So... I don't know who all will read this but... Please beware and I don't really want anyone to comment but if you do that's alright... I just want to get this off of my chest

Everyone says it's going to be alright. But is it really. Are they all just lies. I CAN'T TELL WHAT'S A LIE OR WHATS THE TRUTH. EVERYONE TELLING ME LIES. I CAN'T DO IT. I CAN'T. DOES THE WORLD WANT ME TO GIVE UP. IS IT TIME FOR ME TO GIVE UP. BECAUSE I DO. I DO GIVE UP. I'M TIRED OF CRYING. I'M TRIED OF THINKING THAT YOU MIGHT COME BACK. I'M TIRED OF PUTTING ON A FAKE SMILES AND ACTING IF EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT.

I'M TRYING. I REALLY AM. BUT I GIVE UP. I CAN'T DO IT. THE NIGHTMARES HAUNT ME THE THOUGHTS GET TO ME. I CAN'T DO IT. NOTHING IS EVER OKAY. AND AND DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO SUFFER AND LISTEN TO MY PROBLEMS. WHY WOULD ANYONE CARE FOR MY PROBLEMS. I'M TRYING I'M TRYING

I HIDE IT. I DON'T SHOW IT. WHAT ELSE CAN I DO. I DRAW I PAINT I LISTEN TO MUSIC I WRITE. NOTHING IS HELPING ME AND I HAYE THE FIGHTING. I HATE THE SCREAMING I HATE IT. I HATE THAT I FEEL ALONE. I HATE THAT I'M CRYING. THE CRYING. I DON'T WANT TO CRY ANYMORE. I DON'T WANT TO TRY AND SLEEP.

I JUST WANT TO SLEEP FOREVER... I CAN'T DO IT. I CAN'T. IT'S SCARY. PEOPLE ARE SCARY. THE MONSTERS ARE SCARY. THE ADULTS ARE SCARY.

WHO CAN I TRUST IN THIS WORLD. WHO CAN HELP ME. I'M SCREAMING. I 'M TRYING TO GET YOUR ATTENTION BUT YOU WON'T LOOK. YOU WON'T HEAR IT.

Who ever has.... Who has ever heard the screaming.... No one..

I can't take it.. I can't.... I'm on the line of giving up. I'm hanging just by a thread.

CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND. I'M NOT A GIRL. I'M NOT THE DAUGHTER YOU WANTED AND I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY I'M A FAULIRE. I'M SORRY..

I'M SORRY I'M A BOY. I'M SORRY THAT I'M DIFFERENT.. I'M SORRY. I'M SO SORRY.

I'M TRYING. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? WHAT DO YOU WANT WANT ME TO DO. I'M SORRY THAT I'M NOT A PUPPET.

I'M SORRY THAT YOU HATE ME. I'M SORRY IF YOU THINK I'M WEIRD.

I'M SORRY
I'M SORRY

I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY

I'M SORRY FOR BEING WORTHLESS
I'M SORRY FOR BEING FAT

I'M SORRY THAT I GET SCARED

I'M SORRY I'M WEAK

I'M SORRY I'M SORRY