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[Article 11]

Dear Macy,

I can't seem to stop crying. Whether it be internally or externally, I keep on crying. I hate it. I keep feel like someone is suffocating me and telling me that I suck. I'm ugly, I'm worthless and that I can't do anything about it. I feel like such a damn loser. I want to die and I know you've tried to help everyone that's written to you, but I have the pills right next to me and I'm ready to take them. 

- "a damn loser"

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Dear "a damn loser",

First of all you're not a damn loser. I believe in you and I feel like whatever's suffocating you is something you need to talk about to give yourself a release. Grab a friend or a family member that you trust and just vent and tell them what you feel is pulling you down. 

If you don't release yourself, I feel like you are going to take that pill regardless of what I say in this column. Please don't do anything. I'm not saying that you can ever recover, but just know that you don't suck. There's always hope. No one is ugly, no one is worthless and there is something you can do about it. You can believe in yourself, because if you do then you can get rid of those pills.

Love,

Someone who believes in you 

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Right there on my computer was a video of Amanda, my editor's friend. It was like a scene right out of the movie cyberbully. I watched the video three times. Mainly, because the first time I couldn't comprehend who it was. The second time, I couldn't understand what she was saying. The third time, I finally realized that it was her and what she was saying scared me.

She was going to kill herself. She was the one with the pills right next to her and holy hell, if I didn't do anything quickly then she might be dead.