Acceptance

Want, need, pain and emptiness

This is the bleakness of my existence

Kind words and platitudes brush over my face like a nonexistent breeze

Darkness is mine, my friend, my foe

My only constant

I feel myself falling, descending into the pit

Velvet darkness awaiting me

Wanting to enclose me within its folds

I have only to let go completely – to accept the inevitable

The road to brightness and colour is beyond me –

This is not my appointed road

I reach out to touch, to grasp some part of the light – the colour

But the brightness dims, the colour fades

I must I pull back before it all disappears

I live within sight, knowing I can never touch, never hold

I turn back to what is mine - my appointed road

This is to be my home –

This darkness with its velvety softness and warmth

I reach out and touch my quilt, my comforter letting it engulf me once more

Letting go so it can take me home