I try to study when I get back to my room but I can't focus. After staring at my notes for an hour, I decide to go take a shower. The co-ed bathrooms still make me uncomfortable when they are crowded but no one ever messes with me. The hot water feels amazing and loosens up my tense muscles. I should feel relieved and happy that Noah and I have reached some sort of truce but now the anger and annoyance has been replaced by nervousness and confusion. I have agreed to spend time with Noah  tomorrow, doing something "fun" and I am terrified. I just hope it goes well and we can be friends, I don't expect to become best friends with him but I need us to get to a place where we don't scream at each other every time we talk.

When I get back to my room, I find a note from Sab saying Bryce is taking her off campus for dinner. I like Blake's roommate Bryce, he seems really nice despite his over use of eyeliner. If Sab and Bryce continue to see each other then maybe when Nick comes to visit we could all go do something together. Who am I kidding? I know Nick would not want to out with people like Noah and Sab, and I will admit that up until three weeks ago I never would have either.

I end up calling Nick before bed, we haven't talked all day.

"Hey Dixie how was your day?" He asks me as soon as he picks up.

"It was good, long but good" I should tell him that Noah and I are going to hang out tomorrow.

"That's good to hear. I had a soccer game tonight in Seattle, I am just now getting back"

"That's awesome, how did it go?" He tells me how they beat Seattle High by a landslide, even though they are one of the best teams in the state. We talk about his family and before I know it we are getting off the phone. I couldn't find the right time to mention my plans with Niah tomorrow, honestly I didn't try.

The next day goes by far too fast. Markell and I walk into Literature and Noah is already in his seat.

"Are you ready for our date tonight?" Noah asks and my mouth falls open. Markell's does too.

"It's not a date, we are only hanging out as friends" I tell Markell, ignoring Noah. Day one of our quest to become friends is not going well so far.

"Same thing" Noah smirks and I roll my eyes. I avoid him the rest of the class which is easy since he doesn't try to talk to me.

"Be careful tonight" Markell tells me after class.

"I will, we are just trying to be civil since my roommate is his friend"

"I know, you're really a great friend to her. I am just not sure Noah deserves your kindness" he says and I look up at him.

"Don't you have something else to do besides bad mouth me? Get lost" Noah snaps from behind me. Markell frowns and looks at me again.

"Remember what I said" he says and walks away.

"You don't have to be cruel to him, you guys are practically brothers" I say and his eyes go wide.

"What did you just say?" He growls.

"You know, your dad and his mom?" Was Markell lying? Or was I not supposed to mention this. Markell said not to mention Noah's relationship with his dad but I didn't think he meant the whole thing.

"That is none of your business, I don't know why the asshole even told you that. I am going to have to shut him up it seems"

"You leave him alone Noh, he didn't even want to tell me but I got it out of him" I defend him. The idea of Noah hurting Markell makes me sick. I need to change the subject. "So where are we going today?" I ask and he glares at me.

"We aren't going anywhere, this was a bad idea" he snaps, turns on his heels and walks away.

What the hell? He really is bi-polar, I am sure of it. The anger and frustration I feel towards Noah returns and I make my way back to my room. When I open the door I find Griffin, Bryce and Sab inside. I would usually be annoyed with this many unexpected guests but I need the distraction and I really like Griffin and Bryce.

"Hey Dixie! How were your classes today?" She asks and gives me a big smile. I can't help but notice the way Bryce's face lights up when Sab smiles.

"They were okay, you?" I sit my books on my dresser and she tells me about her professor spilling coffee on himself so they got out early.

"You look nice today Dixie" Griffin tells me and I thank him and sit on Sab's bed with the three of them. The bed really is too small for all of us but it works. The door opens a few minutes later and we all turn to see who it is. It's noah. Ugh.

"Geez Noah you could at least knock for once" Sab scolds him and he shrugs. "I could have been naked or something." she says and he laughs. She smiles, obviously not angry at his lack of manners but I am sure she is used to him walking in here all the time.

"It's nothing I haven't seen before" he jokes and Bryce 's face falls while everyone laughs. I can't find the humor either, I hate thinking about Sab and Noah together.

"Oh shut up" she says, still laughing and grabs ahold of Bryce's hand. His smile returns and he moves a little closer to her.

"What are you guys up to?" Noah asks and sits on my bed. I want to tell him to get off but I keep quiet. I thought for a second he had come here to apologize but now I know he just came to hang out with his friends and I am not one of them.

"We were actually going to go to the movies, Dixie you should come" Griffin smiles. Before I can answer Noah interrupts.

"Actually Dixie and I have plans" he says, there is a strange edge behind his voice. He is so moody.

"What?" Griffin and Sab say in unison.

"Yea, we have plans. I was just coming to get her" Noah smiles and stands up. "You ready or what?" My mind screams 'No!' but I nod.

"Well we will see you all later" Noah announces and practically pushes me out of the door. He leads me to his car and surprising me, he opens the passenger door. I stand still with my arms crossed.

"I will remember not to ever open a door for you again" he snaps and I shake my head.

"What the hell was that? I know you didn't come here to get me, you just told me that you didn't want to hang out with me" I yell. We are back to yelling at each other. He makes me crazy, literally.

"Yes I did, now get in the car"

"No! If you don't admit that you didn't come here to see me, I will go back in there and go to the movies with Griffin" I tell him and he clenches his jaw. I knew it. I don't know how to feel about this revelation but somehow I knew Noah didn't want me to go to the movies with Griffin and that is the only reason he is trying to hang out with me now. "Admit it Noah or I am going"

"Okay, fine. I admit it. Now get in the damned car. I won't ask again" he says and gets in the car. Against my better judgment, I get into the car. Noah still looks angry as he pulls out of the parking lot. He turns the screaming music up way too loud. I reach down and shut it off.

"Don't touch my radio" he snaps.

"If you're going to be a jerk the whole time I don't want to hang out with you" I say and mean it.

"I'm not, just don't touch my radio." My thoughts go back to him tossing my notes into the air and I want to yank his radio out and throw it out the window. If I knew I could, I would.

"Why do you care if I go to the movies with Griffin? Sab and Bryce were going too"

"I just don't think Griffin has the best intentions" he says quietly, his eyes glued to the road.

I begin to laugh and he frowns. "Oh, and you do? At least Griffin  is nice to me" I can't stop laughing. The idea of Noah trying to protect me in some way is hilarious. Griffin is a friend, nothing more. Just like Noah .

Noah rolls his eyes but doesn't give me an answer. He turns the music back on and the screaming music literally hurts my ears.

"Can you please turn it down" I beg.

He turns it down but still leaves it on. "That music is terrible" I tell him and he laughs.

"No it's not, I would love to know your opinion on good music" he smiles. He looks so carefree with his window down, the breeze blowing through his hair. He reaches one hand up and pushes his hair back. I love the way his hair looks when it is pushed back. I shake the thoughts from my head.

"Well I like Bon Iver, and The Fray" I finally answer.

"Of course you do" he chuckles.

"What is wrong with them? They are insanely talented and their music is wonderful" I defend my two favorite bands.

"Yea.. they are talented. I hear their specialty is putting people to sleep" he laughs and I reach across and playfully swat his shoulder.

"Well, I love them" I say with a smile. If we could just stay in this playful state, I might actually have a good time. "Where are we going?"

"We are going to one of my favorite places"

"Which is where?"

"You really have to know everything that is going on don't you?"

"Yea.. I like to.."

"Control everything?" he interrupts and I stay quiet. I know he is right but that's just the way I am. "Well, I am not telling you until we get there.. which will be only about five minutes from now" he tells me and I sit back against the leather seat of his car. What kind of car is this anyway?

"What kind of car is this?" I ask him. I need a distraction from not knowing where we are going.

"Its a Ford Carpi, a classic" he boasts, obviously proud of his car. He goes on to tell me about it even though I have no idea what he is talking about. I like to watch his lips as he talks, the way they move slowly as the words are even slower. "I don't like to be stared at" he says harshly but smiles a little after.

"I .. I was just listening" I lie, my mouth dry.

"We are here" he says and pulls onto a gravel road.

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probably the last update for a while