Namjoon was the first of the two to wake up from their unexpected cuddly session. Mostly because he didn't get a wink of sleep since. He had rolled them over, so that they were on their sides, the omega's back pressed tightly to his chest. He had clearly driven the other on edge earlier, triggering some of his pains. Now he was holding onto him tight, trying to keep him and the baby safe.

God, he was a mess, a huge mess that he only hoped he would fix. His mind kept gearing back to what Seokjin had said earlier, about him being like any other alpha out there, that didn't respect omega's. Not fully at least. He couldn't help think it wasn't true, Seokjin was his world, he loved so much and respected him, there was no way on earth that he would have shown him the opposite of those.

If he ever did it, it was totally not on intention, and purely on oblivion. He would never disrespect the love of his life like that, and he shivered at the thought that Seokjin could have assumed so with all that was going on. He could see how his actions could have led to this.

The said omega moved in his arms, waking from the couple of hours nap he had to cool himself. Namjoon felt as the other's hand traveled down his own, that was holding the bump of his stomach, Seokjin's hands rested a bit on his. A clarity that the three of them were still intact.

Namjoon pressed a kiss to his neck, before whispering, "Are you feeling ok now, do you need anything?" The omega didn't take a lot for lunch, and Namjoon knew he might have been starving by now.

Seokjin didn't need a lot though, just some fresh air and to be fucking ok. So he only shook his head, sitting up. "I gonna go out to the balcony, I need some air." He announced eyes meeting Namjoon in a polite announcement. His head was clouded by earlier too, Namjoon's revelations, and the things he had said to him.

Admittedly he felt a little relieved that Namjoon had now told him everything, he felt a little better about not being in the dark anymore, although it still worried him how the future would roll out. He got out of bed, walking to the side of the room, and sliding open the doors. He didn't close them back up like he always did.  He didn't shut the other out like he always did.

Instead he took a seat in the couch, his bare legs curling on the side. The sky was filled with slight heavy clouds, the evening sun shining through them, giving the cool atmosphere a good look. It was orangey, with a breath of fresh air like he wanted.

"It's a little cold out here, you should wear something." Namjoon announced as he came by the door, his black hoodie in hand and a blanket in the other. Seokjin didn't protest as the other kneeled in front of him, helping him into the fabric. He stretched his arms, fitting the clothing perfectly, before Namjoon draped the blanket over his legs.

Seokjin knew the words he had spoken earlier weren't entirely true, he knew he could never find another man that would love and and respect him like Namjoon always did. He knew there was nobody out there that would care and love him like the alpha did. He just couldn't help it at the moment, Namjoon's revelations had casted a shadow on his thoughts, and he had in turn reflected them back in words even when he didn't mean them.

"Thank you." He said in a small voice, pulling the hoodie into paws.

"I shouldn't have brought you edge like that." Namjoon worried still kneeled in front of him. "Am ok, I shouldn't have worked up myself like that either."

Namjoon watched him for a moment, the omega didn't seem furious like he was, instead his face was relaxed, eyes a bit swollen from the crying earlier. So he took Seokjin hand's in his, eyes meeting the other. He kept his determined, with no traces of fear or fight. Seokjin looked back at him, his expression a little tired.

"You mean the world to me Jin, you mean everything to me love." He started, his thumbs caressing the other. Namjoon had not planned on doing this now - when they just woke up after a fight, but he would take any opportunity he would get to assure the other that of what he was feeling, and what he was thinking.

"I want you to know, that I love you with everything in me. Never in this life did I ever think i would hurt you like this, and I want you to know that I never intended for it either. I have broken your trust, and I have thrown away your love, but I am still the same man you met a year ago. The same man who is going to fight back to get us back."

Seokjin didn't cry this time as the other spoke, he kept his eyes glued on the alpha, listening with intent. Never in his life since he met Namjoon, did he think, there would ever be a time, when he questioned the alpha's Love for him, and doubted his loyalty. Never in his life since he met Namjoon did he think he would hold his breath, thinking of what he would do with a confession like this.

But that was love, you went in head first without a thought, pray that your fantasies would would become your reality. Love was blindly trusting with your heart and soul. Thoughts and body. Love was giving yourself to the unknown. Often times we all did it without much thought, following your heart because it was right.

But it became a tad bit difficult when fear was added to the mix, having given yourself but ended hurt, it became difficult when your heart wrestled with your head. Love and Fear. Seokjin knew what he wanted, he knew without thinking that he was meant for Namjoon no matter what. He knew he belonged to the alpha, and the alpha to him. It felt like he was engraved in his heart, and it ran in his veins.

Together forever.

Namjoon brought Seokjin's hands to his face. So that the omega was cradling one of the alpha's cheeks. Namjoon kissed him palm twice, the second longer than the former. "I want you to know that am going to do everything in my power to earn your forgiveness. Am going to seek it as long as I can. To prove to you that you can trust in me again. Give me a chance to redeem myself, to show you that I am the same man you once loved."

Seokjin knew he had forgiven. There was just something about the person you loved that made it difficult to hold it your heart against them. He knew he had forgiven the alpha for everything. But forgetting. . .this wasn't something he thought he would ever forget, he didn't think he needed to either, because it served as life lesson for both of them. One day maybe he would look back see this as major obstacle in their life.

Although trusting the other was problem. He knew he would have trouble fully putting his faith in the man before him now. But watching Namjoon look into his eyes like that, with such sincerity, and determination, he knew the other was trying too, he could see the man he once knew, over all this unusual vulnerability.

Maybe he would never fully understand why Namjoon picked the choices he made, or fully comprehend why he made them, but that was ok, he could tell underneath everything the alpha had the best interest at heart for him, his goal had not been to hurt in this. Possibly a victim himself in all this.

So he squeezed the other's cheek reassuringly, letting him know he was on board with him, he gave in again, giving the alpha his heart, offering a bit of trust, and hoping that the future would be nice. His bets lied with Namjoon now, if he would do as he had said, or if he would play his heart.
Wasn't loving a funny weird thing to do? So many uncertainties, yet you can't help yourself from falling over into the unknown.

Namjoon caught onto his signal, and the small smile on his face, kissing his knuckles, before raising to give his forehead a long kiss too. "I love you baby." Namjoon whispered as he hugged him close. Seokjin accepted it, relieved to be in the hands of his love once more.

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"Are you nervous?" Namjoon asked from the chair in the room, eyes trained on the omega who had his legs bouncing slightly on the bed. Seokjin looked at him, trying to keep his nerves at bay. "Yeah, just a little thirsty." He said trying to clear his throat.

Namjoon smiled back, walking to the table on the side to retrieve the half bottle. He opened it, giving it to Seokjin who downed it immediately. The omega was definitely nervous, his legs wouldn't stop shaking, and his now clammy fingers were pressed on his hospital gown on his thighs

The door opened, the male omega doctor, walking in, all smiles with a bow. The couple smiled back, greeting him with the same enthusiasm. "Are you ready?" The doctor asked sitting in the chair by the bed, next to Seokjin. The omega looked at Namjoon timidly, the alpha smiling back at him. "Yes." He replied unable to hide his growing excitement.

It had been a few days since him and Namjoon officially made up, they were treading down the right path now, both relearning to be themselves around each other. They weren't pushing, or forcing themselves to be where they were before, they were simply taking things at their on pace.

Today they were visiting the doctor's office, having an appointment. They were going find out the gender of the baby too. Seokjin couldn't hide how excited and nervous he was, and Namjoon would be lying if he said he didn't feel the same way.

"Alright, let's begin then." The doctor said turning on his chair to let Seokjin lie on the bed. "Just put your feet here, and here." The doctor pointed to the end of the bed, signaling to the separate pads. Namjoon took back the water bottle, putting it on the table before holding the omega's hand. Seokjin blushed as he laid back on the bed, spreading his legs on each pad. It was the reason they had sought a male omega to attend to him. Namjoon strictly instructing that even a beta wasn't allowed to. Although that didn't stop his ears and cheeks from glazing over. 

"Ok, I'm gonna put this in you, it won't hurt so don't worry." The doctor said  reassuringly to Seokjin, before grabbing his tools, and checking over the omega. Seokjin squirmed a little as the probe was inserted in him, mostly because he had not had anything down their for some time now. He let the doctor do his thing, moving around the gel-ed transducer and squinting his eyes to the screen. He wrote some few notes in the pad by the side, and made humming sounds in the rather quiet room as he watched the monitor.

Seokjin glanced to the blurred monitor himself, seeing the baby like figure, then to the doctor, who had his eyes in focus. His eyes finally traced to the alpha, filled with slight worry. He didn't want this to be any bad news. Namjoon kissed the back of his hand with a smile. "Its gonna be fine." He said to Seokjin.

"There is your baby." The doctor finally announced with a smile. "Alive and healthy." The two watched the figure on the screen, moving slightly, with a constant heart beat that now sounded loudly in the room. Seokjin eyes glazing over with tears as he finally put together the features, and the sound of life in him. A life was really growing inside of him, that was their baby right there. Namjoon squeezed his hand once more, and he looked up to see the alpha similarly on the verge of tears.

"Would you two like to know the gender?" The doctor asked, Seokjin nodding before wiping at his cheeks. The doctor played at the monitor, a few more seconds before a smile stretched on his lips. "Well, your having baby girl." He announced.

Seokjin instantly thought of how Namjoon had always wanted a girl for their first born, it's how they had always discussed it. So instinctively, the omega looked up meeting a smiling Namjoon. They basked in that moment for a while, the first time they had both shared something in a long time. They were glad it was something this significant.

They both checked the monitor a while, the doctor talking to them, and handing them the picture. They both couldn't keep their eyes of her, or their thoughts.

Seokjin later sat up when the doctor was done, fiddling with his gown as the doctor pulled on the clipboard. "Physically, all looks normal, including your baby girl, but that doesn't mean everything is ok." The doctor started putting on a more serious face. "You mentioned here your still feeling frequent stitches, which is not good, or safe at four months." Seokjin nodded along.

"Your tests came back good, but not the best. Your blood pressure and stress levels are still high, which is not safe for you or the baby. If you don't check on that you might have trouble when it's time to deliver. One of you two or both might be in danger." Seokjin knew it was coming, and he and Namjoon had promised each other to put his health on the fore front.

"I hope you both check on this, stressing is absolutely not healthy." The doctor sighed looking at them both, "Please try not to do that a lot, instead do things that make you happy, simple things that would keep your mind off things. Outside of normal activities, intimacy helps a lot too. Be close to your mate, sex." He stated bluntly, the omega blushing for the second time that morning.

Namjoon and him had not gotten back to intimacy yet, they hadn't shared or made love since. And Seokjin turned red at the thought of that, he had missed it, and a part of him couldn't wait. "Otherwise, everything looks fine, the baby looks healthy, and your body nutrition is good too. Keep on your meals, and your rest. Hopefully I'll see an improvement on your pressure next visit?"

Seokjin nodded to the smiling doctor, Namjoon and him thanking him before he left. Seokjin's eyes met Namjoon, it was now only them in the room. And he couldn't resist as he flung himself into the alpha's arms with a huge smile accompanied by tears. "You did good baby." Namjoon said as he fought back tears. No more words needed to be said between them. They shared something much stronger, they shared a life.