it's nice to have a

friend who won't

judge me. we 

talked a little bit

and got to know

one another (gods,

i like him a lot).

he made me laugh,

once. isn't that

wild? and i smiled,

a lot. isn't that

strange? and now

i feel like i can be

happier on my own

and sad around

him, and sad on my

own and happy

around him, because

now i have nothing

to hide and nothing

to fear. the demons

in my mind have no

part of my brain left

to claw at, no shadows

left because will's

sun has illuminated my

thoughts. flutter,

flutter, flutter. my

mind is free but my

stomach is in knots.