I saw you laughing with her again. The look in your eyes; the lovelorn, pining gaze nearly broke my heart all over again. You never looked at me like how you look at her. But then again, she and I are completely different human beings.

Nova is perfection. 

She's gorgeous and flawless, sweet and smart, athletic and of course, popular. Why would you even glance my way when there was someone like Nova Belmonte talking to you? It was obvious that you were so in love with her. But you know what's worse? The fact that she did not feel the same way about you. She only thought of you as one of her best friends. 

Ironic, isn't it? You know what it feels like when the one you're in love with doesn't feel the same way. But that was exactly what you were doing to me.

I just want to run my hands through your luscious hair. I just want to feel the taste of your lips against mine. I just want to know what it feels like to be loved.

I guess I'm just unlucky. I fell for the one person with whom I never stood a chance. 

Ashton, You'll never know just how much you mean to me. How much I value those meaningless and small conversations we share. How much I crave those accidental brushes of skin which send sparks up my veins.

You'll never know that you meant the world to me, while I was just a speck of dust floating in the atmosphere to you.

• author's note •

i think this chapter is pretty important. it highlights her insecurities and sort of shows you what type of person tanya is. hope you liked it! please show your appreciation through votes and comments. have a great day :)