Has it come through, that you don't consider yourself as your legally born gender. Actually I believe I am leaning towards being trans I'm unsatisfied with there being me as female .
I can't contribute to anything nowadays, I feel quite frankly useless. I don't achieve my entitlement. I do it because I rather have others avoid this pain the pain I cannot imaginably describe . I'd rather have myself condone to the pain . Nothing what I accidentally accomplish happiness can't fill my needs.