Chan had tried to use the way from Felix and Hyunjin's apartment back to the studio to cool down.

He didn't know in the slightest how to react. Didn't know what to think of the whole thing.

And actually he wanted to try to talk to Changbin and ask him why he did all of this, but in his head he just increased himself further into the whole thing.

And somehow he had the feeling that everything now made sense. That Changbin had acted strange since Jisung had entered his life.

He was jealous. Had tried to push Jisung away. Had tried to push himself between them and if Chan hadn't done everything to clarify the situation with Jisung, Changbin might even have been successful.

When he parked in the label's underground car park, he was about to explode with anger.

He wanted  had to punch Changbin and yell at him. And preferably to throw him out of the label directly, if that had been in his power.

Angrily , he stomped to his studio and tore open the door.

Changbin was sitting at the desk and seemed to be working on something, but Chan didn't care.

Surprised, Changbin looked up and smiled at him uncertainly. "Hey Channie. Is everything okay again?"

Stunned, Chan stared at him and didn't know what to say for a moment. He took a deep breath and walked towards Changbin.

"Why did you watch me shower?"

Instantly, Changbin blushed bright red and stood up hesitantly. He wanted nothing more than to apologize to Chan and be taken in his arms.

And yet he did something completely different than he finally stood in front of Chan.

Without really thinking about what he was doing, he jerked the older to himself and pressed his lips almost roughly on his.

Chan reacted at lightning speed.

He grabbed him by the collar, tore him away from himself and slapped him right across the face. "WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?!"

Shocked, Changbin stared at the older. Tears gathered in his eyes and the red imprint of Chan's hand was very clearly visible on his cheek.

"I-I... thought y-you have...," he sobbed and pressed his hand against his aching cheek, unable to say what he had hoped for.

"I don't know what's wrong with you, BUT I DIDN'T GIVE YOU ANY SIGNAL IN THAT IT WOULD BE OKAY FOR YOU TO KISS ME!"

Sobbing, Changbin shrunk with every word the Chan screamed a little more into himself.

"You can't be fucking serious! I CANT BELIEVE that you're so damn jealous that you WANTED TO PUSH JISUNG OUT OF MY LIFE WHEN I'M FINALLY HAPPY. HOW DISGUSTING AND SELF-SELICT ARE YOU?!," Chan screamed and pushed Changbin away from him.

"I... Channie... You get it wrong," he sobbed and stretched out his hand to Chan, but he only slapped it away.

Chan laughed bitterly and looked at Changbin derogatorily from top to bottom. "I understand very well. And I'm not yours! DEAL WITH IT YOU STUPID IDIOT," Chan hissed, grabbed his laptop, stomped out of the studio and slammed the door behind him.

Changbin collapsed sobbing.

He felt as if Chan had torn his heart out of his chest and crushed it.

His tears ran inexorably down his face, his hands trembled and he felt his heart racing.

He had destroyed everything. He had destroyed everything that was important to him. Actually everything that made up his life at all.

Chan would never forgive him, neither would Jisung.

And if Chan put it on it, he would certainly also be able to make sure that he was kicked out of the label.

Pure panic and despair spread in him.

His life was in pieces in front of him and he couldn't do anything to change that. Chan had no reason to listen to him at all. Somehow he had put everything together on his own. Or at least most of it.

Why should he listen to him if he was already convinced that he had tried to destroy the relationship between him and Jisung.

Sobbing, he crouched up for a moment, but so he couldn't possibly stay here like that. There were too many people here who shouldn't see him like that at all.

He laboriously suppressed his sobs, saved what he had been working on and then left the studio with his hood pulled deep into his face.

Somehow he managed to drive home, even if he wasn't quite sure how he had managed to do it afterwards.

Even before he could unlock the front door, the tears ran down his face again and he only managed strained to suppress his sobs.

When he finally managed to unlock the door, he went straight into his room and let himself fall on his bed sobbing.

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