The pit

You know, The pit. The one that you've dug in your mind to jump into with that sad song that you like to listen to. The pit that you hate being in but somehow you end up in it, Just like that.

Once, I had thought that I would have a chance to be back where I belong but then suddenly turns out that it's something impossible to me to achieve. The ray of light that you think is going to be the spark you need to light that damn fire but then the haters and the cheaters and the horrible people pour down a river of hate on that one spark. 

That's called the pit, And maybe you might think that what's that gotta do with the things I've been feeling? Well actually it's got everything to do with it. When you decide that something is broken beyond fixing then you feel like it's over, But in reality the pit is more like a small hole that you put your shoe in. And once you take the next step you realise that now instead of a spark you have made the whole damn fire and you will be the one who is in charge. 

What about when you think that there's nothing you can do to stop it? 

Well then you take your blanket, listen to your favourite songs and then have a long hard thought about why you or how this is not the real end, all it is is a small hole that you are going to take your shoe out of, I know you might think that I don't know what I am talking about but actually the first two paragraphs that you read were written by me when I thought that I won't be able to write or update my chapters anymore because I use the website and it might seem like something small or irrelevant to you but in reality it was everything to me But the next morning I thought of how much I am going to love and cherish writing if I could ever do it again. What I am trying to tell you is that even though it might be Harder for you  then I could ever imagine is that just the fact that you made it through the minute means that you will make it through it, And if it all works out then in the end you might even thank that pit to cause you hated it so much that you filled it up with all of the people against you and then burried it. 

What if it doesn't stop? What if all you can do is see other's being able to be happy and you just can't find the reason to go on. 

That's up to you isn't it? The universe finds its ways to show you the path even in total darkness doesn't it? I was playing my sad mixtape when suddenly my phone started playing Red and then I just burried myself in the song, I went back to the time that I was trying to remember all the lyrics of that song and I just for a minute forget all about my problems. Maybe you could try to do the same right? You could maybe open up your closet and see that jacket that you loved to wear or you could check out your old favorite songs and go to the time when you were listening to them. Maybe you don't like your past, Then look at your future, See where you will someday be living in or who you will be helping or How you'll be living your dream. Your present or past shouldn't change your brightest future. 

Maybe I am wrong, Maybe you don't want to come out the pit. What if you don't want to?

Then it's time that you realise that you survived Your first five years on earth, The time you realised that you made it through the pit enough to read this, You need to understand that it's not how you fell in the pit that makes you who you are, It's how you will get out of it that will show who you really are. I can't tell you any great advice about getting out of the pit or about how you have to get out of it because in the end you are in charge over here but what I can do is tell you that you get to chose when you get out of the pit and if you want to talk about it then I am here for you. It's not just about you being in the pit, You might want to be there longer cause if you don't have any expectations then you want be disappointed or sad but unless you get out of that pit you won't get to feel the joy of finally getting what you always wanted and deserved. 

How is this considered as something that matters? It's not about what anyone else considers it as, It's about you considering important. And if you believe you have nothing to get once you get out of the pit then I am here to tell you the real truth, The truth is that sometimes there might not be something that is waiting for you once you get out of it but that's not what matters, What matters is that you were strong enough to get out of it and I am glad that you got out of it.

Note: I know I might not be able to express everything that might be happening to you but I just really want you to know that i am your friend in this, And I would be the happiest person in the world if I got the news that you were strong enough to get out of the pit. I am going to try to express my thoughts into my chapters and if I Missed out anything then please just comment or private message me about it. I want you all to know that you are stronger than this and in the end, You will emerge victorious. Always and forever ❤️