???'s POV

Ever since my dad died, things changed. My mom slipped into depression, hardly able to control SWAT anymore. I haven't left my room since. Not to eat, drink or talk to anyone at all. All I have in here is one bottle of water, myself and a knife.

I tried to help my mom but it was all too much. I just couldn't handle it. I didn't wanna see her that way.

I miss my friends. Especially Grian and the others. I want them here with me. But most of all, I want my dad back.

I could hear my mom in the room next to mine crying. As I heard her crying for my dad, I began to sob too. Things are never gonna be the same without him. I'm scared of what's going to happen. I really am. I'm scared  for my mom's health.

"Silly...?" I heard her day from the other side of the door. "Look, sweetie...I know things have been, and will be, difficult but...please...come out of your room. I'm really worried..."

I sighed and opened the door. My mom saw the cuts on my wrists and hugged me immediately. I heard her crying and tears fell down my cheeks too.

I remembered when Grian told me about him and the guys seeing Gareth and Salex's ghost and I then remembered when I saw them myself after we killed off Yuki.

I wonder if my dad is around...
I wish he is. But I don't want him seeing me this way...