what am i suppose to do when

your eyes gleam at me like that?

when the very sight of me

brightens up your day? when i

reach for your hand, or shoot

you a small smile that i never

show anyone, or ask to hang

out or bump into you on the

streets, and that adorable

little twinkle in your eyes

becomes an obstacle for

an unknown reason that

tears me apart? am i not

enough for you? it's things

like this that i wonder, that

i stay up all night every night

about, because i am so

unsure of how to approach

you, will. i really like you

but we aren't that close.

maybe that's why. maybe

you're also nervous, though,

because i see the way you

blush when you look at me.

i see the way your nose

tingles at the blood rush. i

like that you do that for

me, will. i like you. and i

am not really sure what

you're supposed to do when

you like a boy. hide.

hide, that's all i know, and 

i'm trying, but what am i

supposed to do about you?

and let me back-track a

little bit. let me think about

the way i brighten up your

day, we are friends. but

will, i want to be closer friends

if i can't have the entirety

of you. i want to be closer

to you, as close as i can be

without making you think

i'm one of those. homosexual.

i want to be so close to you,

but will, it's hard when i make

you happy, when i'm your

friend and nothing more.

what am i supposed to do?