"Do more. Please."

"I don't think we should." Namjoon all but whispers, his teeth gently pulling at my earlobe. He's saying one thing, but doing the opposite.

"Then why haven't you stopped?"

My body instinctively tries to apply friction to feel something. I tilt my head slightly as he starts kissing on my neck again. His teeth graze my skin, all while soothing the area with his tongue after. I gasp loudly when one of his fingers slips passed the lace material and he starts to rub circles on my clit.

My body is already responding to him, from my legs shaking to my core being so wet. He uses my wetness to help him glide across my clit with ease. I find my voice to moan, body reeling in his touch. I want nothing more than to feel more of him. I'm feeling needy, and somewhat selfish.

"Ky, what are we doing?" He asks against my neck, inserting two fingers into me.

"I don't know, but don't stop."

I throw my head back against his shoulder, a moaning mess as I can already feel myself boiling over. I squeeze my legs as best as I can to alleviate some pressure, but I'm no match for Namjoon. He even opens his legs a little more, restricting my legs even more than they already are. His fingers start moving faster, the sounds of my juices overpowering me. I feel a sensation that I haven't felt in a while. It's my climax approaching, and it's barreling in very quickly. My moans fill every crevice of my bedroom as I'm taken to another world. I let my orgasm overtake me, my vocal cords ringing an octave higher as my body shudders in pure ecstasy.

My chest moves rapidly as I try to regain control over my breathing. My eyes remain shut as I come down from my high, my body feeling light and heavy at the same time. I'm honestly spent at this point. I haven't used that much energy in a while, as sad as that sounds. Whether people know it or not, an orgasm takes a lot out of you, especially when you haven't had a good one in ages.

The lose of contact from Namjoon's fingers makes me gasp softly. He wraps his arms around me, giving me a light squeeze. "How do you feel?"

I hum softly, enjoying the space I'm in right now. He's been asking me that quite often. "Like I needed that."

"I can tell." He chuckles softly. "When's the last time you've actually orgasmed?"

"Personal much?" I smirk.

"I just had my fingers inside of you, Kyla. We're passed that boundary." He laughs.

I laugh with him. "I know, I'm kidding. But it's been a while. I couldn't tell you."

"Leave it up to me and you'll be having them more often."

"And we're done here." I use all my strength to stand and I turn to see him fake pouting. My eyes widen as I stare at him in only his jeans. "Oh no."

"What?" He asks, confused.

"Did you want me to..." I trail off, wanting him to get the hint so I don't have to say it.

I'm pleased when he does and shakes his head. "Oh, no. No don't worry about it."

"Isn't it going to bother you?"

"What, that I didn't get off? Not at all. I want you to loosen up and feel good about being intimate with me."

"You're sure?"

"I'm positive. I promise." He stands and smiles.

I look up at him, smiling back. His hand comes up to cup my cheek and I melt into his touch. All too suddenly, his lips are on mine. I'm so shocked that I don't react. He pulls away after not receiving my reaction and his cheeks begin to turn a bright shade of  red.

"Oh, I'm sorry." He clears his throat. "I just, um-"

I cut him off this time by smashing my lips onto his. I stand on my tip toes and hold onto his shoulders to balance myself. His arms wrap around me as his lips slowly move in sync with mine. He smiles into the kiss, and it sends a frenzy of butterflies to my stomach. He's enjoying this just as much as I am.

We slowly disconnect from each other, Namjoon looking down at me through hooded eyes. His lips curl slightly, a dimple making an appearance. "How's that for a first kiss?"

"Not bad." I nod, matching his soft smile. "Not bad at all."

"Do you feel more comfortable with being a bit more intimate with me now?"

"If anything, I may feel too comfortable." I admit.

"Well," Namjoon trails. "there's still sex."

I swallow the lump growing in my throat. How could I forget about that? "Oh."

He laughs, kissing my cheek. "It's okay. We don't have to ever have sex if you don't want. I know it could possibly get awkward but let's see where time takes us."

"Okay."

"I gotta head out, but I'll text you the JustUs info so you can look at comments, if you want."

"Sounds good." I watch as he puts his shirt back on and grabs his phone to leave. "Oh, don't forget to grab your sub, too."

"I won't."

We wave our goodbyes and I let out a big breath that was aiming for a release when I hear the faint sound of my apartment door close. I blow raspberries as I fall out on my bed, my back firm against the comforter. That whole sequence of events was so interesting. I have never thought about being intimate with Namjoon before. We've never had any reason to be intimate. It's a strange feeling, and now I'm left with lots of thoughts and feelings in my mind.

I grab my phone, seeing that he's texted me the information for JustUs. I'll look at them in a moment, but I open my diary app on my phone to vent. I journal once a week consistently, but with everything that happened only moments ago, today is an emergency diary day.

Once I've gotten my thoughts out, I save my entry and close the app. Now my attention is on JustUs. I had downloaded the app a few days ago and now I'm opening it. I add in all the information he sent and watch as it loads, granting me access to the account. Almost instantly, my phone dings with a new comment on the pictures. I take a deep breath before going to the post and looking at the comments.

As I read them, my mouth slowly turns up in a smile. There are so many kind words of excitement and appreciation from seeing a plus size girl. I frown when I see a few negative comments, but I push them away after seeing that the positive ones outshine the negatives. I scroll just a bit longer, seeing some of the new comments that come in and feeling satisfied with most of what I've read today.

I exit the app, shooting Namjoon a quick text.

Me:
Um, so what's next?

I don't have time to lock my phone when he calls me. I roll my eyes as I answer. "You could've just texted back, you know."

"Meh, I prefer vocal context better. I can hear your emotions."

"Weirdo." I smirk. "Anyway, I just read the comments."

"Alright. How do you feel after?"

"Surprisingly, wanting to make more content."

"Okay." He says, trailing off. "I have a question."

"I have an answer."

"I honestly hope you do." He chuckles. "But I was thinking about the content we could make."

"And what have you concluded?" It's silent for a second and I think we're disconnected. "Hello?"

"I'm here." He comes back. "Um, do you wanna maybe, make videos?"

I frown. "What kind of videos?"

"Like, legit adult videos."

"You want to create fucking porn?" My nose scrunches as I say it.

"Don't think of it as porn!" He says, trying to reel me back in. "Think of it as adult movies."

"That's still porn."

"But with a fancier name."

"You're so annoying." I huff.

"Just think about it." Namjoon insists. "We're already halfway there, and this would bring us so much money."

"If we are to do this," I begin, not turning down the idea. "I want this friendship to stay in tact. And I mean that shit."

"Of course. Nothing will happen to us."

I take a brief pause, not wanting to agree but not really wanting to disagree either. "Give me time to think."

"That's all I'm asking. You're the best, Ky."

"Yeah, yeah." I end the call before he can say something stupid, and I get a text message right after.

Joon:
So rude 😭

Me:
Meh 🤷🏾‍♀

Joon:
Just know that you looked so incredibly sexy today & I can't wait to see you like that again

My stomach flips and turns as I read the text, covering my body even though no one is here. What the hell am I going to do about him? What the hell am I going to do about this situation? Am I really going to agree to this? Are we really going to make adult movies?

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Hello!!!! Here's another chapter! It was supposed to come out earlier in the week, but I've been super busy with my 2 jobs. It's crazy. Anyway, I have a question.

Would you all be interested in extra chapters? Like, chapters with just comments from the content they post? If so, let me know here & the next chapter will be her diary entry & comments from their sexy picture lol.

I really hope you enjoyed! 💕

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