Present, Y/n POV
"Why are you here?" Jin & I turn to Jungkook in confusion.
"Can we all calm down first & talk about this slowly?" Sensing the tense atmosphere, Jungkook immediately says.
"Calm down? How can I calm down when my fiancée is fucking my best friend?! What else are you hiding from me Kim Seokjin? Oh God.. The fact that you hurt yourself.. That's also true, isn't it?" You stare into Jin's eyes & detect the fear in them right away.
"How do you know about that? Did you tell her?" Eyes widened, he instantly turns to Seoyeon.
"She knows? So you told her but not me?! Do I even know you Jin?" I gape in disbelief. How stupid am I actually? How come everyone knows more about my fiancée than me?
"Of course I know. That was how I met him, before you even became his girl friend." She scoffs.

About two years ago, Seoyeon POV
"Kang Seoyeon ssi, please wait a while. The doctor will be with you shortly." The nurse said to me with her perfunctory smile.
I huffed deeply as I sat down on the couch. My first day at the psychiatrist's office.
Huh.. I haven't even started, yet I can't wait for this to end already.
I mindlessly flipped through the magazine, images flashing in front of my eyes but none were registered in my brain.
"Kang Seoyeon ssi? Please come in." The psychiatrist opened her door & signaled me to come in as the male patient before me walked out.
"Sorry." I accidentally bumped into the man's shoulder when I walked pass him.
"It's ok." He smiled at me & my heart stopped beating for a fraction of second.
I had never met someone so gorgeous in my life. My eyes inadvertently followed him until he disappeared behind the door.
Why is such a happy-looking guy seeing a psychiatrist?
And that was how I met Kim Seokjin.
I met him every Thursday since then as his session was right before mine. We never talked, only politely smiling at each other whenever our eyes met.
I wanted to strike a conversation with him, but I didn't have the courage.
All I knew was his name. Kim Seokjin.
And like a crazy stalker, I did a research on him & found that he was the only son of the president of Kim corporation, one of the richest men in South Korea, which made me feel even more unconfident.
Don't even bother. He's way out of my league.
However, I couldn't get him out of my head.

That continued for a period of time until suddenly he stopped coming.
I truly missed his presence. Actually, he was the only reason I kept seeing the psychiatrist. Now that he was gone, I'd lost the will to continue.
I thought I would never see him ever again since he came from a totally different world than mine, but one day he suddenly showed up to dinner with my best friend.
"Seoyeon ah, let me introduce you. This is my boy friend, Kim Seokjin." Y/n excitedly said.
"Hi, nice to meet you." He extended his hand towards me, but all I could do was stare at him in disbelief.
He doesn't remember me at all? Should I remind him?
"Seoyeon ah.." Y/n's whisper broke me out of my daze.
"Oh sorry. Hi, nice to meet you, I'm Seoyeon." I took his hand & felt electricity ran through my veins.
I suddenly felt alive again.

I was hoping that he would remember me, but he didn't even after I gave him hints.
Am I that forgettable?
That made me feel offended, so I started saying bad things about him to Y/n & he began to dislike me too. We became like cats & dogs who fought all the time when we met.
But deep down, I continuously wished that he would smile at me again like he had back then at the psychiatrist's office.
That continued for almost a year. Things seemed to be going great between Y/n & Jin despite my frequent bad-mouthing, and that somehow annoyed me even more.
Until one day..
"Why can't you do your job, right?! The client has specifically told you what they want, yet you keep failing to deliver! Yet you call yourself a professional model?! Are you fucking kidding me?!" My manager yelled furiously at me as I messed up during the photoshoot yet again.
"I-I'm so sorry manager-nim. I-I don't know what's wrong with me today." I stuttered.
I shouldn't have stopped taking the meds.
"I can't work with you anymore. Go find another agency that's willing to sign you." He turned around to leave.
"P-Please manager-nim! Don't fire me, I really need this job. I'll do anything." I grabbed his arm & pleaded.
He looked me up & down, and a sinister smirk lifted the corner of his lips. I knew that look all too well. The degrading side glance men often gave me when they wanted my body.
"Maybe we can work something out. But you need to do me a favor." He stepped closer to me & pinched my chin in between his fat fingers, while his other hand rubbed against my butt.
My skin crawl in disgust, but I did nothing, only standing there frozen & staring at him in panic.
Do I have to sleep with him just to keep my job? But I really need this, I can't get fired again. No one else would sign me if I fuck this up.
"Excuse me? But did I just witness you sexually harassing her?" Someone exclaimed all of a sudden.
I turned around & saw Jin standing behind me, brows deeply furrowed.
"What? When did I do that?! Who are you btw? Why are you nosing around on other people's business?!" Feeling humiliated, my manager immediately released me like a ball of hot fire & shouted at Jin.
"I am Kim Seokjin, the boss of that client you're talking about." Jin nonchalantly answered as he put both hands in his pockets.
"Hahaha! Yeah right, if you're Kim sajangnim then I'm the president of South Korea. Consider yourself fired Kang Seoyeon. Don't come begging me to let you stay again!" He spat before stomping out of the studio.
"Manager-nim! Manager-" I motioned to chase after him but Jin caught my wrist.
"Just let him go. Why would you want to continue working for such a douchebag like him?"
"Don't touch me. Rich people like you won't understand. Sometimes it's not always about what I want. No one would sign me if he spread bad rumors about me." I glared at him & shook his grip off.
"Huh.. What do I do now?" I slid down to the floor & cradled my head in frustration.
A long stretch of silence followed, but I could sense that he was still standing beside me.
"Are you still seeing that psychiatrist?" He suddenly asked which took me by surprise.
"You remember? Then why did you pretend like you had never met me before?" My eyes shot up at him.
"Coz I didn't, still don't, want Y/n to find out about my past. I'm scared that she'd leave me if she knew that I'm a nut case." He chuckled bitterly.
My heart ached hearing his confession.
"You're not a nut case. Every one has problems, if she can't handle yours then maybe she doesn't deserve you." I tried to console him.
"Well, but not every one cuts their own wrists to release stress." He blurted out before he could stop himself.
"Sorry, can you just forget about what I said & pretend that you didn't hear it?" He turned to me in panic.
I stared at him wide-eyed, not knowing what to say.
Did he just reveal his darkest secret to me?
"Haven't she seen the scars?" I cautiously asked.
"I went to a plastic surgeon to erase them before I met Y/n, so she truly knows nothing. Can you promise me to keep this a secret?" He pleaded.
"Fine. I won't tell a soul." I smiled at him. Somehow, my twisted self felt honored that he had told me his secret, but not Y/n.
"What was your problem?" He asked.
"Oh the regular depression & anxiety. You know.." I shrugged as we exchanged a look.
Then, both of us erupted in uncontrollable laughter.
"I guess we're both fucked up, aren't we?" He said in between laughs.
"Yeah, we are." I glanced at him & felt like the moon had returned to lighten up my gloomy night.

Time skip, weekend, Seoyeon POV
"Seoyeon ah, where are you going?" My friend called out from the bar.
"I need to call Y/n. She should've been here 30 minutes ago." I said as I walked towards the restroom in search for somewhere quieter to make the phone call.
"Y/n ah, where are you? We're all here already."
"Sorry, my boss suddenly asked me to finish the report by tonight. You guys have fun. Please say hi to the girls for me."
Huh.. She's always like this, bailing on us at last minute.
I was walking back to the table when suddenly someone grabbed my arm.
"Aren't you Kang Seoyeon?" The male stranger slurred, obviously drunk.
"I am. You are?" I asked as I slid his hand off.
"I'm Lee Hojoon, Kangmin's friend. Remember Choi Kangmin? You used to hook up with him." He stood up & put his hand on my shoulder.
Honestly, I couldn't remember who Choi Kangmin was because I'd fucked too many guys. I didn't care if people called me cheap, I just felt powerful & satisfied when men begged me to touch them.
"Can you please get your hands off me?" I look up at him in annoyance.
"Uuhh, feisty. I like it. Kangmin told me that you were really good in bed. So what do you say? Do you want to come to my place tonight?" He pinched my chin & whispered in my ear.
I wasn't in the mood that night, so I slapped his hand & walked away without saying a word.
"Ya, you rude bitch! I was talking to you." He snatched my wrist & spun me back around.
"Sorry but I'm not interested in sleeping with someone whose dick is probably as tiny as a beansprout." I lower my gaze at his manhood & scoff.
"Why you-" He lifted his hand to slap me & I closed my eyes in reflex, anticipating the blow.
"Stop it. What kind of man are you that you'll hit a woman?" That voice.
My eyes snapped open & saw Jin holding that man's arm.
"It's none of your business." The man shook off Jin's grip & glared at him.
"Actually, it's my business coz she's my friend. Let's go Seoyeon ah." He grabbed my hand & pulled me away. Warmth spread throughout my body, no one had ever done something like this for me before.
"Hey you." That guy called out again & Jin turned around to face him only to be hit right on his cheek by that guy.
"Omg Jin!" I yelped as I saw him stumbling down onto the floor.
"That served you well." The guy snickered & spat at Jin before walking away.
"Are you ok? Omg, it's swollen already. I'll go get you some ice." I was going to call the waiter but he stopped me.
"There's no need. I have first-aid kit in my car. I'll just go & clean this up in the car." He lifted himself up & stepped towards the exit.
"Let me help you."
"It's alright."
"No. You got hit because of me, so I'll feel really guilty if you don't allow me help you clean up the wound." I insist.
"Fine." He sighed & let me follow him to his car.
We got into the car & I carefully put on some ointment on his swollen cheek.
"Ow! That hurts." He exclaimed.
"Sorry. What were you doing there anw?" I asked.
"I had a drink with a client & then I saw you when I was on my way out." He explained as he flinched under my touch.
"Thank you. For saving me twice." I put down the ointment & smiled at him.
"Twice? Ahh, that day at the studio. Don't mention it. You're Y/n's friend so it's my duty to help you, even though you & I don't always see eye to eye."
Hearing Y/n's name coming out of his mouth made me jealous.
I saw him first, he should've been mine. Why does Y/n always get all the good stuff?
I stared at him for a long minute and then I made up my mind. I pulled his collar & smashed my lips onto his, which took him by surprise.
"What are you doing?!" He pushed me away & wiped his lips with the back of his hand.
"I-I'm sorry. I-I just-" I stuttered in panic.
"Get out of my car!" He yelled, his eyes filled with fury.
"Jin, I'm so sorry. I was out of my mind, I-"
"Now!" He was obviously very mad, so I had no choice but to exit his car & watch him drive away in full speed.
I stooped down & hugged my knees as tears streamed down my flushed face.
I screwed up. Now he hates me. Oh God, what should I do now? What if he tells Y/n?
I couldn't sleep all night, thinking that I'd lose both of them. Truthfully though, I was more afraid of losing Jin than Y/n.
The next morning, I checked my phone as soon as I opened my eyes, expecting to see a text or missed call from Y/n, but there was none.
Didn't he tell her?
Right then, my phone rang & it was a call from my agency.
"Morning Seoyeon ssi, we have prepared your schedule for this week. Would you like me to email it to you?" The unknown lady said.
"Schedule? I thought my contract was terminated by manager Lee?" I asked in confusion.
"Oh, don't worry about that. Kim sajangnim from Kim corporation called earlier today & explained the whole situation. So, would you like me to email you your schedule now?"
"Yes sure. Thank you."
My mouth was still gaping in disbelief when I hung up.
Jin called my agency?
A wide smile curved my lips because I knew that Jin had gotten hooked on my bait.

I checked my reflection for the umpteenth time in the mirror while waiting for Jin to pick me up. My heart was about to burst from the anxiety.
My phone rang loudly & I immediately ran to pick it up.
"I'm downstairs." Jin said.
I looked at the mirror again one last time before rushing out of the apartment.
"Hey." I greeted him.
He looked extremely handsome in his work suit. I had to avert my gaze to prevent myself from gawking.
"Where should we go?" He asked.
"Uhm.. There's a park near here & the parking lot is usually empty around this hour. Let's go there."
"Ok." He released the brake & drove the car towards the direction I pointed.
Just as expected, there was no car parked in the lot. We were the only one there.
"So, what do you want to talk about?" Frowning, he turned to me.
"I just want to say I'm sorry. I probably had too much to drink last night, so-"
"Just make sure that it won't happen again. I won't tell Y/n about this, but I don't want to betray her trust." He sternly said.
Y/n again. Why does he always have to bring her up?
"And I have a confession to make. I like you, have always been since I saw you in that psychiatrist's office, although we never talked. Seeing you was enough to brighten up my day. My world was dark but you shone a light on it when you smiled at me. You were the reason I kept seeing that psychiatrist, so when you stopped, I stopped too."
"Seoyeon ah, please-" He tried to stop me from telling him my feelings.
"You were always on my mind. Imagine how surprised I was when I saw you appear as my best friend's boy friend. I tried to suppress my feelings for you, but I couldn't. I tried to say bad things about you, in an attempt to make myself dislike you, but again it was no use. I know that this is wrong, you're Y/n's boy friend, but I can't help how I feel. Like you said, we're fucked up. And I feel like you're probably the only person who can get how I feel, like how I can get what you feel. Waking up everyday & putting on a mask just to survive is tiring. Hiding our true self to satisfy others is nerve-wrecking. Pretending that we're strong while we're crying inside is suffocating. So, I'm done pretending. I want to be honest for once, at least to you."
Without realizing, my tears had poured out my eyes, messing my make up, wetting my shirt. But I didn't care, because I knew he would recognize my pain, he would understand how it felt to be broken & twisted.
"Shhh.. Please stop crying. I know how you feel, coz I'm still struggling every day. But one day, you'll get better, you just have to keep on moving." He pulled me into a hug & caressed my head gently.
"I can't. I've tried. You were my source of hope, but now that you're gone too, I don't know what to do." I pushed him away & stared him right in his eyes.
"Seoyeon ah.." His expression had softened & I could see that he was sympathizing with me.
I cautiously inched my face closer to him & he didn't move away.
"I love you Jin." I whispered on his lips.
He grabbed my shoulders & slammed his lips onto mine. Right that moment, all my guilt, conscience, & fear just melted away into non-existence.