I originally was planning only 10 Columns but I think the story goes deeper than just 10 Columns and I really wanted to continue to covey that!

anyway this is dedicated to lenity cause she's bae and i love her haha

whoo! let's keep going! (p.s. there actually might be a sequel.... ;)

[Article 10]

Dear Macy,

I've been feeling rather suicidal recently. And everyone has told me to just get over it. Isn't funny how a school that's supposed to treat depression among other things, can't even control and help a suicidal kid? Damn, this school is a piece of shit. You may be asked to edit those words out but I don't really care to be honest. Anyway, back to the point, I know you've answered like 5 billion questions about suicide and how to deal with it, but I think my case is a little different... I am feeling suicidal, like I want to die but I can't bring myself to do it. Is that wrong? Am I really suicidal?

- Am I really?

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Dear "Am I Really?",

I've felt like you've felt before. People constantly calling you an attention whore and stuff, they don't realize it makes you feel even worse about yourself than you already do. Most of them are always suicidal and I never know why they do that to people. Honestly, your right, this school is a piece of shit, which I have mentioned multiple times.

You are whatever you want to be. If you think you're suicidal then you are. If you think you're a doctor, then you are. If you think this, then you are that. Don't let other people's choices or opinions dictate yours.

Love, Macy

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I did it. I actually did it. My editor's friend will keep her life. Is it weird that I feel better?

I'm much more satisfied than I was a minute ago or even 10 years ago. Just knowing that I helped someone. That makes me feel so much better.

I return home and crawl into my bed and turn on my computer, when suddenly I see a video.

I clicked play and the color out of my face drained, this couldn't be happening. Not now, please gosh not right now.