A/N there's a little change in this chapter. I wanted to make a point, so read very well and good. I won't say anything. But that's why I put a small part above Matthew his point of view. It belongs to this chapter, but it's apart from what's happening right now (the diner). There's a connection and I made that pretty clear. Soooooooo.

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Dusk till dawn
Sia x Zayn

Leaves are slowly falling from branches of the old trees, smoothly floating through the fresh air which reminded me of what seemed to be like freedom.

The green forest is blooming with beautiful flowers; in every shape and color, fresh grass and soft leaves; taking me back to when I was young. A place that made me forget about any worry.

Breath taking skies were filled with this rare color, indicating that the night has arrived. Yet again I didn't feel scared, because you made me feel free again.

Matthew Gray

"So Justin, you're Matthew's friend?" My mom asked him which made me look up from my plate towards her.

What the hell is she up to?

"Yes" He answered politely.

Even if we weren't friends, does she really thinks that he would answer honestly?

"Well, tell me something more about yourself dear" She smiled and grinned like crazy, almost sounding like some psychopath which made me frown.

Does she like him or something?

"I'm in a couple of Matthew his classes and I'm also on the rugby team, but as you know Matthew quit which is too bad cause your son's really good. Besides that I'm just a normal 18 year old guy who's sleep deprived and basically being drowned with work and school work" I heard him answer.

My eyes fell on Justin and within that moment I didn't know what was happening to me. His fierce, bright forest green eyes made me forget about reality. His green eyes reminded me of something, something I've been thinking about earlier. I couldn't quite pinpoint what. They seemed to shine with safety and that was all I needed right now.

I only saw him.

His hair fell nonchalant over his face since he didn't do his hair today which I thought was incredibly cute, because he always had his hair done. A small smile was lingering around his lips and his mouth had been slightly open, god how I wanted to kis-

Shit he's looking at me!

I instantly snapped my head down to look at my food almost causing myself a whiplash, feeling my cheeks heating up and wishing that I could just disappear right now when I heard that fucker grin.

What the fuck was I even thinking?! I had a boyfriend, I love him and nobody else but him.

I could never describe how much I truly missed the dork. The piercing blue eyes that were always engraved into my mind made me feel like drowning in his ocean again. His curly brown hair felt so soft and I could play with it all day long. Then you had that laugh and smile which was most adorable thing in the whole entire world.

He lighted up my sad days. I forgot all my regrets, problems and mistakes thanks to him. Hell, it was like I didn't have a bipolar disorder whenever I was with him.

Because he completed me, he was the only one for me. He was the color to my skies. The other half that I needed to be with so I felt whole again.

Now I was just stuck in the darkest tunnel of my life and I couldn't find my way out anymore, because the one light I ever had just vanished into the distance a while ago.

He truly looked like an angel fallen from heaven.
And now, he actually became an angel somewhere up to the sky.

"Matthew honey, are you okay? We asked you something twice already" My mom asked and I heard that same concerned tone of her again which made me feel even more frustrated than I already was.

"Excuse me, I can't do this anymore" After that being said I immediately got up and basically ran like the coward I am, towards my room.

I shut the door behind me and locked it. My back was leaning on the door and I felt myself slip against the door to the floor with my knees pulled up against my chin and my hands covering my face.

My hands were shaking uncontrollably and I tried so hard to breath, but my lungs didn't seem to work. Suddenly I heard someone knocking on the door, expecting my mom yet I was wrong.

"Matt? Hey Matt, please open the door for me.." I heard Justin say from the other side of the door, but I didn't answer him.

"Matz, please? Just open the door for me"

I almost smiled at that stupid nickname the fool made then out of nowhere. I stayed like that for a couple of minutes, hoping he would just go away and leave me alone. After I think twenty minutes, it seemed to be quiet on the other side which made me focus myself on how to calm down.

I could feel my heart pumping like crazy in my chest and I had to keep my mouth open to fill my lungs with air. My eyes started to water, but I kept it in. I never deserved it to cry, it was all my fault.

I killed him. I did that. He's dead because of me. Me..

"Matt, I swear to god if you won't open the door right now I'm going to break this freaking door" I heard Justin again.

Why doesn't he just go away?!

I eventually did what he asked me to, because I knew how stubborn this kid was. I opened the door and not even a second of looking at me, he already enveloped me in this arms while shutting the door.

Almost instantly I felt myself  calm down and threw my arms around him too, burying my head in his neck. I was still shaking and felt like if he'd let go of me I would collapse at an instant, but lucky for me I felt like I could breath again as my heartbeat slowed down.

We stayed like that for an eternity and I wish it could've stayed like that forever. It felt so safe, calm and comfortable. I needed and wanted more. The atmosphere around us was what calmed me down from panicking this time. I liked and missed it. Why was it so familiar?

I tried to shake that thought out of my head and broke out of our embrace yet for some reason he kept his arms around my waist, holding me close to his strong body. I liked how he was slightly taller than me.

His green eyes looked at me and I looked at him, the green orbs are looking so much brighter than before. We were staring at each other just like that. It was like I could see the real Justin for a couple of seconds and it all just felt so good.

Why am I doing this? Why can't I just stop this?

"I'm not going to ask anything or talk to you about it. I know this is already hard for you with Rain, I get it. I've seen you struggle with this before. I don't know what triggered you, but know that you can come to me whenever you feel like that ever again okay? You don't have to do this alone. You're not the only one who lost someone they loved" He said while his arms left my waist to caress my cheeks.

"Man there is something I want to tell you so badly, but it'll only ruin things right now" He sighed and still caressing both of my cheeks, leaving a warm and tingly feeling there.

Tell me all about it.

How would he react if he knew how I just thought about him? How would he react if he knew what I just thought about Justin? What would he think about me if I'd told him that his hands on my cheeks fitted perfectly.

I don't know why I was silent for so long. I couldn't bring out any words and I felt like bursting out in tears at any minute.

"Why.. Why are you doing this?" I whispered and looked at him, completely aware of how dangerously close we were.

He grabbed both of my hands and looked into my eyes, almost looking through my soul with those green soul piercing eyes.

"Because Matthew, I'll be with you from dusk till dawn"