In this Aaron still has his cat freckles

Tw:slight dog abuse, cutting,

3rd pov

Matt sat on his bed in his dark room the only light in there was the window showing some sunlight "why couldn't I have been there?...why did she have to go?..why couldn't have been me that had died? Just why?...." Matt asked himself he grabbed his knife that had dried up blood on it. While pulling down his sleeve he started to cut

Ugly
Worthless
Stupid
Boring
Price of Shit
Bastard
No one loves you...
No one will care...
Die...
It's your fault she's dead
Useless
Loser
Unlovable
Horrible
Die...
Dumb
Die....
Die...
DIE!!!..

After a bit Matt heard knocking at his door making his dog bark like crazy and loud (I forgot the dogs name sorry please tell me it if you know it) he put away his knife; pulled down his sleeve and got up to answer the door, putting on a fake happy face he opened the door only to be greeted by Alfred dragging Thomas around "hello Matt" he said "mind if we come in" "uh sure I guess" the two men walked, siting on the couch while Matt sat on the floor on his knees"do we really need to come here? We're only waiting time I need to finish watching my show *insert show you like*" Thomas groaned "there's a new episode coming on and I don't want to watch it the next time it comes on" "oh stop your yapping!" Alfred retorted "anyways Matt we've been told that you have been feeling very sad lately after the death of Lexi" Matt looked down to his hands that were on his legs; his hair falling over his eyes making a dark shadow "I-I may have been feeling that way..." Matt said in a sad/mad voice "well cheer up Matt! I Promise tomorrow will be better and I hope to see you in class!" Alfred said "now. Thomas lets go" "wait so I can watch my show now?!" Thomas asked while him and Alfred were walking out Matts door. While closing it, Matt sat down on his couch tired and aggravated; Matts dog coming over, tail wagging side to side, he walked over Matts foot, his stomach hovering over it the dog looked over at his owner and wagged his tail. Matt looked at him disgusted and kicked the dogs stomach hard making the little puppy cry out in pain, right then and there he had realized what he had just done and tried picking up the dog but the dog moved away, shivering, the dog ran over to Matts room and hid under his bed. Matt instantly regretted doing that to his only dog that actually loved him he probably doesn't now...Matt got up from the couch and walked over to his bed, going onto his knees to check under the bed "oh god I'm so sorry I never intended to do that to you...I hope you can forgive me..." Matt said sadly the dog looked at him and scooted a little more back. Matt started to tear up but wiped them away before saying "I'm gonna go out and eat alright be safe.." Matt got up, put on his shoes and leaving. Matt walked outside his dorm and put on the best fake smile he could he walked downstairs to the hall and passed by Aaron with his cat "ugh.." Matt groaned  "I didn't do anything!" Aaron growled "oh so you didn't sit there while Ryan, Tori and everyone else were fighting?!" "No actually I was fighting and how do you even know?! you were sleeping!" Aaron questioned/retorted while crossing his arms "well either way you didn't do anything about Lexi's death!" "No I didn't because I wasn't there when it happened" "where when what happened?" "Don't ask me!" Freckles hissed while Aaron and Matt started arguing until Matt...

To be continued...

Welp I really hope you enjoyed this chapter and you enjoy this book I'm kinda worried that this will be a very bad book and I'm gonna end up deleting it so yeah.. Hope your day is going good so far and goodbye
-Ivy359