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Before the night had ended, Eren asked me if i would be his in the most childish way; and of course, i said yes.

If i could, i would've tackled him to the ground and attack him with affectionate kisses, but i didn't. Instead, we watched the stars together. Eren and i sat on the stump, back to back as we watched the night sky flourish with bright lights of hope.

It was surely a night to remember, I had the man I never thought I'd fall for and I couldn't have asked for anything more.

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"Jesus Christ, Eren! There's no need to kick me off the damn bed!"

I rub my head from the sudden collision from my bed to the hard floors. Never again will I sleep on the outer corners of the bed, not with Eren being a wild sleeper.

"I'm sorry, babe," he apologizes.

"Don't call me that."

"What? Babe? That's what couples do, Levi."

"We haven't even been together for a day, there's no need to start with the pet names," I retort, standing from the ground.

Eren stares at me for a long moment as I rummage through my top drawer for a fresh pair of clothes. He groans and plows his head back onto the pillow, not wanting to deal with my shit today.

"Why are you so stubborn?" asks Eren in a muffled voice.

"Because I can be," I reply before grabbing my towel.

Eren lifts his head to scowl with a pouting bottom lip, as if I would actually fall powerless to that. I pat the top of his head before pointing out the window.

"Leave, I'm going to take a shower," I order.

"But it's cold outside..."

"It can be raining books outside and I still wouldn't care. Go."

"But, babe-"

"Jesus, Eren, stop calling me that!"

Eren whines, sulking his head before dragging himself out of bed. He wraps himself inside his winter coat and slides on his socks while I watch from the side. He collects his things and slips on his shoes before heading towards the window.

"Hey, I wanna take you out, since it's your birthday and all," he says as he holds onto the latch that opens the window.

I cock a brow, questioning his statement. "Out? I thought last night was my gift?"

"No, there's a part two! I'm sure you'll love it," he exclaims before lessening the lock and draping a late over the edge. "I'll see you after your shower, even though I rather take one with you."

"What?"

"Bye!"

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"Can I take this stupid thing off now?"

"Jesus, Levi, it's called a surprise for a reason."

Eren and I walk side by side after exiting his car. With is being Christmas morning and a freezing -1°C, I didn't expect many people to be roaming the streets. I did occasionally bump shoulders with some people, but Eren was careful to guide me.

We walk hand-in-hand, the only thing separating us is the cotton of our gloves. Winter ghosts manage to escape through the warmth of our scarves while Eren makes unnecessary comments about the things we pass.

"Oh, there's a store coming up that sells the best lingerie. Ew, there's this old day guy walking out with a small bag, I bet he's lonely at night."

"Eren, please shut up..."

By the time we make it to the building the tips of my damp hair had frosted over with a slick coat of ice. The only positive outcome was that I was able to hold Eren's hand without feeling awkward, unlike like the night before.

"Ready?" he asks, as we stand on the curb.

"More than ever," I reply.

With a cheeky smile and bright eyes, Eren removes the dark blindfold from my eyes. He tucks the fabric away as my eyes adjust to the light of day. Looking around, expecting to see something spectacular, I grow disappointed. We were just standing at the edge of a curb in front of a-

"Oh. My. God." I stare with a gaped mouth, my scarf tucked beneath my chin.

"Yup, I asked Armin if he could open it up for us," he explains.

My hands reach out like a child begging for attention. I drag my body in a zombie-like way, the smallest smile tugging at the corners of my lips. Eren didn't hold his smile back, he let's his toothy smile shine with pride as he follows behind.

Arlert's Bookshop, that's the name of it. Apparently, Armin's grandfather owns the shop and was willing to hand Armin the keys to do Eren the favor. It was planned several days ago, which I found rather sweet.

"Happy birthday, Levi," says Armin. He emerges from behind a shelf with several books in hand.

"Thanks, Armin."

By this time I couldn't help but grin stupidly. My toothy grin made Eren squeal as he hugged me from behind. I almost fall face-first into the wooden floors, but I catch myself and give Eren a harsh glare.

"Awe, you two are cute," Armin comments as he sets the books down on the checkout counter. "I'm guessing you asked him?"

"Sure did," says Eren proudly as he removes himself from my backside. "He couldn't resist."

I scowl, averting my eyes to gaze at a much more beautiful sight. The collection of books was endless, but not as glorious as those of Sina. There are several rows of shelves that stretched throughout the medium-sized store.

They continue to talk to each other as I remove my coat to hang on the side of a chair. Eren does the same, boasting about the night before. I softly blush, my attention refocusing on their conversation. Armin congratulates us and tells me I could have any book for free because of the event of my birthday. I thank him and he gives me a cheeky smile.

"It's no problem, I'm happy for the two of you. Eren really likes you."

Eden chuckles uncomfortably before rubbing the back of his neck. He flusters a bright pink to which I snort from his cuteness. Man, he's adorable when he wants to be.

Eren waves to Armin, thanking him once again before he hauls me inside the maze of bookshelves. He interlocks our fingers as we stride down the isles.

I ramble on and on about the books I've read, and instead of growing bored and telling me to bite my tongue, Eren listens. I could go on, and on for hours just talking about the stories I've read, and he would just listen to me. He agreed to some things, asked questions, made comments. He was intrigued by my words, his eyes never leaving me.

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Soft music plays in the background as made our way to the romance section. I didn't pay much attention to the music until Eren commented on the artist.

"Ah, it's Ed Sheeran."

"So?" I question coolly, cocking a brow.

"So, he's a great singer! Just listen to the music, babe."

I huff, rolling my eyes. I didn't want to listen to this 'Ed Sheeran', I wanted to explore the wondrous beauty of Armin's grandfather's bookstore.

"Ah, you need to loosen up a bit," Eren says as he lets go of my hand.

Eren ever so carefully wraps an arm around my waist. I immediately fluster, but I don't resist his movements. With a soft smile, Eren pulls me closer to him. My heart picks up speed as Eren looks down at me with admiring eyes.

"Gosh, aren't you handsome?"

"Eren, stop being creepy."

"What, I'm speaking the truth," he says, slowly moving us side-to-side.

"Uh- what are you doing?"

"Dancing. Dance with me, Levi."

"But I don't know-"

"It's easy, see-" Eren pulls me away, twisting me into a full turn before pulling me back into his chest, "-there's nothing to it."

I can feel the heat rush to my cheeks as I avert my gaze to the side, embarrassed yet not resisting. I continue to glance at our feet, my own stumbling over Eren's own. He doesn't seem bothered by this, he only hums to the music, swaying me in his arms.

"So, I was thinking," Eren hums, catching my attention. "I wanted to make the spring show memorable, so I wanted to ask if you'd like to do a duet with me?"

"A duet? Eren, I haven't played violin in years. I can't just pick it up again and be expected to be great."

"Then start practicing once we get back," he says simply.

"It's not that simple, Eren. It takes more than weeks. It takes months and years to perfect the violin."

Eren pouts, stopping out movements to stare at me. He leans in, his lips against my ear. His breath was warm against my skin, his words in a soft whisper.

"Please, babe?"

The sound of his voice was so soft, yet so seductive. His words sent chills down my spine, my stomach swirling with emotions as I swallow hard.

"Fine..." I give in.

My heart thumps violently against my chest once Eren backs away. His face was only a few inches from mine, his eyes soft and in a daze.

"Thank you," he whispers as he strokes the side of my cheek with his thumb.

I shiver at the touch of his warm hand against my cold skin. His lip curls into a small grin as he trails a thumb against my bottom lip. My heart goes haywire and my legs feel like jelly. I can't find any words to say, my breath hitches instead from the insecurities of my own mind.

What do I do? He's going to kiss me! I can't just-

Before I could finish my thought, Eren leans in and attempts to press his lips against mine, but I don't let him.

I punch him right in the gut.

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"I said I was sorry..." I say quietly from the passenger's seat.

"And I said it was fine," he says sternly.

"I didn't know how to react."

"You kiss me back, it's not that hard, Levi."

I sink into the passenger's seat with crossed arms. I am beyond embarrassed and filled with regret. I didn't mean to punch him, he was just so close, and I've never been that close to someone.

"I don't know how..." I confess.

"What do you mean? Didn't you have your first kiss yet?"

"No," I say quietly.

"Jesus, Levi. You could've said that instead of punching me."

"I said I was sorry!"

"I know, I know. It's not hard to kiss, Levi."

"Easy for you to say, you've kissed hundreds of people."

We drive silently for a few minutes, letting the thoughts sink in.

It's true, I haven't had my first kiss. It's not my fault Farlan has hooked me up with people in the past, but I've never actually kissed them, or had sex for that matter. They were usually uninterested after the first few minutes of talking and would walk off. Farlan, on the other hand, would get laid every time.

I feel pathetic.

"I wish I could teach you, but frankly, I don't know how. It just-" he smacks his tongue against the roof of his mouth in thought of his words, "-it just has to come naturally. I wasn't taught, I just picked it up after a while."

"I'm sorry," I apologize again.

"Don't be, we'll take baby steps, you're not tall enough for these big boy relationships."

I punch the side of his arm with a scowl and he bursts into laughter, almost losing his grip on the wheel. He avert my eyes to stare at the outside world.

It wasn't until I let my eyes focus on the window that I see small white specks.

For the first time this winter, it snows. How ironic, we will actually get she have a white Christmas.

That's so cliché, it's like we're part of some movie. Eren and I are the main characters and it so happens to snow on our first date, that so happens to be on Christmas day, that also seems to be my birthday.

But this first date was far from cliché.

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Author's Note:

Ah, thank you for sticking around to read this late update ( ' ▽ ' )ﾉ I appreciate you very much

I've thinking, maybe I should just write what I can and update instead of forcing myself to write 2.5k words each time; not many people appreciate the long chapters and will skip most of the paragraphs •^• but idek I think I should ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌

If you haven't noticed I've added a table of contents with the names of the chapters, I also changed the cover for like the 100th time
-⌣- rip me

I've finally planned the rest of Admit it and I've decided to add some smoot, but I might just have a time skip ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌ idek idek, up to you

I freaked out so much when I realized that only a week ago I hit 2k and now I'm at 2.7? I'm JungShook!

And people said they like my writing? Oh my freckled jesus, just wrap me up in gay and throw me down the rainbow

I'm crying :'') thank you~

Until next time~
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