Logan’s POV

I am sitting by Brielle's bed watching how she looks so peaceful and beautiful at the same time. Today will make it the 4th day she’s been in comma and I feel devastated for how bad I have been treating her since first grade.

I am alone for now, her sister went home to change and will be back soon, so I take my time to keep talking to her hoping she hears me.

“Hey sassy pants” I chuckled to myself because I know how she hates me calling her that, then I continued “I can’t wait for you to open your eyes again, because I want to spend the rest of my life apologising for all the wrongs and embarrassment I have caused you, please we need you to be awake.” A tear slipped from my eyes as I kept talking.

“Logan." I heard a voice calling out to me in my sleep.

I stir and open my eyes and I realized I slept of beside Brielle while holding her hand.

I immediately stood up and wiped the last trace of tears from my face. It was Diana, she’s back “I am sorry you met me like this, welcome back." I said to her.

“Oh no. It’s okay dear, we really appreciate your effort being her everyday.” She said with trace of sadness in her voice and she started crying “I don’t know how to break the news to her when she’s awake... too much bad news.”

I felt really bad for all what she and her family are going through, so I hugged her because that is the least I could do to make her feel better.

She broke away from the hug and wiped away her tears. “I am sorry you have to see me like this." she said still wiping away her tears

“it’s okay Diana. I have to go now please take care and be strong for her okay. She will need that from you when she’s awake, see you later." I said to her and I left.

On my way back home I stopped at a stationary store. I parked my car and went in, I picked the mini basket and went around to look for what I came here for. I picked out a new sketch pad, canva, pencils and some colours along with other essential stuff used for drawing and painting.

I went to the cashier and cash out then I head home. I intend to give this to her as a little present hopefully when she’s awake.

I have issues I might be struggling with but then life has shown me now how to be grateful, I never have any hope of fighting for something I want badly, but now with Brielle with this incident that happen to her and her family gave me a wakeup call to become a better person.

Lord all I need right now is for her to open her eyes and I will make sure I spend the rest of my life making it up to her for all the mistakes and heartaches I caused her. I wish I can wipe that bad memory from her brain. Now I feel more like a damn looser,I sigh.

I finally got home. Lucas isn’t around but Mom is, I went and dropped the items I brought in my room and came down to meet her in the kitchen.

“Hey Mom." I was standing by the door frame watching her do her thing.

She immediately turned and looked at me looking happy that I finally acknowledged her presence but then sad because she knows what I am going  through.

“Hey Logan, welcome back, I prepared dinner already.” she said slowly while watching her words because she doesn’t want to upset me and lately I have been snapping at her, though she’s more closer to Lucas.

I stride towards her and hugged her. She was tensed at first because she didn’t expect it but then she relaxed and hugged me back. I buried my head in her neck and cried for what felt like ages and she continues to soothe me till I felt better, I raised my my head and wiped away my tears

“Come let’s sit Mom, I think we have alot to talk about." We both head to the living room and sat together.

Gosh! I groaned because I wasn’t ready for this, I was never ready “Hey Mom." I said still holding her hands and looking at her

“I don’t know where to start from but I am sorry for all my bad behaviours and how any chance I get I hurt you in return... it’s just that I have this stuck in my head that you where the cause why Dad left us. Your divorce was hard on me, but then life is never promised to anyone I might die or you might so before our time runs out, I want to make amends and enjoy making you smile" I said with tears sliding down my cheeks.

She cupped my face and wiped away my tears with her thumb “Oh my sweet child. I never picked sides between you and Lucas, you both are my child and I am so proud to have you both, I am sorry my career doesn’t allow me to be home often and regarding me and your Dad, I never told you guys the truth to our separation because it will break you more and I knew how close you where with him and the last thing I want for you is to hate him.” She paused to catch her breath but before she continues I told her

“Look Mom don’t bother about your career, I never said this because of my ego-" I flashed her a grin “But I don’t mind because you are a hero, you practically save lives so I am sure proud of you Mummy.” I finally let all out of my chest.

She smiled “Thank you my boy.”

“But what did Dad do?" I asked her, she tensed but then she said.

“He was abusive and I endured all the pain because I was blindly inlove with him. But then when I found out about him cheating, that was it, it broke me so bad. Some of my friends tried bringing my attention of him been abusive but I ignored it, I later got to realise it too late. After I found out about him cheating on me he beat me up and I had a miscarriage then. So yeah that was the last straw I had to walk away from a toxic marriage. And since then Logan I felt free and happy" she said while crying silently.

I felt numb, I couldn’t even say anything so I just hugged her and wiped her tears now I am so angry. We stayed like that for what felt like ages and it felt good.

“Now let’s forget the past Logan and smile for a better future. let’s go and eat food is getting cold." She half smiled and drag my cheeks “Hey Mom you don’t have to do that.” I hold my cheeks and we where both laughing.

I followed her to the kitchen, I really felt light doing this I am glad. This was my best dinner so far it’s been long.
I was helping her clear the dishes we used when Lucas came in but I pretend as if he wasn’t here.

I am still mad at him. “Lucas and Logan what’s up with the both of you." she said hands on akimbo while Lucas was dishing his meal.

I shrugged and finished what I was doing and turn to head to my room but before leaving the kitchen I said to Mom, “Why not ask Lucas how a big asshole he has become lately." I kissed her on her forehead

“Goodnight Mom.”

I literally shoved Lucas while I was walking out just to feel better. I grinned evily.

I heard Lucas tell Mom just before I head upstairs “Wow when did this start, you and Logan..” the rest of the words fade and I smiled.

I got to my room, took of my off my clothes and head to the bathroom. When I got out I just wore shorts and sat on my bed. But before I slept I took out my black journal and pen to pen something thoughts down.

I usually write stuff when I am moody, angry and emotional, no one knows I write poems just my Mom.


They say time heals all wounds
I say time won’t erase the pain
Tattooed in our hearts.
So it looks like the end.

They say time heals all wounds
I say what do you do when
Not allowed to live your many dreams
To give your grief a voice.

Then we wait patientl as time sings us
Her ticktock lullaby
I say time won’t earse the pain
That is etched in throughout the soul.


I put a full stop and closed the book and silently prayed for Brielle’s recovery, I dropped the book beside my besides drawer and switched off  the lamp and went to bed immediately because I am exhausted.

I woke up to the sound of a text notification on my phone, yeah I am a light sleeper. I groaned because I wasn’t ready to open my eyes yet so it took me another 10 minutes before I finally opened my eyes, I got my phone to check the message.
My eyes flew open immediately when I saw the text

Diana: She’s awake.

And that got me dressing up immediately, I didn’t bother to bathe I just washed my face and my mouth and rush out of the house in a speed, I bumped into Mum while going out

“Hey Logan what’s wrong?" she asked

“She’s awake Mom." that’s all I said and drove off to the hospital.