Did I really agree to create adult content with Namjoon? Yes I did. Do I instantly regret it? One hundred percent yes. I can barely wear a regular T-shirt without feeling self conscious, and now I've agreed to basically sell my ass and titties on the internet? I know I said Namjoon was insane, but I'm truly the psychotic one. I can't do this. I know the money thing sounds good, but I doubt I'll contribute that much on his account. He's got the look, the body, and the package, I assume by the amount of money he's making. What more could his subscribers need? I'll just mess up the flow. I'll just try finding a job at a fast food place or something to help me continue to get by.

I look up from my book when Namjoon walks into my bedroom with a ring light stand. He's so serious about this, and still very excited.

"Where can I set it up?" He asks, looking around my bedroom.

"It's your idea. Put it wherever you think it'll look good."

He nods, picking a spot right in front of my bed. He adjusts the height of it and plugs it in. He sets his phone in the holder that's screwed in the center of the ring, the camera already open on his device. Pressing the power button on the ring light cord, the light shines brightly throughout my bedroom. He nods in satisfaction. "Good."

"Now what?" I ask sitting on my bed with my legs crossed.

"Take your shirt off." He says, pulling his own shirt over his head.

"Fuck off." I cross my arms.

"Kyla, do it."

"I don't want to."

"Then how are we going to do this if you won't participate?" He groans, pulling his pants off as well.

I swallow hard as I look at him in only his boxers. Namjoon is sexy, I will never deny that. It just amazes me, though, how he can just strip down like it's nothing in front of me. I don't even like seeing my own self in my underwear. I would have a conniption if someone else saw me in them.

"Just fuck me with your eyes, why don't you." He laughs and I flip him off. "I have an idea. Sit on the edge of the bed."

I do as he says and he stands with his back toward me. I frown when he takes my wrists and wraps my arms around his waist. "Go with it. Just have your hands lying on my abdomen all sexy."

I try not to make it awkward as I position my hands on him, as sexy as I can. He snaps a few pictures, a couple with one of his hands on mine. He steps away and takes his phone into his hand to examine the pictures. I look at them myself, and I'm shocked that they actually turned out sexy.

"Wow."

"Good, right?" He smiles softly. "Just wait til I add on a vignette filter."

He does just that and it looks so good. I can't believe those are my hands. I watch as he posts it to his JustUs account with the caption "Who have I just found?" with the eyeballs and heart emojis. His phone instantly dings with likes and a couple comments. It's maddening to see people's reactions, all over hands on someone's stomach.

"Do you get this reaction all the time?" I ask as he puts his phone on vibrate.

"Recently, yeah. I'm hoping that by teasing them with you, we get a bigger reaction. I'll make sure that you get paid from the hits we have."

"How do you get paid? Like, how does the subscriber thing work?"

"Um," He starts, thinking of what to say next. "They pay monthly. Some people have already paid for the month. Some subscribers even tip for content they really like. Lots of others pay for the content out right, so they pay for each post. On top of that, some people want special content so they pay even more for custom content."

"Wow." Is all I can say. "That's interesting."

Namjoon scrolls through comments quickly, smirking. "I gotta read some of these to you."

My anxiety instantly kicks in. "Is it bad? My arms & fingers are fat. They probably just like your solo content. Why did I agree to this?"

"Relax." He laughs. "Listen to these. 'Omg, is that melanin I see?', with like ten heart eyes. 'I see Mr. Kim is down with the swirl', with a winky face. 'This is the asian man and black woman content I've been craving. Hope to see more content with her in it'. This one right here is my favorite, it says 'Would you like to make it a throuple? I know whoever the lucky lady is she's a total hottie', with that one hot face emoji."

I'm shocked by the reactions of his subscribers. They actually want to see me? But why? All they've seen are my hands and part of my arms. They'll be disappointed when they see what I really look like.

"I feel like I'm lying to these people."

"Why?" He asks confused, locking his phone.

"They've only seen my upper extremities. I'm just gonna embarrass myself. I still don't know why I agreed to do this."

"Kyla, look at me." I look at my best friend and he gives me a comforting smile. "You can do this. You know you can. If you didn't, then you wouldn't have agreed to do this with me in the first place."

"I don't know."

"Yes you do." He says. "I'm here. You can do this. We'll start off easy and then ease our way into more explicit stuff like nudity. If that makes you more comfortable."

"How are you so comfortable talking about this? Being naked and what not?" I look away shyly as he chuckles.

"I don't know. But you are my best friend. I don't really find it odd or awkward to talk about this stuff with you, especially now. I'm also trying to make you comfortable."

What would I do without Namjoon? I'm still feeling like I shouldn't be doing this, but he makes everything sound so good. He'd be one hell of a salesperson.

"I guess I can stick it out."

"Good."

He scoots closer to me and I look at him with a small scowl. "Dude, why are you so close?"

"If we're going to be doing crazy shit, I need to make sure you're okay with me being so close to you. I will need to touch you, you know?" He chuckles, letting his fingers gently caress my arm. I get goosebumps and swallow, trying not to seem awkward. "We gotta get the goosebumps on camera one day. That'll be a candid shot."

"I, um-"

"Try something with me."

"Isn't that what I've been doing for the past two days?" I reply humorously. 

I examine is features and for the first time today, he's displaying nervousness. It's kind of endearing, in a way. "Feel free to say no, but I think this will help."

"Okay?" I question warily. He uses one of his hands to cup my cheek and my chest begins heave slowly. "Namjoon,"

"Close your eyes."

"Joon, isn't this going a little far?"

"Not really, when we could be doing more."

"I don't know about this." I say, chest still going at an unsteady pace.

"Just have a little faith. Do you trust me?" He asks me, looking me right in my eyes.

"I do, but-"

"Then just go with it, Ky. Close your eyes, please."

I sigh, but I finally close my eyes. All my senses are heightened when I feel Namjoon move in closer to me. I can't see him, but I assume he's going for my lips. I try my hardest to mentally prepare myself for it because we have never kissed before. I'm a bit surprised when he doesn't go for my lips and he's near my ear. I'm even more surprised when his voice is low and seductive as he softly speaks into my ear.

"It's just you and me, Ky. I promise to make you feel so beautiful and so sexy, on and off camera."

I get shivers down my spine from just those two sentences alone. My whole body is affected, though, when this slick bastard bites down ever so gently on my earlobe. He pulls away and I know it looks like I've seen a ghost. The farthest we've gone with intimacy is when I had a cold and he cuddled with me because I continuously got chills. Everything has been strictly platonic between us. This is on a whole different level that makes me feel... Interesting.

"How do you feel?" He asks, innocently.

"Uh." I'm truly speechless. What am I supposed to say? My head is empty. I know this is nothing compared to what can be said, but this is alot for me to handle at this very moment. "It, um."

"We have a lot to work on. I'll be back tomorrow." He says cockily, standing to leave my bedroom.

I feel drained for some reason, not even bothering to stop him and tell him to take his ring light. I feel jumbled as I try to process what he said to me. I promise to make you feel so beautiful and so sexy, on and off camera.

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Hello! Yes, I'm flying thru this damn story but that's okay lol. It'll go even faster the next chapter. This one contains a lot of dialogue so I'm sorry about that, but I feel like it really ties in to what I have planned. Bare with me!

I'm going to bed now. I've worked 14 days straight between 2 jobs, and I really am starting to feel it. Bye!! 💕

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