- Liv'? Are you listening to me?

Jenna shakes my shoulders. That's when I realized that I was still asleep on my desk. My best friend lets out a sigh by gently shing her head.

- You work too much, she accuses me.

Before I can answer, she puts my computer and my papers in my bag and declares:

- You know what? Go to bed. I can't stand to see you exhausted like that. I'll come back later.

- Thank you Jen', but I have to finish this document before tomorrow.

I take back my bag and take out my papers. But Jenna doesn't let go and I find myself in my room two seconds later. I collapse on my bed in a loud noise. A slam of the door tells me that Jenna is gone.

My eyelids are heavy but yet, I only dream of working. In the last two days, I have drowned in work to forget my boyfriend - or rather my ex now. Charles left, without any sign. My number is blocked. Yet, even though the relationship had only lasted eight months, I felt bad. But, I'm used to it so I didn't cry. When I arrived in Lyon, I was confident and motivated to start a new life. I quickly got a boyfriend. He left me, just like the second and the third. Charles was the one I was most attached to. I had to resolve myself to reality: I'm better alone.

Yet this time, I'm at the bottom of the hole.

Fortunately, I still have my job. The only positive thing in my life with my best friend obviously and now, my family, which is kept in Montpellier, which is why I come back. I studied psychology in Lyon for five years and I just moved to Montpellier to work in a firm. I have been preparing since the beginning of the big holidays, that is to say two weeks.

I have a month and a half left, but I think I'm more than ready for when the office opens. Remains to be bored for six weeks. Awesome. Jenna will be with me, which makes me happy even if it is too hot to go out and although in 6 weeks, she is leaving with her boyfriend to live in Dubai for his work. At the moment, the only company I have is my book. That's also positive. A book is an escape in a parallel world where love exists, as well as happiness and hope. In real life, it's very different.

Here is my opinion of the existence here!

Hooray!

In reality, no, even though my life is not so bad. I had four friends who all left me, my best friend leaves at the end of the holidays to live with her boyfriend, which is why I would not see her much anymore, my sister lives the great love and makes fun of my "outdated" job in a firm "too boring to stay there all day", I am too tired to go out and entertain myself and I will never dare to go out alone. In short, in fact my life is not great at the moment. But I tell myself that it's a phase, and it's getting better. I receive a message from Jen' asking me if I'm better and able to have fun. I answer no but she must think it's ironic because the doorbell cuts me off from my thoughts. I'm pretty sure it's Jenna. She can't stand to see me alone. Maybe if she has pity on me fate will be too... I make a superhuman effort to reach the front door and open it to my friend. She looks at me with a glow that I know well, the one that warns me that she is going to do anything. My thoughts are confirmed when she launches:

- Liv', get ready, tonight we're having the fiesta!

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- Oh no pity, Jen', I groan, taking back my cozy place.

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- You have to have some fun, she continues, I invited law school friends here, they will sleep in the living room.

- Here? I'm not your friends from last time please!

- They were super nice, she is indignant, and then don't tell me you have something planned!

I sigh, defeated. Jenna enters, a satisfied smile on her face. She takes out many cans of beer. His college friends soon arrived. Jenna kisses them and they enter, getting comfortable. I really don't like them, or rather, I really don't know them. I take a can and sit on the couch next to Aïssa, the only one I remember. We are talking about a little moment. She is very talkative. I pretend that someone calls me and sneaks me into my room. I lock the door and open the large bay window. I put on a black coat and go out by importing my can. It is already twenty-two o'clock and yet the city is teeming with people. I walk through the busy streets and watch people pass by. It's fun. Gnawed by hunger, I take a tray of fries at the first food truck I see. After a while, my tray of fries and I sit on a small bench and I sleep on my phone.

Jenna: Where are you? I don't see you!

You: In my room.

Jenna: Open me please.

You: I'm in the bathroom, girl. I can't there!

Obviously, Jenna is not fooled and that's why I tup the screen before she sends me another message. I waste my time on Instagram, TikTok and others. I receive another message from my mother:

Mom: Hello darling, how are you? Lisa is going to eat tomorrow. Do you want to join us? You will meet James! Kisses, mom.

You: Okay, I'll arrive around noon. Kisses <3

I sigh and close my eyes. When will my life stop looking like a boring and emotionless routine?