise we'll do it at your pace. Just please, give me a chance?" He pleaded.

Every word that left his mouth felt so real. I was wondering if I was dreaming or if he really just said all those stuff about me. He is always so spontaneous and unpredictable.

He always managed to surprise me and I kind of liked that in some sort of way. God, that boy really knows how to mess with me.

Not gonna lie, I did want to give it a shot. I'm just not ready to start dating again and stuff, but then again I've used that excuse for over months by now. If I won't try now, I will never.

But I don't think I like him either, at least not like that. Do I?

But you liked the kiss.

No I didn't.

Yes you did.

No.

Yes.

No.

Yes.

Nope.

Hell yes.

No, just shut up inner me!

"Please say something? Anything" I heard Justin his trembling voice, taking me out of my thoughts which made me look up to him.

He looked quite nervous and restless. His face showed me how nervous he actually was and he didn't even try to hide it.

Was he really that nervous?

"I-I don't know Jus" I admitted honestly.

There were still a lot of unanswered questions running through my mind.

"Okay I got something. Let's date for a couple of weeks and see how it goes from there? I swear we can take things slow" He asked hopefully and looked at me with what almost seemed to be like puppy eyes.

"Okay fine" I finally agreed and nodded slowly, still unsure if I should do this.

His smiled widened and it almost looked like the smile could literally fall off of his face, that's how big he smiled. Suddenly he jumped up and down, yelling like the dork he is.

"I got the man!" He laughed happily and fist bumps the air, making me laugh now too.

I could feel the atmosphere between us change from tensed to something more safe and nicer. I liked when he was like this and not when he put the careless jock façade on.

Before I could blink he went over to me and picked me up from the ground, kept me close to his chest and twirled me around in the air. I couldn't help but laugh with him. I got a kick of adrenaline from being twirled around like that. He then put me down again and cupped my cheek.

"I won't make you regret this Matz" He whispered and pulls me in a warm hug.

"You better not, you fucker" I jokingly laughed and felt myself unconsciously lean against him, taking in his warmth as he swept me away in a new spontaneous fantasy like this.

Maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't regret this decision at all.