Weight — the issue that every teenage girl i believe would face . It would be a lie if some girl says " i truely love my body shape ."

The truth is , no one is perfect in this world and none of us is really that confident about ourselves , and so , weight is something that constantly haunts our minds throughout our teenage years when we face judgements and comparisons almost anywhere.

We are always self conscious.

We could be underweight, in the healthy range or perhaps in the obese range and yet still feel unsatisfied with how our body proportions , even if we are constantly given words of encouragement and assurance that we are indeed a beauty and pretty just the way you are .

Its just how our fucked up brain works . When we look into the mirror , we would see only ourselves standing there as our eyes would immediately go up to our flaws — it could be your face features , your arms , your stomach or your thighs . We wont even look at perhaps how we might have a defined chin or a really nice pair of eyes and a cute nose .

The criticism that we give ourselves is really uncountable , if you really think back about it, we criticize ourselves daily. I can almost guarantee — we would be conscious about the amount we are eating during lunch or dinner or how a dress would look on our build .

Why are we even doubting ourselves and our bodies when these were blessed from our parents ? Why are we always comparing amongst friends and say whos prettier when the heart is actually what that matters ?

Offcourse — the school bell is always the prettiest . Wouldnt lie that i had never imagined how it would like to be in her position, probably getting tons of confessions and loads of friends that would stick up to you . But does it even matter now when you are just so conscious about your body weight ?

Not gonna lie. Im not skinny at all . Heol , im actually far from skinny and im not even going to bluff yall .

Im just nice — on the dot . 60.9kg . Yes with a digit of 6 , it seems that im really really fat like a whale , but you know , with my height , i dont really look that bad to be honest .

1.62-1.64m fam .

I feel that its how the society had influenced us— these platforms had taught us about what is the definition of "body goals" or perhaps " hot " , "cute " , "pretty" , "sexy" .

We are all categorized.

And i dont like it .

I dont like getting judged when people hear about my weight and how they would throw out a few insults by accident . It hurts , okay ? Even if it was suppose to come out as a joke or something along the line , it still does hurt .

The truth hurts .

I gotta suck it all up and take the criticism in , because i know that they are just speaking of the truth . I cant possibly hate on the truth , can i ?