So my birthday is coming up and I was excited till i realized that my uncle will be there. He is a big bully to me so that is why I'm upset that he will be there. Plus it's gonna be raining aaaaand im pretty sure I'm not going to get anything for my birthday since my Grandma gets mad at my parents for even mentioning spending money. We arent broke but she thinks we are. I'm sorry I've been ranting a lot and I know people are going through a lot worse but life is crappy for me right now and I've been  really sick and I kinda just want to cry a lot but I can't because I'm not allowed to have emotions according to the glares my grandma gives me when I show an emotion other than happy.