Kyle

I'm just taking a break from studying and Keith just dozed off and napping already. So I decided to roam the house, like it's really big like there are rooms that I haven't explored yet. I walk around until I found myself in front of a giant door that is seems to be sealed for a long time. With my curiosity I tried opening the door and to my surprise it's unlocked. I found myself in a giant music room with every instrument that could possibly fit in it, It looks like it's haven't been used for a long time but, it's perfectly maintained as I can see. I look around to see an acoustic guitar perfectly placed on its stand. It's been quite a while since I last played, I still pick the guitar trying to decode the chords of the song that I've been listening to for a while using Keith's computer well, I'm still saving money for a phone so I guess I'm still stuck burrowing Keith's computer to listen to music. It's Narcissist by No Rome featuring the 1975 seconds later when I figured it out I started singing.

Took a picture of all my flaws
Or you can take a video on your phone
And you know that I would talk
But I'm too afraid to pick you up and go home
I'm feeling Dazed like a magazine
Finding my own sanity
Wishing it'll all go away
Now we're smoking off the balcony
You're telling me profanities
Maybe it was never okay

It's been to long since I last sing and play guitar but, I still got it like I used to. I miss this, it's making me relax and with all the pain and the suffering that I've been through this is what I need.

345, that's where we stayed
She told me I'm a narcissist doing it again
Took a bunch of acid and she told me, "not again"
Now I've gotta tell her that I'm lovin' her friends
345, that's where we stayed
She told me I'm a narcissist doing it again
Took a bunch of acid and she told me, "not again"
Now I've gotta tell her that I'm lovin' her friends

I just continued singing and playing like, I don't want to stop. I just feel my self getting more lost in the music and sing without holding back a bit. Somehow I can feel my old self coming back, back when it's less problematic and I can still be happy, back when I was complete and unbroken.

And I've been seeing somebody
But I've not found a way to tell you
That I'm seeing somebody
There's not a nice way for me to say that
I've been seeing somebody
You know I want you to be happy
Since I'm seeing somebody
And then maybe we can get on with it

Stay out late, I just wanna get stoned
Telling all your friends that I'm never at home
And my face filling up with blood
But you're still saying they don't like your bourgeois
Coughing up the promethazine
Living like an evergreen
Sorry for the things that I've done
Now Selena won't be friends with me
I was kissing Emily
I love you, it was never your fault
(Got me like)

I know it's only been a couple of minutes of music but, it felt like it was forever. I've never been this free I never felt this light for so many years I don't want this moment to stop. I just continue to strum and sing my heart out without a care about who's listening or if there's someone who listens. Right now, I don't give a fuck, all I care about is being with myself feeling comfortable in my own skin, and I just continue on.

345, that's where we stayed
She told me I'm a narcissist doing it again
Took a bunch of acid and she told me, "not again"
Now I've gotta tell her that I'm lovin' her friends

And I've been seeing somebody
But I've not found a way to tell you
That I'm seeing somebody
There's not a nice way for me to say that
I've been seeing somebody
You know I want you to be happy
Since I'm seeing somebody
And then maybe we can get on with it

Seeing somebody

That line, I wish I'm really seeing somebody I guess it would be fun. To think of it there's a quite number of guys who asked me out before, I was just really afraid of what my dad would do if I ever did it. So I stayed single I stayed alone but, if I come to think of it now dad's getting help, maybe I should worry less and give myself a chance. I think giving myself a chance won't be selfish of me because, I sacrificed a lot over the years. I love my dad and all but, I guess I should start loving myself too and find love for me. With those thoughts circling my head the music continued to play as I sing more to it.

345, that's where we stayed
She told me I'm a narcissist doing it again
Took a bunch of acid and she told me, "not again"
Now I've gotta tell her that I'm lovin' her friends...

As I continue to strum till the end, I feel myself panting because, I was like full performance without an audience. I tried to calm my nerves down because, I still feel high due to the music. I was making my breaths slowly and to my horror I heard a slow but, loud applause. When I turn around it was Keith with the widest smile placed on his lips, the look on his eyes though, it's something different I see desire in it. His grin grew wider as he come closer I feel my heart race and before I know it his face is inches from mine. "I have a plan for the winter dance." He said with a creepy smile and I feel myself get pale, before I even respond he ran away with his phone on his ear. "Hello Dyl, get your ass here and bring people who knows music, we are making a band!" He announced and I feel like fainting.

I pace back and forth as I try to convince Keith to just dump the idea but of course, he refuse it and tell me how awesome can all us be if we play at the school's dance. "Please Keith let that idea go, I can't do it heck I will never be able to do it even by just thinking about!" I protest and he just rolled his eyes on annoyance.
"Kyle have you heard yourself? You're awesome and maybe if you perform everybody will warm up to you or you know just stop being mean to you." Well, I consider that but, I dunno maybe they would but, I might die during the process. Did he forget that I'm the most awkward person in the whole wide world? I just bite my nails due to my nervousness and frustration, I felt arms wrap around me and I stop shaking. "Trust me on this one, I have the greatest feeling about this." Keith whispered and somehow, he's making me believe.

It's been over an hour when Dylan came with Darius and two unknown guys. Keith pulled me as he walk towards the group. "Hey, sorry we came late I really need to find these guys over here." Dylan said pointing on the two new guys. "By the way Kyle and Keith these are Aven and Tim." He introduced and right after he said Tim's name Darius cling to him. "Tim is my baby." He claimed nudging himself to the guy, Dylan rolled his eyes, Aven just shrugged and Tim pushed Darius away. "In your dreams Dar, I don't date people with reputations." He said, his words confused me though what kind of reputation can Darius have? "Oh, that was something but, please to meet you guys I'm Keith." Keith broke the awkwardness and he offered his hand to Tim, Tim shook his hand and Aven just made a salute style wave. "You got a pretty sick place man." Tim said to Keith. "Thanks, so are you informed why you're here?" Keith asked and all of them nodded. "Dylan, told us already so, who's the vocalist?" Darius asked. "Him." Keith said plainly as he pointed at me. "No way, Kyle you sing? And you didn't tell me." Darius pout as he cross his arms. "Well Keith caught me singing while playing the guitar earlier and then, he came up with this idea." I said and shrug at him.

"Okay so what songs do you know?" Aven ask me. "We need to a sample to decide if you really pass as the vocalist." He said and I nod at him. "Are you into mainstream music of today?" I asked them they all nodded. "How about Never Really Over by Katy Perry, sounds good?" I suggested and they nodded again. "But dude, can you handle the notes? I mean they are a little bit high and hard to sing for guys." Tim asked. "Well I can try." I answered. "Cool we'll start with the chorus everyone and we will end after the lines 'Thought we drew the line right for you and I' Something." Aven instructed and everybody went to their respective instruments. Keith on the lead, I'm on the Rhythmic, Dylan on the bass, Aven on drums Darius on the piano and Tim set his equipment up well with his stuff I guess he's a DJ. They set an intro for me and I took a deep breath and think that I'm all alone in the room before singing.

Two years, and just like that
My head still takes me back
Thought it was done
But I guess it's never really over
Oh, we were such a mess
But wasn't it the best?
Thought it was done
But I guess it's never really over
Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be comin' over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again
Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be comin' over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again
Thought we kissed goodbye
Thought we meant this time was the last
But I guess it's never really over
Thought we drew the line
Right through you and I
Can't keep going back
I guess it's never really over, hey

The music stopped and now everyone's staring at me. "Wow, you're a vocal whiz and those vocal cracks sound so good it added a lot!" Tim was the first one to speak and I blush at his words. "Stunning, now I understand." Aven's words made me blush more. "You're ethereal!" Dar run to me and hugged me, Dylan's just shock in his amazement and Keith is just smiling like an idiot. "I told you so guys, he's the vocalist!" He shouted to everyone and all they did is smile with him. Oh gosh this is bad, I'm dead.

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Kyle's Photo on top.

Links for the MVs of the songs I used.

Narcissist by No Rome featuring the 1975: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zO8TIDyreUU

Never Really Over by Katy Perry: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aEb5gNsmGJ8

Hope you like this chapter guys and please check the MVs cause they're awesome.