"I think I'm gonna tell her", Brendon said next to me. We sat in his room on his bed again.

"What?", I asked confused.

"I think I'm gonna tell my mum I'm gay", he said.

"Oh, so you're sure you're gay?", o asked because he just thought that maybe he was, he could also be bi or pan.

"No, I'm the straightest man alive, you know? It's not that I kissed you, a boy", he chuckled.

"True, so when are you going to tell her?", I asked.

"I want you there, so.... now?", he asked looking at me with his big, puppy eyes.

"Why do you want me there?", I asked.

"Because I want you there to support me", he said.

"I don't think she's gonna rip your head off, but ok, if you want me there I'll be there", I said.

He smiled and came over to me to give me a quick kiss on my lips. I wanted so badly more, but we had to go to his mother.

So we went downstairs finding his mother in the living room watching a movie I didn't recognise.

Brendon stood there unsure of what to do next so I laid my hand on his shoulder to give him comfort.
He took a deep breath and said:

"Mum, can we talk?"

Now brendon had her whole attention. She turned to TV off and stood up.

"What's wrong, honey, is everything ok?", she asked worried.

"Yeah, everything is ok, really. I just need to tell you something", he said nervously looking at the ground.

I never really had to come out in front of my parents. They found out by an accident, you already know the story.

"Ok, you can tell me everything, come sit down", she said pointing at the couch.

We both sat down followed by her.

"Now calm down, what do you wanna tell me?", she asked calmly.

Brendon opened his mouth but no words came out. I took his hand making him turn around to me. I smiled, causing him to took a deep breath.

"Ok, mum", he said, "I'm gay. I like guys."

I couldn't quiet read her expression, but she seemed shocked and relieved at the same time.

"You really scared me brendon. I thought something bad would co.e now", she said, "you know I'll support you no matter what happens, right? I don't care if you like girls or boys."

Brendon smiled and his mother came to hug him.
I was so happy for him that his mother accepts him as the person he is.

"Did you think I would react different?", she asked.

"No, but I was still scared", he said.

Grace smiled and looked over to me who still held brendons hand.

"So you two are, you know, together or something like that?", grace asked.

I looked over to brendon, who's eyes where wide open.
We haven't really talked about labels and everything, was he my boyfriend? I don't know.

"We - uhm - actually we - yeah -  uhm", Brendon rambled scratching his neck nervously.

"Ok, I understand. Sorry for asking", his mother chuckled. Thank god she didn't went to far into that topic.

Brendon and I went to his room, closing the door behind us.

"I'm happy she accepts you", I said smiling at him.

"I'm so relived, you can't believe it", he sighed falling down on his bed.

"Brendon?", I asked.

"Yeah, Ry", he said. He called me Ry. He gave me a nickname, and that made my cheeks go red.

"What are we exactly?", I asked carefully.

"Oh, you mean, like boyfriend and boyfriend?", he asked.

"Yeah."

"Uhm, I don't know we haven't talked about that", he chuckled.

"I mean, we can wait if you want to", I mumbled.

"No, yeah, but, would you, you know, uhm, be my boyfriend?", he asked with red cheeks.

I smiled bright, I think this was the most adorable thing I've ever seen in my life.

"Of course, I would love to", I said sitting down next to him.

"Ok, my boyfriend, what do you want to do today?", he asked biting his lip. Oh, jesus, he just  bite his lip.

"Uhm, just hang out? And maybe watch a movie?", I asked trying not to look to distracted by his lips.

"Ok, sure, what do you wanna watch?", he asked me.

"Uhm, tangled?", I suggested.

"Tangled? What's that for a movie?", he chuckled.

Oh fuck, the movie want even made. C'mon ryan, think of an old movie.

"Uhm, I heard about that movie, but I don't know what's about. What about you choose?", I asked. Good move ryan.

"Ok, what about the lion king?", he asked, "I'm sorry, we just have Disney movies because of my sister and I love them, so yeah. You will like her, she's gonna be home in two hours, she has Practise", he said.

So we watched the lion king and talked for about two hours until the bell rang.

"Oh, that has to be her, her name is Kate", he said standing up to open the front door revealing his sister.

She had dark, thick hair like brendon and the same plumb lips. They could be twins actually.

"Hey, Katie", he greeted her.

"Hey, B", she said, "who's that?"

"Oh, sorry, that's Ryan, my uhm", he looked at me so I just nod.

"My boyfriend."

Kates eyes widened but her mouth turned into a bright smile.

"Aww, finally you came out of the closet, I'm proud of you B", she said.

"Wait, how did you know?", he asked here looking puzzled.

"Oh c'mon, I'm your sister I have a sixth sense when it comes to things like this", she said rolling her eyes.

"Ok, well then, Ryan this is kate, and Kate this is ryan", brendon said obviously still confused about the fact that she already knew he's gay.

"Hey Ryan", she said shaking my hand, "nice to meet you."

"Nice to meet you to", I said smiling.

"He's nice, I already like him", she told brendon, "if you need anything, I'm in my room."

With that said kate walked up to her room.

"Was I that obvious?", brendon asked me.

"Well, Susan and Spencer already suggested you were gay on our first day here", I chuckled.

"Wow, everyone knew before I did", he chuckled.

"It's mostly like that", I said rapping his shoulder.

*****

"I'm home", I yelled when I opened the door to our house.

After Susans and mine 'conversation' we had three days ago, we barely talked to each other. I kinda miss her. This whole situation reminded me of my parents and me, and I was tired of it, so I decided to make the first step, I walked to susans room and knocked on her door.
I knew she was there, where else?

"Susan, please let me in", I begged.

"What do you want, Ryan?", she asked from the inside.

"Please talk to me."

"If you haven't noticed it yet, I am talking to you right now", she said, making me roll my eyes.

"I mean, talking about what happened at the hospital."

She opened the door and sighed: "what is there to talk about?"

"Please susan, try to see everything from my side. I'm scared, I'm so fucking scared, what will happen? And I probably made a mistake."

"C'mere", she mumbled motioning me to hug her.

I did as she said and we both hugged each other.

"What did you do?", she asked.

"Brendon asked me to be his boyfriend and I said yes", I said.

"Ryan", she sighed, "you really fell hard for this guy."

"Maybe, I don't know", I said, "look, I don't know, but it feels right for me."

"I'm sorry for yelling at you, I'm just worried you know? At first I didn't think about that but then Spencer and I had a talk and now I really see the serious situation. I don't wanna get you hurt", she apologised.

"It's ok, I'm sorry. I think I just freaked out, because I didn't want it to be true, even though I know you're right."

"The heart wants what it wants, you can't do anything about it. It just happens", she said smiling, "ice cream?"

I smiled bright and nod.

*****

"Someone's happy", I said when I saw mikey smiling. The ways came over to us.

"Yeah, that's true", he sighed.

"What happened?", I asked.

"The date went perfectly and I have a girlfriend now", he smiled now even more, "I never wanna leave."

I just smiled, didn't they read the letter, and if yes, I don't wanna spoil his dreams for a moment.

"So you're both in a realationship, huh?", I chuckled looking at gerard and mikey.

"Yup, but what is there between you and Brandon?", Gerard asked looking  at me with a smirk.

"First of all, his name is brendon, and what should be between us?", I asked playing dumb.

"Oh, come on. It's pretty obvious you both fell for each other", he said.

I just rolled my eyes and sighed, I can't deny it, so it would be better for me to shut up.

"Anyway, how long do you guys think will we stay here?", Gerard asked.

Susan stopped eating and Spencer gulped. Did they know something I dont?

"Susan, spencer", I slowly said looking at both of them suspicious.

"Uhm, I don't know how long were gonna stay here", spencer mumbled. Oh damn, he was lying.

"Spencer don't lie to me", I demanded.

He looked desperately at Susan who just shrugged.

"You know you both are pretty obvious about the fact that you know something we don't", I said rising my eyebrow.

"Well, at first we thought it would be better not to tell you, but you know we got here February, right? So.... we'll stay here for one whole year, next February were going home", she said gulping.

What? One year. And we have may. That means just 9 months left. That's pretty much to be honest, I expected it to be less. But still, I don't know what's better. It's like suffering, because in these next nine months connections will grow and become stronger with the time. It would be way harder to leave than now.

"When did you guys think of telling us?", gerard asked looking hurt.

"You three found someone here and we didn't want to tell you this so soon, we thought that it would be better that you should enjoy the time here, without pressure", Susan explained, "Gerard got Frank, Mikey got Alicia and Ryan got Brendon."

"Don't be mad at us", Spencer said.

I looked at the ground, they didn't mean it bad, and I think their intentions were right.

"It's ok", I said lifting my head, "I'm not mad."

Gerard also seemed to be calm now, but mikey looked like he's seen a ghost.

"Excuse me", he said walking up opening a room to hide in. It was my room and I really didn't know what he wanted there but I decided to follow him.

"Mikey, can I come in?", I asked. This was my room, but I still had to ask to come in, weird.

"Sure", he said.

I opened the door finding him sitting on the edge of my bed.

"Sorry that I went into your room, but I had to get out of there", he mumbled.

"It's ok, you wanna tell me what's bothering you?", I asked.

"But don't laugh ok?", he said.

"Of course I won't laugh."

"Ok, so you remember gerards sister?", he asked, causing me to nod, "well, my wish was to be there for my brother as the person I am. And this wish came true. I was his sister. I actually never was, but from the outside I was. When I woke up I realised I was in a boys body, and I think I never was this happy in my whole life. And thinking of going back and losing this, I don't know how - how to feel about it."

Now I was speechless. I expected everything but not that.

"Weird huh?", he chuckled.

"Actually yes, I didn't expect that, but I can understand your worries. Not that I'm in the same situation. It's ok, mikey, well figure something out", I said hugging him from the side.

"Thanks, but maybe I'll stay here, you know? I don't wanna go back", he sighed.

"Really? You know you're gonna forget everything about your life before and that including your brother, family and friends", I told him slightly shocked about what he said.

"I know, gerard and I already talked about it. He's going to follow me, that means if I stay here, he'll also stay here. And we aren't on good terms with our father, my mother died while she gave birth to me and my father is an alcoholic. That would mean, that mum would be still alive and my father wouldn't drink that much. It's better for everybody", he explained.

To be honest, it made sense to me.

"We still have time  let's think about that later right?", I said tapping him on the shoulder.

"You're probably right", he mumbled.

*****

I walked again through the city which I knew pretty well now. It's quiet out here and I think I have to clear my mind a bit. So I came across the park, the bank and café Bellá.

I decided to sat down on one of the benches in the park. Kids were playing and laughing and their parents were talking to each other.

One of the was even really familiar, she talked to a woman who's back was facing me.

It was Eliza.

Maybe I should go and talk to her? I don't know her that well.

They both stopped talking and elizas eyes wandered over the park meeting mine. She smiled and waved to me.

Ok, maybe I should go over to her. I smiled and walked in her direction.

"Hi, Eliza", I greeted her.

"I'm sorry, I don't even know your name, but you're the guy from the party, right?", she asked.

"Yeah, my name is Ryan."

"Uhm, thanks ryan, for what you did, I really regret getting that drunk and I think every other guy wouldn't have done this. And who was the other guy? Do you know him? When yes can you thank him too?", she said really fast. She reminded me even a bit of Breezy.

"Sure, his name is brendon."

"Maybe we should, you know, go and eat something, right?", she said smiling at me with big eyes. Please don't tell me she means a date, should should I tell her I have a boyfriend?
I still can't get over the fact that I have a boyfriend.

"Uhm, yeah, maybe I'll also ask brendon, my boyfriend", I said to signalise her that this is just going to be a normal hang out.

"Oh, that's why you both didn't do something else to me", she chuckled.

I smiled at her, that's becoming really awkward here.

"But what if we hang out as friends?", she asked, "tomorrow at the café bellá? 6pm?"

Isn't this a bit late for just a  hang out? Maybe she has to go to work.

"Yeah, sure", I said. I didn't want to be unfriendly.

"It's really incredible", she whispered while looking at me.

"what is incredible?", I asked.

"Look, he looks exactly like George just with a different hair style", Eliza told the woman next to her.

I turned around to face the other woman, I think I even stopped breathing for a moment. This can't be true. This... that's ridiculous.

"Ryan you remember I told you about my ex who got my best friend pregnant, well that's her", Eliza said.

I gulped, I can't be too obvious.

"Nice to - to meet you - you", I stuttered out of nervousness.

"You're right in a he looks really like george", the woman said.

Please tell me that is just a really weird coincidence.

"Oh, sorry, my name is Danielle", the woman said.

Now the whole blood in my body began to freeze.

*****

I'm really sorry, I think this story is really shitty ;-;

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