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Troye Sivan x Broods

Matthew Gray

The past few days seemed to flow by so fast yet slow at the same time. Matthew felt alone. He didn't have his best friend anymore and he recently have been hanging out a lot with Justin who somehow started to dislike him all over again as if nothing happened. It made Matthew realize how big of a dick he actually was anyways.

Sure he had made a couple of friends who were his and Ryan his friends in the first place. So he knew that if Ryan told them everything (which he probably did) they would choose Ryan his side over Matt's which was pretty unfair in his opinion. Plus they would notice that something was wrong between the two former best friends anyways.

It was rare that Ryan wasn't seen with Matt and Matt wasn't seen with Ryan in the hallways or at the lunch breaks. The two friends were inseparable ever since what happened to Matthew his ex boyfriend.

So when the fifteenth day of Matthew being alone came around, everything started to change slowly for the better.

"Matt can we-" the person looked around before saying anything again. "Talk?" I heard him ask.

"I don't want nor need to talk to you Justin" I slammed my locker shut and tried to walk away from the dirty fucker.

What did he think? That I would crawl back to him as if he didn't let me down for the hundred of times. No, this time it would take a lot more than just a stupid apology.

"Just please let me talk okay?" Justin said as he held my wrist, which prevented me from leaving the fucking idiot.

"Fine" I sighed tired of fighting against him. He wasn't like him, I couldn't run away this time. Justin would make his point sooner or later.

"We never liked each other. I mean you are an asshole and I-"

"I'm this close to kicking your dick Justin" I said while holding my hand up, putting a very small space between my fingers to make my point here.

"Okay sorry, calm down. I just want to hang out with you. I know I've been stupid the last time. We were actually nice towards each other and-" He rambled on, suddenly sighed and raked a hand through his hair which was pretty hot.

Wait what?

"Let's start over again, I don't know you and you don't know me okay?" He said and walked around the corner then suddenly walked back towards me again, standing a bit too close for my liking.

"Hey you look really cute, I'm Justin" He said grinning while holding his hand in front of me.

The dork.

Wait.. Was he hitting on me? No.. No way, nobody would like someone as depressed and fucked up as me. Not even this poor fucker.

I amusingly took him hand, trying to hold back my laughter which I completely failed to do.

"Cute? Seriously Justin, god, you're such a fucker" I grinned and shook his hand.

"So what's your name cutie?" He smiled and winked at me.

His smile made me feel so many unknown yet familiar things and it slightly scared the hell out of me. I wanted to run away, starting to dislike and hate him again even though I still don't really like Justin at this point not after what he did. I should yell at him for kissing the girl, I should be mad at him for not trying to be friends and I should be mad at him for everything for how he treated me and especially how he treated him.

Yet I did the complete opposite and I, for some reason couldn't stop myself.

"Matt" I laughed, almost sounding like a giggle which made me blush right then and there.

Wow, since when did I act like that?

"Nice to meet you Matt; the guy with the very cute and adorable face. Do you maybe want to hang out later on Matt?" He grinned like crazy, almost as if we were two teenagers in love.

Wait what.

"Hm, I don't know Justin" I honestly debated.

I still didn't like Justin, but then again. People deserve a second chance right? Maybe he wasn't that bad after all? Maybe I could finally see as to why Rain wanted to date him in the first place.

"Fine"

-

There was a small and cozy café a couple of blocks away from school where Justin and Matt went while skipping school like two badasses, at least that's how they both felt like at that moment.

"I can't believe you actually made me go with you and skip school!" I laughed uncontrollably.

"I'm really glad you did" Justin shot a smile at me as if he meant something behind that.

"Did I miss something?" I stopped laughing and smiled back.

"I just want to show you that I'm truly sorry and this whole thing between us doesn't make sense. I mean I get why you hate me, but why should I hate you, you know? I mean I did some bad stuff to Rain, you-"

"Hey, it's okay" I interrupted him and shook my head to show him it was fine.

And this time, I really meant it.

"Are you sure?" He asked me, looking me deep in the eyes.

I loved how he looked into my eyes, his green eyes always had a way to look through my soul even if I didn't want that. But maybe, just maybe, I did want it.

"Not gonna lie, I'm still mad at you. But we can start of as being mates" I said while shrugging.

"Okay cool" He smiled wide as if I told him that he won an Oscar or something.

And that's how we eventually started to talk about ourselves, our hobbies, friends, families, relationships, interests and what we disliked.

It was so good for Matt to finally have someone who understands you and wants to be close friends with you like for example how Matt and Ryan were. It was nice to have someone like that besides Ryan. Plus Justin even made him forget about that fight and for a slight second he unconsciously forgot about him.

Matt was still laughing about some silly joke that Justin made until Justin started to become serious.

"So uh- remember that time you were having a panic attack at school?" Justin suddenly started out of nowhere with a frown on his face.

Was he concerned?

"Oh yeah" I said with a frown actually trying to forget about that horrifying memory.

"I was so scared that day Matt.. I- I didn't know what to do and I started panicking myself. I can't even imagine how it must feel for you and I don't want to feel so powerless like that ever again" He said sounding guilty, serious and even worried?

"What are you trying to say Justin?" I asked him and frowned, suddenly not feeling good anymore.

No, not now.

I hold my breath a couple of seconds, trying not to think about all the negative thoughts and feelings that I'll get anytime soon.

But soon enough Justin answered his question with another question.

"Tell me all the things that makes you feel at ease"