The songs for this chapter are:

Tomorrow- Chris Young

The one that got away- The civil wars

MGMT- Jayme Dee (my goal is to try to convince her to cover "All too Well" by Taylor Swift because that song is amazing and so is Jayme so I really want that to happen! )

Tessa's POV.

"I think I turned the wrong way, it is highway four east or west?" I hear Zed's voice. He must be on the phone with my mother again.

"Okay, I'm going the right way then, we should be there in an hour and a half." He says, "yeah, I think she's passed out but she's okay."

I wait until he's silent long enough that I know that the phone call has ended before I try to speak, "Is she mad?" I slur.

"No, she's just worried. Are you okay?" I think his hand is on my leg.

"Mhmm." I can't open  my eyes.

"Hardin keeps calling your phone."

"No," I groan.

"I'm driving as fast as I can, just try to sleep if you can." He instructs. I wish I could.

Hardin's POV.

My heart is pounding out of my chest the entire drive. Why the fuck did I get an apartment so far from the campus? This is hands down the longest twenty mile drive of my life. Steph fucking slipped something to Tessa, what the fuck is wrong with her? And Dan, fucking Dan is a dead man if he lays one god damn finger on her.

I run every single red light and ignore the flashing light signaling that I will be getting at least four red light tickets in the mail.

It's Tessa.. Molly's voice plays over and over until I finally reach my old frat house. I don't bother turning off my car, my car is the least of my concerns right now. Crowds of drunken idiots litter the living room and hallways as I push my way through the rooms in search for Tessa.

"Where is she?" My hands wrap around Nate's collar the moment I see him and I slam him into the wall without thought.

"I don't know! I haven't seen her!" He shouts and I loosen my grip.

"Where the fuck is Steph?"

"She's in the backyard I think, I haven't seen her in a while." I let go of him with a shove and he stumbles forward while glaring at me.

I stalk out to the backyard in a panic, if Tessa is out here in the cold with Steph and Dan.. Steph's red hair is bright in the darkness and I don't hesitate to lift her from the ground by the back of her leather coat.

"What the fuck!" She yells, swatting her arms behind her.

"Where is she?" I growl, keeping my fist full of the leather.

"I don't know, you tell me." She hisses and I turn her around to face me.

"Where the fuck is she?"

"You won't do shit to me,"

"I wouldn't doubt me if I were you, tell me where the fuck Tessa is now!" I scream in her face from only inches away. 

She flinches and her glare falters for a moment before she shakes her head. "I don't know where the hell she is but she's probably passed out by now."

"You're a sick, disgusting, bitch. If I were you, I would leave before I find her. Once I know she's okay there won't be anything stopping me from coming after you." I threaten. For a moment I consider the idea of hurting Steph but I know I couldn't actually do it. I can't imagine Tessa's reaction if I laid a hand on a woman, even Steph.

I turn on my heel and leave Steph outside. I am positive she isn't going to help me and I don't have time to play games with her.

"Where's Dan Heard?" I ask a random blonde girl sitting alone at the bottom of the stairs.

"Him?" She asks, pointing a painted fingernail to the top of the stairs.

I don't respond, I take the stairs two at a time. He isn't aware of my presence until I have him pinned to the ground under me and my hands are around his neck. Deja fucking vu.

"Where the fuck is Tessa?" I tighten my fingers around him.

His face is already turning a nice shade of pink and he makes a pathetic choking sound instead of answering. I grip tighter.

"If you hurt her in any god damn way I will take every last breath from your body," I curse. He kicks his feet and I look up at the guy he was standing with.

"Where is Tessa Young?" I ask him and he raises his hands in surrender.

"I don't.. I don't know her man. I swear!" The pussy yells, backing away as I continue to strangle his friend.

Dan's face has turned from pink to purple. "Are you ready to tell me?" I ask and he nods franctically. "Fucking talk!" I shout.

"She's.. Zed." He chokes, a strained and hallowed cough bursting from him the moment I remove my hands from his neck.

"Zed?" My vision goes black as all my fears are materialized.

"He put you up to this didn't he?"

"No, Zed didn't have anything to do with it." Molly steps out from the hallway. "He didn't, I mean he heard Steph talking about doing something but I don't think he thought she was serious."

"Where is she? Where is Tessa?" I ask for the hundredth time. Each second that I don't see her, each moment that I'm not assured of her safety, takes another blow at my barely standing sanity.

"I don't know, I think she left with Zed."

"What did they do to her? Tell me everything now." I stand to my feet and Dan stays laying on the ground, running his hands over his neck as he tries to catch his breath.

"They didn't do anything, he stopped them before they could."

"He?"

"Zed, I went down and got him and Tristan before anything could happen. Steph was being so fucking crazy, like she was going to have Dan like rape Tessa or something. She says she was only going to make it look that way but I don't know, she was acting like a psycho."

"Rape Tessa?" I choke.

No.

"Did he.. touch her?"

"A little," she admits and looks at the ground.

I look back down at Dan who is sitting up now. My boot collides with his cheek and he is back onto the floor immediately.

"Holy shit! You're going to kill him!" Molly shrieks.

"Like you give a fuck," I snap at her and evaluate just how hard I would have to kick him to indent his skull. Blood trickles down his cheek and out of the corner of his mouth. Good.

"I don't, I don't give a fuck about any of this actually."

"Then why did you call me? I thought you hate her?"

"I do, trust me, she's not my favorite person but I can't sit there and let someone rape her."

"Well.." I almost thank her but I quickly remember what a bitch she is so I just nod and walk away from her to find Tessa.

Why was Zed here in the first place? That motherfucker always seems to show up at the right time. The exact time that makes me look like an even bigger asshole and now once again, he has saved her.

Regardless of my extreme jealousy, I'm so fucking relieved to know she's away from Steph and Dan and their fucking sick plan to hurt her because of me.

This whole ordeal is just another reminder that every single bad thing in Tessa's life stems from me. If I wouldn't have did that shit to Dan's sister this never would have happened. Now Tessa is fucking drugged and she's with Zed. Who knows what the fuck he will try to do with her.

This is it, this is what hell feels like. Knowing that she was in this mess because of me. She could have been raped because of me, just like in my dreams and I wasn't there to stop her, just like I wasn't able to stop it from happening to my mum.

I hate this, I hate myself so fucking much. I ruin everything and anyone that comes in contact with me. I'm poison and she's the slowly eroding seraph, holding onto the last bit of herself that I have not destroyed.

"Hardin!" Logan meets me at the bottom the stairs.

"Do you know where Tessa and Zed are?" The words taste like acid on my tongue.

"They left about fifteen minutes ago, I don't know where they were going though," he responds.

"Was she..was she okay?" I ask him and hold my breath until he responds.

"I don't know, she was out of it."

"Fuck," I tug at my hair and walk to the front door.

"If you hear from Zed before I find them, call me." I command. Logan nods in agreement and I run to my car. Thankfully no one has stolen it, however someone has taken the opportunity to be a dick and pour a beer down my windshield and leave the cup behind on the hood. Fucking assholes.

"Answer the phone, please.. please just answer once." I say into Tessa's voicemail.

I know she probably isn't capable of answering right now but Zed could answer the damn phone for her. The thought of her being so incoherent when I'm not around to make sure she's okay sickens me.

My hands hit against the steering wheel as I peel out onto the street. This is a fucking disaster and Tessa is with Zed out of all people. I don't trust him anymore than I trust Dan or Steph.

That's not entirely true, but I still don't trust him. By the time I get to Zed's apartment I am in tears, literal tears stain and coat my cheeks, reminding me of how big of a fuck up I really am. I let this happen, I let her get fucking drugged, nearly raped, and humiliated. I should have been there, no one would have dared to do that shit if I would have been. She was probably so afraid..

I lift my t-shirt up to wipe my traitorous eyes and park in front of Zed's apartment. His truck isn't in the lot.. where the fuck is he? Where is she?

I try to call Tessa, then Zed, then Tessa again, but he doesn't pick up either lines. If he does something to her while she's passed out I will do much worse to him than he could ever imagine.

Where else would she go?

To Landon?

"Hardin?" Landon's sleepy voice comes through the phone and I press the speaker phone button.

"Is Tessa there?"

"No..is she supposed to be?" He yawns.

"No, I can't find her."

"Are you.." he stops himself. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah.. no. I'm not. I can't find Tessa and I don't know where else to look."

"Does she want to be found?" He softly questions.

Does she? Probably not but then again she probably can't form a coherent thought at all.

"I'll take your silence as a no. My guess is if she doesn't want to be found she's at the one place that she knows you won't go."

"Her mothers," I groan, mentally punching myself for not thinking of that earlier.

"Are you going there?"

"Yeah," Hell yes I'm going there. Would Zed really drive her two hours to take her to her mum's?

"Do you know how to get there?"

"Not exactly but I can go by the apartment and get the address."

"I think I have something here with it, she left some transfer paperwork here a while ago."

"Thanks," I wait impatiently and turn my car around in the nearest empty parking lot.

"Is she going to be mad at me for helping you?" He asks moments later.

"Probably but this is important. Steph, you know the red head? She drugged Tessa."

"Wait, what?" Landon gasps.

"Yeah, it's a fucked up situation and I wasn't there to help her so she's with Zed,"

"Is she okay?" He panics.

"I don't have a fucking clue." I wipe my nose on my shirt and Landon gives me directions to Tessa's childhood home.

Her mum is going to lose her shit when I show up, especially given the situation, but I don't give a shit. I don't have a clue as to what the hell I'm going to do when I arrive but I have to see her and make sure she's okay.

...

Tessa's POV.

"What happened? Tell me the entire story!" My mother's voice is panicked as Zed lifts me out of his truck.

"Her old roommate slipped something in her drink and she wanted me to bring her here," Zed tells her half the truth. I'm grateful.

"Oh my god! Why would she do such a thing to her?"

"I don't know.. Tessa can explain when she wakes up.

I'm awake! I want to scream but I can't. It's an odd feeling, hearing everything that is going around me but I can't participate. I can't move or speak, my mind is foggy and my thoughts are twisted but I'm strangely aware of everything that is happening. That changes every few minutes though, sometimes Zed's voice changes to Hardin's and I swear I hear Hardin's laughter and see his face when I try to open my eyes. I'm going crazy. This drug is making me crazy and I want it to stop.

"Well thank you for bringing her here. This is just dreadful. When will she wake up?" My mother's voice is piercing, my head spins slowly.

"I don't know, I think the effects last twelve hours at most. It's been about three hours."

"How could she be so stupid?" My mother snaps at Zed. He's carrying me still. I think.

"Who Steph?"

"No, Theresa. How could she be that stupid to be around those people."

"it wasn't her fault, it was supposed to be a going away party. She thought the girl was her friend." Zed defends me.

"Friend? Please! Tessa should know better than to try to be friends with that girl, or any of you for that matter."

"No disrespect or anything but you don't know me. I just drove your daughter two hours to bring her here," Zed politely responds.

She sighs and I focus on the sound of her heels clicking on the tile of the kitchen floor. "Just put her on the couch."

"Do you need anything else?" He asks her, the couch is much softer than Zed's arms.

Hardin's arms are soft but hard at the same time, the way his muscles strain under his skin is something I always loved to watch. My thoughts are blurring again. I hate this constant shift back and forth between clarity and confusion.

"No, thank you for bringing her. I was rude a moment ago."

"I'll get her clothes and stuff from my car real quick then I'll be on my way." Zed says to my mother.

"Okay," her high heels click from across the room.

I wait to hear the roar of Zed's truck. It doesn't come, or maybe it did already. I'm confused.

"What the hell are you doing here?" My mother screams.

What is happening?

"Is she okay?" Hardin asks.

Hardin.

He's here.

Unless it's Zed's voice deceiving me again.

"You aren't coming in here!" My mother yells. "Did you not hear me! Don't walk past me like you didn't hear me!"

The screen door slams shut and my mother continues to yell at Hardin. Seconds later I think I feel his hand on my cheek.

(Today is Wattpad's 7th birthday so Happy Birthday Wattpad!!  My internet keeps going in and out so I haven't read back over this, sorry for mistakes etc.)