Piper let her head fall back blissfully while Peter's lips explored her neck. Every time his teeth dug into the soft skin he heard soft little moans escaped her, something he hadn't been witness to in such a long time. He had been deprived of her touch, her kisses, just being deprived of her in general for far too long.

Her fingers had found their way to his curly hair, tugging and running through while he worked on her.

His brain was screaming at him to stop, to tell her this was a mistake, only his heart knew it wasn't. His heart knew he needed this, needed her.

Piper Canning had no idea the effect she'd always had on him. He felt like her lips were made to fit his, like they had been two halves of the same soul. He knew, that he was going to break her heart after, when he told her they couldn't be together. He knew she'd hate him and yet he had to force himself away from her.

Feeling their breath tangling while he pulled back.

"Piper" he whispered in a breathless state, watching her eyes shut for a moment before meeting his again, "I can't do this to you" his thumb which was on the side of her face caressed her cheek calmingly, "I can't kiss you just to go back to how we were after" shaking his head, "it's selfish, I can't be selfish with you"

She stared at him, knowing how much it would hurt for him to act like he'd hated her once again after this, her self respect told her to smack him but when it came to Peter, she couldn't. She wanted to stop, she knew future Piper would appreciate it but current Piper wouldn't.

"Selfish?" She repeated that word.

Peter tried to figure out what was going on in that head of hers but he couldn't, he could only probe.

"Yes Piper" shaking his head while his hand fell, knowing this was it for him, knowing how desperate he was, but he couldn't do it to her, "if I continue kissing you now, that would be selfish"

He watched her heart beat speed up, her chest giving it away. Her lips parted while she looked to be in deep thought, going between her head and heart.

"Then do it" his eyes which had fell, waiting for her to move lifted to meet hers again, raising his brow at her words, "be selfish" she confirmed. She was telling him to kiss her. Telling him she wanted this too.

"Are you sure?" He questioned her.

He'd realised after saying that she started to blink a noticeable amount, more than you usually would. Her cheeks had turned a faint pink while she sucked in a breath. Her pupils flared while she shook her head, lifting her delicate looking fingers to cover her lips slightly, touching them while she did.

In a very quick motion he watched her push herself off him and off the bed. Walking toward the bathroom while walking he heard her whisper what sounded like a curse.

He had been so unsure of her because he hadn't wanted her.

This was guilt, he hadn't really wanted to kiss her again, he hadn't wanted to be selfish, hence why he hadn't. At least, that's what she'd thought.

In reality, Peter wanted her to hate him, but he didn't want to hurt her, to give her hope that they'd have a happy ending when they wouldn't. He wanted her to hate him because he was a dick to everyone else around them.

"Piper?" He yelled out, letting his feet touch the floor while he still sat at now the edge of the bed.

She hadn't answered.

She just stood with her palms flat on the unit around the sink, staring downward trying to keep herself together. This whole time she'd thought he still wanted her, still wanted to be together despite his actions and words. She had thought he'd only stayed away because he refused to tell her this secret, but really he just didn't want her anymore. Maybe there was no damned secret, maybe he just didn't have the heart to tell her.

She kept telling herself not to cry, it was no big deal. The man she loved just didn't love her back anymore. That's why he hadn't said it back.

On the other hand she refused to cry because she wasn't being one of those girls who cries over a man's rejection, despite her really wanting to cry over his rejection.

Hearing the sound of movement she quickly turned to slam the door closed, refusing to allow him to witness this, if he really hadn't loved her, nor even cared for her this would be exactly what he'd want to see.

She wanted to smack herself.

This whole time he'd practically told her flat out he didn't want her anymore, and here she was upset that he didn't want her anymore.

"Hey" his voice was smooth and low from the other side of the closed door, "what happened?"

She felt the scoff leave her lips.

What happened? She wanted to repeat, what happened was that you fell out of love with me and had the audacity not to tell me. She opted not to answer.

Hearing him say her name again in hopes of a response that she wouldn't give him. Instead, she had walked over to the shower, turning it on to a medium speed to drown out the sound of his pleas. He couldn't talk his way out of this one like he always did.

Peter, on the opposite side of the door felt his brows furrow. Was she going for a shower?

"Piper?" He spoke her name as though it were a question, "are you going for a shower?" He looked over at the clock, "at 3 am?"

He heard muttering that was too covered by the sound of falling water to work out, until he started to knock the door slightly and heard her curse loudly, "just leave me alone" she sounded angry, not that he understood why, she had just told him to be selfish, to kiss her and now she'd locked herself in a bathroom and was telling him to leave her alone. Well, she hadn't actually locked herself in, "take the hint and go back to sleep"

No, he wanted to say.

She wasn't showering she was drowning him out, she didn't want to speak to him and he wanted to know why.

So, he did what any sane man would, and opened the not locked door to reveal Piper leaning behind the glass sheet covering the shower, trying to turn it off now he'd stopped talking, hearing the door open before she had turned the shower off.

"What the hell?" She practically yelled over the loud running water beside her, "I could've been naked"

Her defence hadn't done much for her which was obvious from the teasing smirk appearing on his stupid smug sexy face. She wanted to push him out and sit under the water so she didn't feel herself cry, but she was stronger than that, so, she'd push him out and sit under the running water, without crying.

"You expect me to believe you're showering at three in the morning?" He took in her little pj's smiling as he did, "in your little jammies?"

Only when he looked back up his eyes focused on the way her nipples hardened, he hadn't known if she was cold, or perhaps due to the steam of the shower water but he was hopefully it was because of him, because she wanted him.

He still had only a pair of shorts on, the shorts he'd sleep in that fell to about mid thigh.

Bare chested, staring at her.

"It's non of your business" she protested, going to take a step forward and out of the shower, after noticing the water was splashing up from the wet room floor and soaking her feet, considering the water was streaming down to her right. Only, Peter had gotten there first, taking a step forward and leaning his hand on the glass above them, the glass frame for the open shower door, "you and your mixed signals can get out of here"

"Me and my mixed signals?" He repeated laughing.

"Yes!" She seethed, placing her hands on her hips, her hips which he desperately wanted to grab, "don't blame selfishness for you not wanting to kiss me" this time his smirk fell.

He let out a laugh which ended with a huff of air.

"You think I didn't want to kiss you?" He had to confirm the sheer stupidity of what she'd said.

Piper nodded, placing her hand on his chest to push him backward, he wouldn't budge, she could only feel the muscle of his chest and nothing more.

"Answer me" his voice was now demanding.

"I don't think you didn't want to Peter" she had shaken her head and scorned, "you made it pretty fucking clear" looking down as if she'd stopped herself from continuing, he watched while she battled with herself, before looking back at him, "I just wish you had the balls to say it, instead of blaming me, saying that you can't do this to me, bullshit, just own it"

Piper had turned away from him, reaching an arm out in an attempt not to soak her whole body while trying to turn the water off again, the water that sprinkled through the very large square shower head. Only she hadn't gotten very far before Peter's hand came out, clutching at her wrist and pulling her back to look at him while he used his other hand to close the glass door of the shower.

"How have I made it clear?"

"What are you doing, your going to get us both soaked!" She turned her head to look at the water which had now starting splashing up her legs.

"How have I made it clear?" His question was repeated while he stared down into her eyes.

His stare was taunting, he was baiting her, thinking she couldn't answer him, only she could and she would if that's what it took to stop this. To make him admit his feelings had gone.

"You want reasons?" He nodded at that, "I'll give you reasons" lifting her hand she stuck her thumb out touching it with the pointer finger of her other hand to start counting, "you've pushed me away since we left Dauntless" another finger, "you've told me in every possible way you can that you don't want me anymore" another finger, "you can hardly look at me never mind touch me" a fourth finger, "I tell you I love you and you say nothing" that one hurt to admit, finally her pinky, "you tell me you can't kiss me because it's selfish, the only selfish thing about it is that you don't want me anymore but you'd rather blame me than just say it!" She sucked in a deep breath after speaking as if she'd been holding her breath the whole time.

Peter just stared down at her, his jaw set and his hand still around the wrist of the hand she used to point at her other fingers.

Silence had swallowed them, the only sound beside the water was her breathing aloud.

"Well?" She pushed for some sort of response.

Peter shook her head, running his tongue over his teeth, "I thought you were smarter than that" he scoffed looking down at a very irate Piper, she had shaken her head. How dare he push her away then tell her he thought she was smarter than thinking her didn't want her, when all he'd shown was that he didn't want her. Lifting her other hand to swing and smack him his other hand catching her other wrist mid air.

Pulling herself backwards and soaking her back in the process had her let out a gasp while the hot water soaked through the back of the vest top she wore.

He kept a hold of her wrist pulling her into him while he stepped forward at the same time, her arms flush against his bare torso and chest while he started down at her, she stopped trying to pull away, waiting for him to back down.

And he did, or at least momentarily she'd thought so.

He'd dropped her wrists only to reach for her face, pulling her up on her top toes to reach him while planting his lips on hers, soaking them both while doing so, a quick kiss before pulling away to speak lowly, "I do love to prove you wrong" watching while water droplets rolled over her lips, "and I'm going to adore kissing you to do so"

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Sorry for the long wait for this chapter! But here she is.
I had a look back at the first book and all the comments on it and this book and I need to thank you all again for the volume of love I've received, not to mention the laugh I've had over some of the comments on the first book of this series. The Ron Weasley and Stiles comments cracked me up!

Anywayyyy This book will get more exciting soon but I am well aware I left you lot hanging during the last book smut wise soooo I can absolutely confirm the next chapter will follow on directly after this one's finished ;)
Thanks again!