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𖢲 .. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒'𝑠 𝑎 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑒 𝐼'𝑚 𝑎𝑓𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑏𝑒 ;
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" ⟡ . 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝗯𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗮 𝗺𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 .. . . "

⎯  𝑯ozier
{ } .. 𝗔 𝗯 𝘀 𝘁 𝗿 𝗮 𝗰 𝘁 .

# How It Shines / Abstract
── .✦ ARCANE FANFICTION  ✶
٠࣪⭑ SEASON ONE ──────── SEASON TWO ꗃ

LOCATION:
???, Zaun
circa xxxx  ── ✴︎.

( Tadashi stood outside one of the undercity's many brothels, a cigarette held loosely between his lips as he leaned against the cool brick of the wall. he stood here at the same time every day, waiting. )

( just like clockwork, the miners from the fissures came through, and with them two of the four people that made his life bearable. )

TADASHI:  ( he smiles warmly, stubbing out the cigarette on the wall behind him ) "I was starting to worry you guys wouldn't show."

VANDER:  ( chuckled lightly, an arm around silco's shoulders ) "And leave you hanging? Never."

SILCO:  ( shakes his head, a fond smile on his face ) "So, are we going or not?"

( just as Tadashi pushed off from the wall to walk with them to The Last Drop, another man approached, flipping a coin. )

TADASHI:  ( putting a hand up ) "Off the clock, maybe next time."

( the man was about to argue, but his gaze shifted to Vander and Silco—more specifically the looks they were giving him—and he decided against it, slinking inside )

TADASHI:  ( exhaling heavily ) "C'mon, Felicia will have our asses if we're late again."

TADASHI HAS ALWAYS HAD AN ACCUTE AWARENESS OF THE PATTERNS IN HIS LIFE.

      It was always a cycle. Of love. Of violence. Of loss. Of his
entire life slipping through his fingers. His parents, his closest
friends. They were lost to this cycle, a cycle that chipped away
at Tadashi more every time it came back around.

      He'd thought the only way to stop it was to fight back. To reject
the cycle and break out. And it worked. For years he was able
to allow himself peace, to be a father. But, of course, nothing
can last forever. Especially for Tadashi.

First was Felicia. Then Silco. Then Benzo. Then his family.
All gone. What was he supposed to think, that it was all part of
some greater plan? No, if anything his life was a cosmic joke.
And he was done playing his part.

✷       ❝ darling,  there's a part of me i'm afraid will always be trapped within an abstract from a moment of my life .. . . ❜             ➹

🐉      TADASHI      ..     abstract ( psychopomp )
( featuring the voice of paul nakauhi )

✷             ❝ it's like i lived my whole  life  .. before
the first  light .. . . ❜             ➹

🥀 VANDER .. first light
( featuring the voice of jb blanc )

00.   and so, oh, the misery is back and better than ever. so much of this fic has been revamped after season two, so prepare for even worse heartache.

01.   tadashi you are my fav oc ever. his character arcs and backstory have changed so dramatically since i originally published this fic, becoming way more interesting ( in my opinion ) than before. im tired and i don't have much to say right now about this fic but maybe i'll come back and make this author's note better. all i can really say is doomed old man yaoi is my fav.

02.   DEDICATIONS  ᡣ𐭩 kvfkas  ewgender  storiez0  Thatonegaybitch2005 C-CHL0EINNIT fawnlace  maiareficcos

03.   DISCLAIMERS  !! i do not own, nor claim to own Arcane, League of Legends, or any of its characters or storylines. those belong to Riot Games. the only things i own are my oc, tadashi ( his likeness—hanzo from overwatcg—is also owned by blizzard entertainment ), and any alterations i make to the storyline for the purposes of this fanfiction. a certain script-esque section of this layout ( which you may or may not recognize ) is entirely inspired by my girlie rai ( risaspring ) <3 all credits go to her  ( also go check out her fics they're some of my fav on this godforsaken site ).

04.   TRIGGER WARNINGS  !! this fanfiction will contain many dark and potentially triggering topics, including but not limited to: general descriptions of violence, major character death, graphic injury and violence, strong language, grief, implied depression and suicidal ideation, loss of a loved one, manipulation, trauma, post traumatic stress, depictions of mental illness, and implied sexual content. if any of the aforementioned topics make you uncomfortable or trigger you in any way, please don't hesitate to close this book, it will not hurt my feelings.