SO SO SO SORRY FOR THE LATE RESPONSE . I thought i had done up everyone's but i have accidentally left yours out the last time i had updated D:

First of all , damn your 21 and im 15 , i wont lie that i feel alittle intimidated and im pretty sure that my advice prob wouldnt do much for you but I'll try .

Its good to know that you are such a filial Daughter to your family :) I could tell that you are a hardworking individual who puts family first before anything . That is something thats commendable and its really touching to hear about how you are willing to sacrifice your youth for your love ones . Keep pushing yourself and stay motivated to work for a better future for your mother and siblings .

Well , since you have already made a choice to turn down the study offer , i think you should just stick to what you are doing now . Forget about your study offer and take care of your family first . Until your siblings can handle themselves , you can always hop back in to take up classes for adults afterwards if you want to .

you can always ask your mother for help as well , dont feel bad and blame everything on yourselves if times are rough . She will be there to help you out .

However , you can also work out a plan with her . Maybe you can work on the weekends and study during the weekdays if you desperately want to continue studying ? If you are determined to study , you would have to prepare yourself to work hard and would be more tired than others. Its one way or the other .

You have to ask yourself if you really want to study or not .

As for your friends and your social life , i believe that all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy . Take some time off to rest — life is not just about working . I understand that you have your commitments but i think it wouldnt hurt if you take a few days off , or even a week or two to bring your family overseas for a small bonding session . It could help you to destress and forget about work momentarily.  Go out with friends . Initiate meetups , it could be meeting over lunch or dinner . It can be short but still , you get to catch up with your friends and wont miss much . Besides , im sure that your friends would be supportive and agree to see you anytime despite their busy schedule.

Hang in there for a few more years  !! Your siblings will grow up one day and help you out :D dont give up now !! Stay strong