ANAIS

I moaned, feeling the pressure in my head before I could even open my eyes. I could something warm wrapped around me in contrast with the cold air. I cuddled closer to the warmth and buried, wanting more of it. After collecting myself, I finally had the strength to open my eyes.

My head was resting on a chest. I couldn't recall what happened or how I got here. I inhaled and lifted my head up. I was in a car, in the backseat of the car with him.

"Hey." He smiled.

"Ano'ng ginagawa ko dito?" I asked.

"Are you okay? How are you feeling?"

"I'm okay." I answered. Sinapo ko ang ulo ko. "Sumasakit lang ulo ko. Ano bang nangyari? Bakit ako nandito? Bakit ka nandito?"

"That idiot Steve tried to date-rape you."

"What?" My eyes widened. "You're lying. Hindi magagawa ni Steve yan..."


Coco sat up, obviously pissed off. I unconciously reached over to touch his cheek. "Coco..."

He shoved my hand away. "Why don't you go back to Steve? Hindi ko naman alam na gusto mo yun. Dapat pala pinabayaan na kita."

"Coco, I'm sorry..." I wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my chin on his shoulder. "Wala naman kasi akong alam sa mga nangyari. All I can remember is Steve walking me to the clinic."

"I saw him carrying you out while you're unconcious. You have no idea how scared I was habang hinahanap kita! Halos mabaliw na ako kakaisip kung anong posibleng ginagawa sa'yo ni Steve!" He raked his fingers through his golden hair.

"Ano naman ang pwede niyang gawin? Steve's nice guy. I've known him since I joined the theatre club." 

"Stop defending that asshole! He date-raped Kelsie! He put something in Kelsie's drink and she woke up with him in bed! God knows what could've happened kung hindi kita naabutan. Damn! I get goosebumps just thinking about it." He shoulders shook as if he'd felt a cold draft. 

"Oh God! " I clasped my hand on my mouth. I still couldn't believe Steve could do something like that. He'd always been kind and caring not only to me but to everyone around him. "Baka naman nagkakamali ka lang. Nagkausap ba kayo? What did he say?"

"He kept denying it pero hindi ako naniniwala sa sinasabi niya. He's not going to take you to the clinic. He was going to take you outside. He was a few steps away from the exit when I found you!" He explained. "If you're not going to believe then fine. Bumalik ka na sa Steve na yun. Suit yourself, Anais."

"Coco, hindi ko naman sinasabing hindi ako naniniwala. It's just that I can't believe Steve could do that." I sighed.

"He did it to Kelsie and he would've done it to you kung hindi ko siya napigilan. God, Anais, do you know how much you scared me? You have no fucking idea, you brat!" The fear in his voice was evident. Ikinulong niya ang mukha ko sa mga palad niya. His eyes were glossy with unshedded tears.

Without thinking, I crashed my lips against his. I kissed him with reckless abandon, he kissed me back with so much passion. His lips trembled against mine something that I had never felt before. Maya-maya ay hinatak niya ako palapit sa katawan niya. He pulled away from the kiss and we just cuddled.

We had always been physical with each other. That was how we had always expressed our feelings. When we fight, we have sex. When we don't, we still have sex. When his angry or I'm angry, we still have sex. But this time I felt like we connected in a deeper level. It was purely emotional. The silence, the comfort, the stillness of everything. It felt so perfect. Like everything was right in its place, where it's supposed to be. It was unlike the pleasure when I was in act with him but so much better. 

I closed my eyes as I felt him pressing soft kisses on my hair. I could have an emotional orgasm right now.

After a few moment, he pulled away and opened the door to his car. Hinatak niya ako palabas sa kotse niya. We stood in the middle of the parking lot with nothing but empty cars around us. Nagtatakang tinitigan ko siya.

"Dance with me." He said.

"How?" I chuckled a little. "Wala naman music."

"It doesn't matter. I want you to dance with me." He wrapped an arm around my waist. Then we began to dance together to the music only we could hear. We both laughed at each other's silliness but continued anyway. He spun me around, I laughed more freely and happily than I had ever had. I stared into his eyes when he pulled me back to him. Bumaba ang ulo niya para bigyan ako ng halik sa noo. I closed my eyes feeling him shower me with kisses.  Oh, how I wanted this night to go on forever.

"Anais!" I turned my head to find Steve running behind me. "Hey, Anais. Can we talk?"

"I... um, may gagawin pa ako." I avoided his gaze. I didn't know if I could look at him the same way again after finding out what he did to Kelsie and after him doing what he did to me. Hindi ako makapaniwala na magagawa niya sa akin iyon. I didn't want to believe pero si Coco ang nagsabi sa akin.

"Kung anuman ang sinabi sa'yo ni Coco, huwag ka maniniwala sa kanya. He accused me of all these things." He said.

"I think it's best if we don't talk for awhile." I quietly said, clutching tightly on the book I was hugging against my chest.

"Anais, ano ba ang sabi niya sa'yo? Tell me... Titigan mo ako." He demanded.

"Steve, I better go now."

"No. You look at me in the eye." He cupped my face and made me look at him. "Sabihin mo sa akin. Do I look like a bad guy to you?"

I looked at him and shook my head.

"Say it."

"No." My voice came out as a squeak.

"Whatever Coco said, it's a lie. Sinasabi niya lang iyon para siraan ako sa'yo. I just wanted to help, Anais. Nag-alala ako sa'yo. Then he suddenly popped and attacked me. I don't know what's wrong with your friend. He's probably secretly in love with you." 

I swallowed. The last words Steve said made my heart race a little faster. Coco in love with me? Gusto kong matawa sa idea na iyon. At the same time, inisip ko din kung paano nga? But I knew it was impossible. We'd been friends since we were kids. He looks at me differently than the other women. To him, I was just his friend. 

"I don't know, Steve..."

"Anais, don't do this to me. Alam mo naman na gusto kita. Don't lead me on like this." He sounded as if he was ready to beg.

"I'm not. I just need some time away from you. Gusto ko munang makapag-isip."

"Gusto ko lang din makausap ka. Kahit sandali lang, Ana. I want to explain my side. Atleast, give me a chance to vindicate myself." 

"Hey, what the hell are you doing here!" Coco suddenly shoved him away.

"Coco, stop!" I got in between them and pushed them away from each other.

"Ikaw nakakalalaki ka na!" Dinuro siya ni Steve. "Papatulan na kitang gago ka!"

"You call yourself a man?" Coco chuckled. "You don't even deserve to be called a human being after what you've done and have attempted to do on Anais. You're a scum of the earth."

"I don't know what the hell you're talking about! Hindi ko din alam kung saan nanggaling ang mga accusation mo sa akin. Wala kang patunay sa mga ibinibintang mo sa akin. I can sue your ass off with what you're doing!" 

"Gusto mo samahan pa kita?" Coco's lips lifted into an arrogant sneer.

"Tama na nga kayong dalawa!" I scolded them. "Para kayong mga bata."

"Stay away from Anais!" Coco commanded.

"You think I'd listen to you, asshole? Si Ana ang magdedesisyon niyan." Gigil na sabi ni Steve. He turned his attention to me. "Please Ana, let's talk. Hindi ako masamang tao. You know me."

"But I know Coco more." I quietly said. "I'm sorry, Steve. I think you should stop courting me."

"You heard that, asshole!" Coco said with satisfaction in his tone. "Huwag na huwag ka nang lalapit kay Anais!"

He threw Coco a sharp glare and his jaw tensed. "I swear, Nicholas Cordova, this is not the end. You always manage to ruin everything for me."

COCO

I was in my room, busy playing videogames when my window opened. Anais slipped inside and climbed to my bed. She cuddled next to me. It wasn't a suprise to me. Sanay naman na kaming tumatawid sa kwarto ng isa't-isa. How else would our little game start in the first place? We'd been sneaking into each other's room since we were kids. We'd learned to cross over the tree that was between our windows and climb into each other's room.

I remember the first time we ever became intimate. We were watching this r-18 movie together in my room when a wild scene came up. Anais was completely baffled at what she saw. Anais grew curious and wondered how it would feel like to do those things. She asked me if I could teach her how to kiss. At first, naiilang ako. I didn't like the idea of kissing my bestfriend but then eventually I gave in. As much as I didn't want to admit to myself, i wanted it too. I taught her how to kiss and we both knew we wanted more. Those kisses turned into making out turned into heavy petting and touching. Until we both lost our virginity in the woods. 

"Hey, Coco..." She rested her head on my chest.

"Yeah?" I asked, preoccupied with the game I was playing.

"Thanks ha. If it weren't for you baka kung ano na ang nangyari sa akin. I don't know what I'd do without you." Her fingers played on my chest, tracing random shapes and letters.

"No prob. Anything for you." I kissed her hair.

"Ano ba yang nilalaro mo?" She asked.

"Fallout." I answered, my eyes still fixed on the game.

"Want to play with something else?" I could feel her hot breath brush against my ear. Anais took my hand and slipped it inside her shorts. I felt her warm womanhood against my palm. She was hot and eager... "I miss this, Coco..."

"I miss this too." I murmured, my lips were already on top of her ear. I completely forgot about the game and focused on nothing but her. I palmed her pussy against her underwear, sliding my fingers up and down her slit. I could feel her getting hotter and wetter.

I pushed her panties aside and touched her. I instantly found her clit and rubbed my fingers around it. She bucked and writhed against my hands. I cupped her face and made her face me before attacking her lips with mine. I slipped a tongue into her mouth which she welcomed and greeted eagerly like a familiar guest.

I could feel the stir in my pants as I felt her getting wetter and wetter for me. Her pussy was moist and slippery with her juice. I played with her a little, teasing and lightly pulling and pinching at her clit and then I slipped a finger in. I began to finger fuck her, fucking her deeper with each thrust. 

"Oh, Coco..." She moaned.

She unzipped my pants and slipped her hands in, wrapping her warm fingers around my cock. He stroked me while my hand stroke her. My cock grew harder and harder with each stroke. Damn! She knew every thick vein of it and she worked it well. It was give and take, thrust and pull, maddening and intoxicating.

When I felt like I was about to blow, I pulled away. I didn't want to finish like that. She let out a whine when I stopped fingering her. I took off her top and her bra and threw it on the floor. I kissed her in the lips again as my hands played with her two sweet globes, twisting and pulling her nipples until she was senseless with pleasure. 

My lips lowered to them and I kissed and sucked them one by one. She moaned and her fingers dug into my hair. While I was busy sucking her tits, my hands were slowly pushing her short and her panties down. I shifted my body away from her to look at her. She was beautiful. Her body was a sight to behold. I didn't think I could ever get used to this. 

"Show me what I'm going to fuck." I huskily said.

She swallowed and then poised herself in front of me, opening her legs. Showing me her sweet, eager pussy. It was glistening wet, I could see and smell how ready she was for me.

"You missed me that much huh?" I asked, my lips lifting in an arrogant smile.

"Mhmm..." She nodded her head. 

"Show me more, Anais..."

She leaned back and reach over between her legs. Using two fingers, she pulled her folds apart, exposing her tender, pink flesh. I could have an orgasm just by looking at her.

"You're killing me!" I groaned before lowering my head between her thighs. I covered her sex with my mouth and my tongue lapped at her. It glided up and down her sweet slit, tasting every precious inch of her. Giving her long, firm strokes.  I plunged into her hole only withdrawing to find her swollen clit. She moaned my name over and over as if it was a prayer.

After a few moments, she stiffened and her juice came flooding out in abundance. She had reached her climax but I didn't stop. I had to get every last drop of her. Every sweet drop. She pushed my head away as she was still sensitive from the orgasm she just had.

She smiled at me with a glint of playful desire playing in her wild eyes. She reached over to touched my cock and was surprised when she lowered her head there. The warmth of her mouth wrapped around me. I felt like I'd died and went to heaven. This was the first time she had ever done this. I gasped when I felt a flick of her tongue against the sensitive tip. She looked up at me through the waterfall of dark hair. I let out a harsh groan when she pulled her mouth away from me.

"I'm not sure if I'm doing this right." She said. "Am I?"

"I don't know, I've never sucked a dick." I answered, still painfully hard.

She laughed and slapped me on the chest. "Asshole."

"Just continue what you're doing. It feels good." I moaned.

She lowered her head once more and took me in her warm and wet mouth. She sucked the tip and flicked her tongue.

"Coco!" We were both startled by the knock on my door. It was my Dad. 

"Y-yeah?" I asked, my voice shaky.

"Can I come in?"

"I- I'm busy."

"With what? Sandali lang. Kailangan lang kitang kausapin."

Umangat ang ulo ni Anais at nagkatinginan kaming dalawa. She bit her bottom lip, worry and fear written all over her face. I could hear Dad trying to push the door lever open but thank God, it was locked. Anais panicked and crawled into the space under my bed. I lifted my pants and underwear up and tried to collect myself. 

"Coco, son?"

"Okay, okay!" I got up from bed and opened the door. Dad went in and sat on the edge  of my bed.

"What?" I asked.

"You've been distant lately. Is there any problem?" Dad sighed.

I turned my back to him and opened the door to my bathroom. I didn't close it so I could still see him from the bathroom. I splashed my face with cold water so he wouldn't notice how flushed I was right now. 

"Nothing." I said.

"You have me, you have your Mom, you have your siblings." He said. "I'm sorry if you think I'm pressuring you to get to Harvard... I just assumed na iyon din ang gusto mo... I never even asked what you really want to do with your life..."

"It's okay, Dad." I answered and got out of the bathroom. 

"Coco, is there something you want to tell me?" Biglang nag-iba ang tono ng boses ni Dad. He sounded like he had choked on something.

"Wala." I shook my head, folding my arms over to my chest.

"Are you sure?" 

"Yeah..."

"Coco, alam mo matatanggap ka namin ng Mommy at ng mga kapatid mo kahit ano ka pa. You don't have to hide anything from us. Whatever path you choose to go or whoever you choose to become, we will always be here for you." Dad said.

"Okay, I get it." My brows furrowed. What Dad was telling me were both weird and confusing.

"We're here to support you. You don't have to keep it all to yourself. Kung ano ka, yun ka. Now I completely understand where you're coming from."

"Dad, what the hell?" Hindi na ako nakatiis.

"Be honest with me. Are you gay, anak?" He gently asked.

"Am I what?" My eyes almost popped out. "Are you really asking me that question?"

He held up Anais' pink bra. 

Lumapit ako sa kanya and I snatched it off his hand. "Dad, no! Don't touch that!"

"A bi?" He asked again.

"Daaad!" I groaned. "No, I'm not a bi."

"A crossdresser?" I could see the confusion in his face.

"I'm straight, a full-blooded male! This is not mine!" I frustratedly exclaimed.

Dad stood up from my bed and gave me a pat my shoulder. "I understand. Just know that I'll listen when you're ready to tell everything to me."

He playfully messed my hair and kissed me on the forehead. He walked to the door and left. I immediately locked it and Anais slid out from under. She roared in laughter and threw herself over to my bed.

"Your Dad thinks you're gay!" Her words were almost incoherent because she couldn't stop laughing.

"That was close." I said and jumped into bed with her. I straddled on top of her. "You know damn well that's not true. Now where were we?"