) Trigger warning : Mentions of mental health, low self-esteem and depression)

I got college tomorrow, and such so I'm going back so I'm extremely worked up and anxious because my parents have done it to the point where we do it the day before I start so that's great.... I'm so stressed and anxious and my parents are keeping stuff from me when sorting out things for college I'm having to find out after so I love that.

My acne is coming up and I have been practicing positive affiiformtions and positive talk but at the same time it's hard when you are so mentally drained, anxious and to the point of where you are depressed and more lonely than you were before everything now, I am trying to talk positive to myself currently but it's hard because I have so much to do I need to do my eye brows, my spots and I'm feeling majorly insecure about everything about college especially.  I have practiced and worked on small things to love myself it's going eh I got to the point where I can love myself at some points and my style most of the time so, but can become insecure and very sad over my appearance 😭😭😭😭😭

Also I am going alone this year I only have a couple irl friends mainly one who I struggle to talk to some reason I struggle to talk to irl friends because I find and like it finding it easier to talk to them face to face which I really can't do. I'm absolutely anxious mess and worry I won't make any friends and I don't know if I will or not now I'm a mess and it's my fault I guess for letting me get to this point, my mental health is absolutely drained and I got to the point of becoming severely depressed that I don't move or stay in bed for awhile because I have such a lack of motivation to do anything or care for myself.