Elastic heart
Sia

Matthew Gray

Once I woke up, a deep groan left my mouth from the throbbing headache I was experiencing. It was killing me and I haven't even been awake for a second. Somehow I also felt really nauseous and warm as if I was getting a fever or something.

I also couldn't exactly remember what happened yesterday which made me frown. Eventually I let out a deep sigh and rolled on my bed, trying to adjust to the brightness. Thinking back to remember what happened the previous day gave, me even a worse headache than I had so I decided not to think about it any further. Plus my eyes couldn't take the sunlight that had been shining through the window inside my room.

Wait.. My room doesn't have a window.

I gasped and immediately sat up straight which I immediately regret, because it made my head hurt more than I thought was possible.

Please don't tell me this is another bad dream. In panic I started to look everywhere around me, almost causing myself a whiplash from moving so fast.

"Hey, hey Matt calm down, you're at my house" I heard a familiar voice tell me, but I flinched from how loud it sounded in my ears.

I squeezed my eyes shut and looked up at Justin, already fully dressed and with a bottle of water with a small pill in his hand what seemed to be like Advil.

"Wh- What h-happened?" I asked confused and felt that I had a sore throat, causing my voice to crack as I talked.

"Here, take this. I have clothes for you in my bathroom, go make yourself ready. You can leave your old clothes here. We're going out" He pointed at the bathroom that was inside his bedroom.

I didn't miss the serious tone in his voice. It had to be either bad or very serious if he talked like that.

What was going on? And why couldn't I remember a single thing? Why did I feel like I could puke any minute?

And stupid me of course had to puke right after thinking about that.

In a hurry I ran towards his bathroom that was in his room. I sat in front of the toilet full of panic while I was basically puking my lungs out. I felt a hand rub my back, soothing me and making me feel warm yet weird tingles through my whole body.

"Sst, it's okay. Let it all out babe" I heard a voice say in the distance.

After I stopped puking, I closed my eyes for a second and tried to breath normally. God, that was so embarrassing.

Wait, what did he call me?

"Are you okay? No nevermind, stupid question" He rambled once I started to puke all over again.

I gasped for air and finally felt a bit relieved again so I flushed the toilet and Justin helped me to get up since my knees felt really weak.

"Wait here okay?" I nodded and went back to sit on his bed before I'd collapse.

After a couple of minutes he came back with a plate full of different kinds of fruits and a smoothie. He handed me the water and Advil that was on his nightstand, so I took that first and started to dig into the food.

"Thank you" I said after just finishing eating.

"You should really make yourself ready now" He said with the same tone and face he had before I puked.

I wanted to ask him why, there were so many other unanswered questions that I also wanted him to answer for me. But the look on his face gave me a good reason to shut my mouth. He looked so serious and almost as if he were angry at me.

What the hell happened last night?

I thought when I started to make my way towards his bathroom to shower. All I could remember was that I had a bad dream about him. After that it was all just one big unanswered blur. I undressed myself, got in the shower and turned the water on. I let the hot steamy water flow down my back, throwing my head back as I sighed in relieve.

It relaxed my tensed muscles immediately and it felt so good almost calming. I used some shampoo and a shower gel that obviously smelt like something Justin would use. He's so typical, the thought of it made me smile.

After a while I got out, I dried my hair and body with the towel that Justin put right beside the table. I changed into what seemed to be Justin his hoodie and sweatpants, it was a little bit too big but somehow fit perfectly. It was warm and comfortable, it smelled like him and somehow it made me feel even more relaxed than I already was. He probably noticed that I really like wearing hoodies since I almost wear them every day.

I brushed my teeth. I didn't care to actually bring my hair into model, it has always been messy anyways so I decided to go back to his room.

"Ready?" He looked up from the bed to me and I nodded.

Justin had to sneak me out of the house. Clearly he hadn't told his parents that I was staying here which worried me.

Was it really that bad what I had done that he couldn't even let his parents know that I stayed the night?

The car ride had been silent. None of us dared to ask anything and I didn't really care to ask where we were going. My throat was still sore and talking wouldn't be the best option right now even though we were in such an uncomfortable silence.

Maybe I should stop hanging out with Justin. Rain didn't deserved this. I want to prove to him that I'm not cheating on him, that I still want and need him. He's the only one for me. Not Justin. I couldn't bear the fact that he would think something like that with the way he looked at me. It had to be a sign.

A sign to stop hanging out with Justin.

This was the second time that we both skipped school together, but I didn't care though. I wasn't ready to go back to that hellhole again and face everyone. It was still one huge mess with Ryan anyways.

After a while Justin stopped the car and looked at me with a huge grin on his face.

"We're going to do something fun"

He stepped out of the car and before I could open the door, he already ran to the other side to open the door for me.

"Oh yeah sure, I totally don't have hands on my own to open the damn door myself" I rolled my eyes sarcastically and got out.

"Well your hangover really crawled up your ass. No problem by the way" He grinned cheekily.

"You're acting so weird today I swear and please, please don't talk so loud. My head is killing me!" I groaned from the throbbing I felt.

"Just turn around" He said a bit more serious.

I frowned, but wasn't in the mood to fight him so I turned around and before I know it I couldn't see anything anymore.

"Hey what are you doing?!" I screamed in panic.

"Hey hey shht, it's just my hands covering your eyes okay? Do you trust me?" He softly whispered in my ear and I felt his body close to mine which caused me a lot of goosebumps and tingles all over my body.

"Of course I'm not trusting you after everything you pulled off! Before I know it you'll actually kill me and dump my body right here in the woods!" I rambled on.

"Well you have to trust me anyways" He muttered and led me on.

After almost tripping multiple times and me yelling at the idiot for almost letting me fall down, we eventually stood still.

"Okay Matt, we're here" He whispered and before I knew it, he took his hands from my eyes and I found out we were standing above a waterfall.

The view was literally breathtaking. Blue and green shades were filled up in the bright air, complimenting the white fluffy clouds. The clear water looked so fresh and had been running wild, it didn't make me feel scared in any way.

The height showed you how deep yet so beautiful the waterfalls were.

"W-wo- Holy shit.." I barely heard my own whisper.

"Beautiful isn't it?" I heard Justin his soft and soothing voice beside me.

It took me a couple of minutes before I came back to reality. I only had been staring at the view. I looked back at Justin to say something, but I suddenly saw him undressing himself to his boxers.

"W-what are you-" I couldn't finish my sentence, because before I knew it I stared down at his body.

He honestly looked like a god. His toned abs were showing off and the sunlight only seemed to compliment his skin even more. He was in shape and his body was just overall perfect. I couldn't help but keep staring at him.

Wait what..

"Like what you see?"

My eyes snapped up to his face only to be met with a huge smirk and grin on his face. I rolled my eyes, but felt my cheeks heat up in embarrassment.

What the hell was that?

"Undress yourself" He said.

"W-Wait.. what?" I asked confused.

"Trust me, undress yourself" He said again.

I looked at his eyes and saw the honestly. He wasn't smirking or grinning. So I did what he asked and ended up in my boxers, not without him looking at me of course.

The fucker he is..

Justin took a step closer to me and walked towards the end of the waterfall. I had been nothing but confused.

"Give me your hand" He said.

"Wait what?"

"Dammit Matthew just give me your hand!"

"Okay okay jeez Justin, calm down I'm coming"

I walked to him and grabbed his hand. Our fingers unintentionally intertwined within each other as if it was meant to be. He looked up at me and then down at the flowing water.

"We're going to jump okay? In three" He said and I didn't even protest against him.

I wasn't sure why I didn't, but somehow with him I wasn't scared. I couldn't think about anything bad. We were here, together. I should get out of my comfort zone more often. I felt like I needed this, this was it. I couldn't back out now.

"Okay three" I heard Justin count.

"Two" I said, my breath shaking and I instantly felt Justin gripping my hand tighter.

"One!" We yelled at the same time before jumping off the cliff together.

Jumping off increased my adrenaline and it felt scary yet excited. For a second I felt like we were flying. It was carefree, without problems and the air consumed my body. It was one of the best spontaneous things I have ever done and the smile hasn't left my face.

We never let go of each other's hands under water and when we both swam up to the surface to breath we were full on laughing from the excitement.

"That was amazing!" I yelled happily and wrapped my arms around his neck, still feeling the adrenaline rushing through my body.

"Hell yeah, it was" He grinned and looked at me.

After a while we both calmed down a bit and were now staring at each other's eyes. His forest green eyes were shining so bright and his wet hair looked actually pretty hot. The huge smile has never left his face and neither had mine. I had my arms still wrapped around his neck, because I was actually very scared.

You're probably wondering why and apparently so was Justin.

"Why are you all clinging to me?" He asked in a bit of a serious tone as his green eyes were illuminating.

"I- I can't swim" I muttered and felt my cheeks heat up all over again in shame.

"What? Are you serious Matthew?" He asked me in disbelief.

"I- I know it's stupid an-"

"No, no baby it's not. I- If I knew I wouldn't have made you jump. Why didn't you just tell me?!" He asked and frowned, I saw the guilt plastered all over his face.

"N-no, don't.. don't feel guilty. I don't regret this" I said and shook my head.

"Why not?" He asked softly.

"I don't know" I answered.

And I meant it. Sure, I had the feeling of doing something like this. I needed it, but I wasn't exactly sure why.

After a while we were staring at one another again and I clung even more to him, our bodies close to each other. It felt natural and safe. I wasn't scared of going to swim if it was with him.

This felt really weird, because I wasn't like this and never had been. I never liked Justin let alone feel so safe with him. He was not like him. Why was I doing this?

"You still miss him huh?" Justin made me snap out of my thoughts.

I looked back at him and saw his forest green eyes getting a bit darker. I saw this type of face expression that confused me.

"Yeah.. But for the first time after what happened, you actually managed to make me forget" I admitted to him and looked right back at him.

Because it was nothing but the truth.

He did not break me,
I was still fighting for peace,

Cause I've got an elastic heart.