the basement.

my hands and feet were chained up to the wall. the chains were like ice.

it was so cold. so cold and dark.

jess wouldn't even speak to me when he came to feed me. he wouldn't even look me in the eyes. he would only bring me a room temperature water and a single saltine cracker.

i didn't know when he was gonna let me out, but i knew one thing.

he still wants me alive.

which meant somewhere down there he was human. some part of him loved me. and that part still did.

speaking of jess, he came down into the basement, flooding the place with light. he came closer but i couldn't see his face. just the outline of his body.

he pressed something cold against my lips. i cringed away from it but he forced it further.

"eat," he said.
it was difficult to chew. it was a frozen carrot. it wasn't good at all.

he was about to leave when i stopped him. i couldn't bear another minute down here.

"jess."

the door was halfway open and all i could see was the outline of his body.

"yes, kitten?"

"i'll be good, but please just let me out."

"for you to escape again? i don't think so."

"i'll let you do anything you want with me. i won't leave. but just let me out of here."

he turned in the doorway and said something so scary i started crying.

"just remember that if you leave, i'll find you. And i'll hurt you so badly you won't be able to walk."

he walked over and unchained my hands thankfully. my wrists did hurt a lot, though. he grabbed me by the hand, which gave me a tingly feeling and dragged me up to my room.
As he led me there roro came barreling at me and jumped upon my legs, barking and wagging his tail.

"hey, roro!" i squealed. jess stopped dragging me for second to let me play with roro.

i fell to the floor and started playing with him and laughing. suddenly any fear for Jess was gone, and i did the worst thing i could do.

"jess," i said between laughs because roro was on his hind legs jumping around, "come here, i want you to see this!"

i instantly stopped laughing because i knew he would get angry and would hit me. or worse.
B but he didn't. he smiled lightly and walked over to me. he sat down next to me and pulled me into his lap.
i felt a tingly feeling in my chest when he did. i'd never felt that before, and it wasn't a bad feeling either.

i leaned into him and made myself comfortable. he let out a content sigh and put his face into the crook of my neck. his breath was cool and made me shiver with delight.

"you know," i mumbled. "i think i'd rather stay here with you than leave." then i felt my stomach drop. i think i said the wrong thing.
he leaned in closer it that was even possible, his arms constricting around my body. his lips grazed my ear and he said this: "i thought you never wanted to leave, kitten."
i felt my lip started quivering as he started to bite at my skin. it wasn't aggressive, but it was enough to get me going. 

my legs wouldn't stop shifting around as his hands roamed. my heart was saying yes, but my brain clearly said no, and i pulled away. 

he seemed to get angry when i did. like he thought i was enjoying this. i quickly stood up and bolted to my room, roro following close behind.

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i have no reason why i didn't update for like 2 months or something im sorry but its here now yipee