Chan had spent the day driving aimlessly through the city.

Not that it had helped at all, but he was at least partly focused on not causing an accident.

He knew that he had overreacted. Knew that he shouldn't have slapped and yelled at Changbin. But his emotions were simply overcooked.

He felt terrible, but he didn't really know what to do now.

Now he sat on the hood of his car and stared into the stars. It was already quite late and he would have to pick up Jisung from work soon.

And somehow he didn't feel comfortable with the thought of having to tell Jisung everything. He didn't want Jisung to misunderstand the things that had happened and yet it was important that he would talk to him about it and won't keep all this a secret from him.

Sighing, he rubbed his hands over his face.

A look at his watch confirmed that it was already after midnight and it would also take him a while to drive back to Jisung's work.

On the one hand, he was looking forward to being able to hug Jisung again. He urgently needed some closeness and secureness. On the other hand, he wanted to do nice things with Jisung and not have to explain to him that both Changbin and himself had behaved like idiots.

But since he didn't want to leave Jisung waiting again under any circumstances, he had no choice but to set off.

When he finally parked in the employee parking lot, he realizes with relief that he was on time. But since he didn't feel like talking to anyone, or meeting any people in general, he just stayed in the car.

He didn't have to wait long for Jisung to leave the club together with Minho, Hyunjin and Jeongin.

Chan bit his lower lip thoughtfully, but then got out anyway. He didn't want to seem rude.

A big smile appeared on Jisung's lips when he discovered Chan and ran towards him.

Chan felt better immediately and also had to smile. He stretched out his arms to the younger one, who took this as an opportunity and jumped into his arm.

Fortunately, Chan reacted quickly enough and reached for Jisung's butt out of reflex to hold him, which made the other three laugh.

"Hi baby," Chan said quietly, pressing a gentle kiss on Jisung's lips.

"Hi Channie," Jisung murmured and wrapped his arms around the older's neck to have a better grip.

In the meantime, Hyunjin, Minho and Jeongin had arrived at them and watched the two with a grin.

"I'll take you home now!" Chan muttered and pressed his lips again on those of the younger one.

"May I still say goodbye?" Jisung asked, giggling.

When Chan shook his head, Jisung wanted to protest, but then he saw tears in Chan's eyes he just nodded. "Let's go home."

"Byyee Babes see yoouu later," Jisung shouted while Chan carried him to the car.

"Don't go too wild," Hyunjin laughed and then went to the oldest's car with Jeongin and Minho.

Chan gently let Jisung down next to the car and then pulled him in his arms again briefly. Instantly he wrapped his arms around the elder and gently stroked his back.

Chat took a deep breath and noticed how different Jisung smelled after work. Definitely like alcohol, although it didn't seem like he had drunk any himself. Like sweat and surprisingly like cotton candy.

Finally, he detached himself from him and opened the car door so that Jisung could sit in the car.

He took another deep breath, walked around the car and let himself fall into the driver's seat.

But instead of asking what was going on, Jisung simply grabbed his hand and accepted that they drove home in silence.

When they finally arrived home, Chan wordlessly pulled Jisung into the bedroom.

Even before Chan could say anything, Jisung took off his pants and button up and snuggled under the blanket, which made Chan smile again.

"You are so incredibly cute," he whispered, also took off his clothes and cuddled up to Jisung under the blanket.

Without hesitation, Jisung cuddled closer to him.

"Do you want to talk about what's going on?" he asked quietly and gently stroked through Chan's hair.

"Actually not.. because I'm insanely afraid that you could get all this wrong," Chan whispered and pressed Jisung to himself.

"Then explain it to me. I promise not to run away," Jisung muttered and kissed Chan gently before he snuggled up to him again.

Chan took a deep breath and began to tell him everything.

Jisung listened to him in silence, even if it was incredibly difficult for him.

He understood why Chan had acted like this, but somehow he also felt sorry for Changbin. And on the other hand, his fears had come true and that felt quite terrible.

Which was why he now also understood why Chan had hesitated to tell him everything. And yet he was incredibly grateful about it, because it showed once again that Chan was serious with what he had said.

"Thank you... Thank you for telling me..." he murmured and pressed a gentle kiss on Chan's lips.

"Aren't you... aren't you angry at all...?" Chan asked confusedly.

"I am... but not really on you, even if I think you shouldn't have slapped Binnie. Although I would probably have reacted similarly in your place..." Jisung said quietly and took a deep breath.

Chan nodded thoughtfully.

"I will go to work tomorrow and ask that they either grant us a vacation or sent us into a hiatus... I can't continue working right now..." he finally murmured and closed his eyes with a sigh.

"We could go somewhere else together as long as you are free," Jisung said jokingly, which led to Chan immediately opening his eyes again and staring at him.

"I could show you Australia," Chan whispered and a soft smile appeared on his lips.

Jisung's eyes began to light up before he thought about it further and his facial expression darkened. "That would certainly be wonderful, but I can't afford that anyway..." he murmured.

Chan nodded and sighed.

"Maybe we should sleep a little," Chan said quietly, slid down a bit and closed his eyes.

Sighing, Jisung turned off the light and then snuggled up to Chan. "I'm sorry... I love you..." he murmured.

Chan pulled him to himself. "I'm sorry baby. I bring so much chaos and pain into your life..." Chan whispered and sounded damn unhappy.

"Okay, we'll both stop apologizing now! And that's absolute nonsense! You were the first in like forever to be incredibly friendly and generous to me! And maybe you bring a bit of chaos into my life, but also a lot of love!"

"Fuck, why are you so cute? I love you too... Very much!" Chan murmured.

Jisung lovingly let his fingers run through Chan's hair. "Somehow I have to give you something back. You take such good care of me and I can't give you anything back... you know like take you on dates or buy you presents" Jisung murmured with a pout on his lips.

"Baby, you don't have to give me anything back! I love you! I am currently in the position that I can support you, but that can also change and maybe you won't need that anymore at some point. And I like to be there for you and I don't want anything for it!" said Chan lovingly, pulled Jisung to him and kissed him gently.

Jisung was silent for quite a while.

"You are the best thing that could ever have happened to me," he finally whispered and laid his head on Chan's chest.

"Baby, you are the best thing that happened to me! I finally feel like I've arrived and no longer have the feeling of being alone and having to look for something," Chan said quietly and gently caressed Jisung's back.

What led Jisung to take a deep breath. "I think I can sleep better now," he yawned and pressed his lips on Chan's naked shoulder.

"Then sleep baby! I'll take care of you," Chan whispered.

And although Chan had the feeling of not getting any sleep this night because of everything that had happened, he finally fell asleep enveloped by Jisung's warmth.

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