He looks depressed so ima give this fictional boy a hug *hugs my phone*
⚠️Warning⚠️
Depressive thoughts and actions
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Flashback to the after dream scene

Izukus POV

I sat up and screamed, and looked at my chest. I sighed when I realized there was no blood. I felt tears stream down my cheeks and I heard my door slam open. Dad entered and ran to my bed.

"Are you okay?"

"Y-yeah. B-bad dream." He looked reassured and nodded his head.

"Do you want to talk?"

"N-no. I-I'm f-fine." He nodded and smiled.

"If you want to talk I'm just down the hall. Okay?" I nodded my head and tried to smile but that didn't work to well. He walked off and closed the door and I laid back down.

At least he didn't try to pry at my dream.

I silently cried and looked out the window. It was pitch black outside but my bathroom light dimly lit the room. I felt too weak to stand up and close it, so I just laid back down and closed my eyes again and hoped that I wouldn't awake again from a dream.

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Izukus POV

I opened my eyes and squinted at the sudden brightness of my room. I grabbed my askew crutches off the floor and went to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror I saw my tear streaked face and remember parts of my dream.

'YOU BRAT! DUMB CHILD!'

Even though the whole dream wasn't true her words still haunted me.

'YOUR THE REASON THE LOVE OF MY LIFE IS GONE!'

I wanted to scream, to run, to cry, but I just looked at myself and attempted to calm myself down. It's as if all my depressive feelings have arisen, and come back to haunt me.

I used to cut myself, there are some faint marks on my arms and legs but nobody notices them. Most people only notice my abuse scars.

I remembered some of the times I cut myself and how good it felt.

It's as if the pain goes away and comes to another place. When I feel in control, I love that feeling.

At the moment I was still in a daze, but I closed and locked my bathroom door and grabbed a razor blade from one of the cubbies under the sink.

I rolled up my shirt and cut on my stomach. Somewhere nobody checks. Or will ever check. I dragged the blade along my skin and watched some of the blood flow out. Only a drop came out then it stopped.

D*mn regenerative powers! I want to see the blood!

I cut about ten more times then wiped off the blood. I washed my face and headed downstairs, not bothering to change. I didn't really talk, just grabbed a bowl of cereal and milk and ate with the surprisingly already awake Shinso.

Pops already left, and dad was sleeping.

Probably because you woke him up Deku-

My internal voice sneered the last word and I shuddered a little. Upon realizing that I had just cut myself, I had a little panic attack. I started scratching my wrists then put my hands under the table so Shinso wouldn't notice.

I calmed down after a minute and quickly ate my cereal. I was tired as f*ck, but I grabbed my crutches and flew up the stairs with a newfound energy. I quickly changed into some training clothes and headed downstairs. Shinso was heading upstairs but I stopped him.

"Wanna train with me?" He nodded and went upstairs to change. I waited by the door and we walked together.

"So where do you train?"

"Oh, me and Toshi go to Dagobah beach." I stared at my feet as I talked.

"But isn't that place a dump now?" Shinso looked at me but I kept my head down.

"Yeah, but for training I clean up the trash." I saw him nod and we walked in silence the rest of the way. It wasn't a long walk, so we were there quickly. I told Shinso where to move the stuff to and he looked surprised that two refrigerators were already in the pile.

I set down my crutches and grabbed the rope that I had hung on the sign. Whilst flying I saw Shinso looking at me. I smiled and looked back to the pile. I saw a sink and I tied the rope and around it and easily tugged it to the pile. I found a couple more and tied them together. This time, it was a little harder but I made it.

I paid no attention to Shinso but when I glanced at him I could see he was struggling a little. I continued lugging stuff, and I started sweating a little. I increased the size of what I was carrying until I started lugging three dressers. I had tied them together and I couldn't get them airborne so I just dragged them. It took a couple minutes and looks of surprise from Shinso, but I got them too the pile.

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-Time skip to dinner-

Izukus POV

Once me and Shinso has gotten back we were still sharing complements. We took very long breaks when we got back, and now it was time for dinner. We all ate in silence, well, Pops was not stop talking about his patrol. None of us were listening and I'm pretty sure he knew that, but he continued talking anyway.

I can't believe I cut myself earlier. What got into me?

After we finished I took everyone's dishes and washed them. I was balancing on one foot whilst doing it, and it was kind of hard after a while because there were other dishes too.

Once I finished I flew up to my room. I laid on my bed once again, I was overheating so I laid above the covers. I was thinking about earlier and my thoughts raced everywhere. I stopped keeping track of them and closed my eyes. I crawled under the blankets and relaxed my muscles which I hadn't realized were tensed.

I soon have into a dreamless sleep, and the night raced by.

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Word Count: 1056 words

Yeah sorry for the depressive scene but, it's gonna happen more. I would like to say sorry in advance.